3/3/2024 9:58:11 AM: So -  Am I a masocist?  I've wondered about that some.Firstly I hate and dislike pain.  Well maybe not hate, but I break down quick.  Cry squirm, beg.  Instant - I'm not one.Secondly, I love to please.   it's my goal, my purpose and my life.   As such I'd be willing to submit to whatever pain that may please.And in the end, I would be very very happy and satisfied, assuming they are as well.   AKA I pleased.   And as such I would be in heaven.So..  the act of taking pain I enjoyed.   Not the physical part, but the mental/emotional part.So does that make me a Masochist?   I wonder...

1/17/2024 2:07:25 PM: I used to post all the time I feel.  Thease went away for far too long and i've gotten out of practice.As submissive as I am, I need and MUST respect the person(s) that I submit to and serve.  It pains me to say and write this, but I think I need to.  If you are supportative of Trump, no matter what your reason, I do not respect you.Talking why's and reasons are unneeded.  Things are so polarized now, that most people know why or why not.   Though if you want to talk, I'm open to polite discuession and debate.what about serving other Republicians who don't support Trump?   That is a very strong 'it depends'.I'm a huge huge huge fan of Freedom(funny enough huh?  ;). ), and things like extreme strictness abortion laws where women are at risk of dying, as well as this Moms for liberity crap and banning books seems very much like restricting freedom and Control.So the 'it depends' depends a lot on your views and values overall, as well as your acceptance of mine.   Because with what I say above?  I'd imagine there are many a Republician who have similar feelings about people with my views.  Though after this post, I doubt few republicians would care to speak with me.

5/7/2015 4:01:37 PM: So.. I finally took the test. All in all I'm somewhat dissatisfied. I mean it fits for me, however the test is set in a way that the test taker can pick what they want. So if someone wants to be a slave they can pick the answers that perfectly fit them. It works for what it is.. but I can't help wonder if there isn't a better way of testing.... *shrugs* == Results from http://bdsmtest.org/ == 100% Bondage Receiver 100% Slave 71% Non-monogamist 70% Exhibitionist 67% Submissive 63% Primal (Prey) 50% Voyeur 44% Masochist 38% Degradation Receiver 38% Primal (Predator) 30% Vanilla 0% All-Rounder 0% Bondage Giver 0% Degradation Giver 0% Dominant 0% Master/Mistress 0% Sadist 0% Switch See my results online at http://bdsmtest.org/result.php?id=329020

3/10/2015 6:29:12 PM: So...  I feel that new subs and slaves, and in new relationships, the subs and slaves should be allowed orgasm lots.  In fact encouraged to.  Not be put in chastity!....Yes.  wait?  Sacrilege? Hmmm.  Perhaps so.  but hear me out.I've been thinking.  When I go even a couple of days without orgasm, I'm horny, frustrated, aching, thinking of sex and orgasm.  And it sometimes is my focus.   Even when I'm being controlled, if I am told to wait, my focus is on that, MY orgasm, MY control, MY frustration and ache.I tend to be pretty good at this, and everyone gets weak at times, I know, but I'm pretty good at handling this.But this is part of why I speak the above.As a sub, I can understand the joy and thrill of chastity.  It is right there, and the frustration starts so fast that it keeps you focused on the chastity. The lack of control it gives you.For many boys it helps them focus and serve better.  Sometimes it helps provide the motivation to be perfect.  and pleasing.  And focused only on the Domme.For the Domme, I can understand wanting that.  only having pleasure, not giving any.  And maybe only when you desire and want. Having one more element that you control and have to hold over his head and force him to do whatever you want.The thing is..  should he need motivation?Should you need to force him to do whatever you want?Should there be motivation?Additionally, and perhaps most importantly.  I hear and read complaints all the time that when a guy cums he's done.  he turns over and goes to sleep.  he becomes less submissive, and his desires to be submissive wane.  I know this to be mostly true.  I know when I'm satisfied, I have no desire to masturbate, or look at porn or anything sexual.  I'm happy, content and non cluttered.And in this way..  I think it can be a true and full test for new relationships and all subs.   When a guy isn't horny, has no desire for sex or orgasm, is he just as submissive as if his balls are full and cock hard?  is he just as pleasing?  just as perfect?This...  This may be a good way to test to see if the sub you have, is a true sub.  Because any real sub, is submissive because its who they are.  because we don't need anything from it, we like it because we like being submissive.  no secret motives.   And I don't mean that Dommes need to have sex or anything with the sub.  send them to the bathroom to take care of things away from you if you wish.  But the key is making sure they act and are submissive even when their full aching balls are not there encouraging them on.Maybe I'm wrong...  But maybe not.  I think the logic is there.  Thoughts?  I'm curious about this line of thinking...Thanks for reading.  :)

2/17/2015 6:05:28 PM: As always I go along browsing profiles and journals.  Looking for interesting reads or even better interesting people to interact with..  And I came across several male sub profiles...  Me me me.Put me in chastity.  -seriously?make me wear panties.  punish me....   -Any good punishment is one that you would never beg for, want or desire...but anyways how does any of this serve?  How does it please?  Are they limits or must haves for you?   Shouldn't your focus and desire be to serve and please?let me make you smile...i want to make your wishes come truelet me sacrifice to make things easier for you..Yea corny..  but still better than some crap I see in a lot of sub profiles.  Don't determine what your domme and Mistress should do or like or desire before even meeting her, it's one good way to keep yourself from meeting her!!!Just saying...