5/8/2012 12:14:18 AM: lately been having my first recurring snuff fantasy -- My mistress may not want me any further, but I've already devoted myself to her, so I feel I have nowhere else to go -- we go out a few miles from shore on her boat, the ocean depth here is unknown... 100, 200, 300+ feet deep likely.  I have with me a heavy, large cinder block used for construction.  I place my two forearms through the two holes and struggle just a bit to lift it up onto my lap.  I handcuff my wrists as tightly as I can and approach the side of the boat.  I beg her one last time to keep me, but she denies me and says 'go on, do it.'  I step onto the railing on the boat, and struggle to maintain my balance as the boats rocks from side to side.  I do this a few times falling back into the boat.  I do this once more and fall into the ocean as my wet foot slips on the railing.  I'm now plunging through the depths faster than I can imagine with no way to get free.  In these last moments I'm only interested in the pain that's quickly building from the increasing depths.  I want to enjoy my last moments through the pain and now blackened misery as I ing crushed out of me by the ocean around me.  For all I know, she'll have a few more drinks and head back to shore for a night on the town.

5/6/2012 6:01:28 PM: NEW profile pic 5/6 -- I got to longing or some domination a week ago and decided to take matters into my own hands.  I heated up a clothing iron and touched it to my ass.  The pain made me pull away instantly.  Not wanting to give up that easily, because I know you wouldn't, I pushed down the steam button and jammed it hard against my ass once more.  The result you see in my profile photo.  The photo was taken 1 week after the incident.  It only took a second and I'm glad that's all I did.  Second degree burns you can see have popped and are starting to heal.  Imagine what trouble I could find myself in if tied on a bed spread eagle, you sitting atop me, and holding it there, even until the sizzling and crackling noises stopped.  Ouch indeed.

5/6/2012 4:07:43 AM: At one's request, strangely, I can also provide bulk quantities of urethane glue or superglue to be used at night in public places to make myself a new statue in say a public park.  I'd definitely still be there for tourists in the day time.  Geez.

5/6/2012 4:05:14 AM: an electric grinder could be used by a really sadistic domme girl to grind down or grind away my teeth also... something scary but possible, something I could provide.  Want to be my personal dentist?  Argh, I set myself up for such misery.