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I seek a Pleasure Warrior, one that is not encumbered with gender stereotypes or BDSM role expectations made by others. A proud respectful and uninhibited person who wishes for ongoing fulfillment of who they have been, are and becoming across all aspects of life. Someone also who protects the multiverse of organic relationships active across both personal and professional actions and outcomes. For the right one I offer equally what I seek and a guiding support for as long as we unite in this way. I only need one Prefer 35-50 yrs old, with current face and body images.

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5/15/2014 5:10:04 PM

Many of you have commented on my terminology 'Pleasure Warrior'. If you are familiar with my journal then you will know it is coined for the last live in slut that I was proudly the owner of and become and continues to be a wonderful friend that I hope to know forever. 

The term itself is coined for a supreme sub of my liking who is equal to my dominant nature and can take everything I give and outdo me, making me therefore always want to be a better Dom and person. 

 

It is my nature to top so to speak and also my nature to want an equal partner. This is equal regardless of roles played but more then played as it is someone to be ourselves with uninhibited, whoever that is at the time since we are constantly changing. I like to control every aspect of my subs life and at the same time want them to take the lead of what I say independently and grow so that as life changes we are both equally always becoming the best we can be. 

 

I say that I will teach you to be yourself and better at it, ahaha this is true and hence why it is good to start with a good surface. 

 

A 'Pleasure Warrior' therefore will be intelligent, fit, strong, gentle, have ultimate control to take my bidding, be good hearted and respectful about past, present and future relationships and most of all desire me and the journey with me as I will them above all others.

 

If you are bitter about 'others' and lie on your profile proclaiming this choice to be those 'others' fault then already the surface is tarnished and the answer is no no matter how many messages sent. 

 

It is not for everyone to be a Pleasure Warrior and for even less to be mine.

 

I only need and want one.

 

 

 

 


4/30/2014 3:37:40 AM

As candidly as I can state this 'No current face image with message then your message will be deleted unread'. I don't do blind chat, fact is I rarely chat and if after I have seen you and read your images and text in your profile and journal, then I will decide if we may be able to share something and read your message. This is equally important if you think we have a chance at possible friendship or want to converse on other mutual interests then I need to see who.

 

There have been times when an image of an act or art has been sent and recieved well but this is rare.

 


10/29/2013 5:31:17 PM

I am often humbled by the pride and generosity gifted from those that I have held as mine, now come friends and kin. Neither my harshness to delve inside their growing read and push to various enlightenment's nor their having alone earned themselves any level reached during or after our bonded time stops their individual warrior protection towards me. It may be true they protect themselves for something they have come to need, not found elsewhere but this doesn't lessen my humbled honor.

 

 


8/27/2013 1:53:11 AM

And another week goes by making it about 4 weeks waiting for update of my profile pic and it hasn't happened.

Makes it difficult expecting upfront images and offering equal regardless of roles.

Maybe CM isn't manned anymore?


8/18/2013 7:34:37 AM

I have changed again, grown and want to be as upfront as I like to find.

This is not prooving an easy task..

I uploaded current pics 3 weeks ago and when only the paintings showed up after 2

weeks I reuploaded and still nothing.

By the time they show I may have changed again... Ahh well at least change is

dependable


8/3/2013 9:26:11 PM

I am looking for a pleasure warrior! One who is mutual and looking for me..come find me... Be strong, naturally wild and adventurous, close to my age,weight, fitness and desire for the equal chemistry towards long term growth. No play meets, no age play, no gender agenda.


7/30/2013 6:58:36 PM

So it is clear, I do not take kindly to BABE, HUN or other demeaning attempts to bring me down to your level regardless of years hierstry of previous communications. Just incase your wondering why I deleted your message. Furthermore so as to save you further attempts at gaining my submission through means of humiliation, which I seem to have natural talent in giving, it is not my desire to give or recieve in this way seeker...


7/7/2012 3:29:31 AM

IF YOU CANT SHOW ME YOUR FACE WE HAVE NOTHING TO DISCUSS AND

I WILL DELETE YOUR MESSAGE


1/31/2012 3:54:00 PM

I have submitted to my desires to make art and steal every available moment in my studio. My dream studio the actual one ... like a dream for the first few weeks after I scored it and I could finally take my series out of my bedroom where they were born and bred till they are ready to come out be finalised and belong to others so i can start my next set.  I designed a Power plant for the two larger panels and drew from it on my leg.  I wanted it to stay longer so i scratched it out with a pin but I heal too fast and half had healed before I got to see it fine red and raised.  Ahhh flesh

 

and you must think how does cleo paint without a submisive completeting me.

 

The one who pleases me is no submissive, is not to be bound or collared, comes and goes freely and chooses me freely as I choose equal. Wild in experience and dance, I hope to ink his stories on his body as another adventure shared.


11/17/2011 5:10:51 PM

Well My Pleasure Warrior is left the country now, yesterday on my Bday infact. But

left with some regard, acceptance and understanding of our time together making the loss more barable then the closeness with isolation and confusion ever was.

We spent quality time in the few days remaining, he not in service and yet I was keen to know if his body still rose to my ways. And this with a simple story of doing I awakened his sleepy body, left untouched since last I enjoyed.  After I said 'you came to me much older and I think your happy time with me made it ok for you to be younger again'. He agreed.  Funny though how I will always know to command his body as mine, triger its shapes its arousal, its submission and mighty control. He was the only one to be truely collared by me, It would have been sad indeed to leave in sad isolation as this should always now be one of his true homes.  He too may never give himself so completely to another, giving up control awake and asleep for over 6months.  he left a month to the day of within a month from a year since he first came to serve. And leaving him at 2 am I knew rather than think of his flight out at midday, I would book in work be entrenhed teaching and accept our new and beter outcome for an ending. Perhaps now both of us can accept the growth of knowing with regard.


10/23/2011 6:18:17 PM

Ahh and gender and sexuality, writen by others that I cant conform to bite me again. You came a slut needy and submissive to my use. I made you whole and used you till you were filled tall and strong. But that is not why you came to stay ! Deny me perhaps but not yourself.  It was your pussy touched wet with desire that made you beg me another visit for consideration to stay. You desired my phallic skills to penetrate you. This we took further and i found many ways to penetrate you. I owned your desire awake or asleep. rope, scarves, drill bits, rivets. i shaped your body your mind, your cunt and your penis to penetrate you in many many ways, make you hard wet fat with desire. And us both being clean and safe we played with menstral ohhhh i love to play with blood. blood as when I am woman mine for life. the cum you drank of my skin, perhaps yours in body but you know it was mine, I owned you, but you too are unowned now. You can ask me now after i never asked and acepted whole if I was always woman? I am as I was born, but grown, no hormone or surgery. My beautiful child you know was my water birth, who when you said, next to your best mate, he is a true gentleman'. That comment that had me think you would stay beyond our 6months.  But you are lost now, perhaps there is alot to question for you now about gender when it is not mine alone you have to address. And it is beyond physical parts and abilties and gone to sterotpical notions we shouldnt continue by living to. And its not sexuality either, lesbians please and yes when i am in a relationship with a woman i identify as a lesbian for polital notice in vision. Uncloud your eyes and enjoy what I have shared with you.  If its all you see of Australia then it wouldnt be a waste. Wisdom will come from the purity of the characters I introduced you to in my life, you played their guitars, hang out at their parties, ate food shared stories, watched underground films, saw the venue made of dreams. Saw the art and live action. You were cleos slut and treated with pride and adoration. 


10/23/2011 4:57:39 PM

I was reminded several times that I am being a bitter old bitch over the last few days.

Several subs have written in apology for the behaviour of my previous sub, please dont, I take full responsibilty for my choices and have no regrets and in saying, gave nothing, I am mainly bitter about not recieving a present at the completion of our 6month commitment and how the changes in need from sub to dom erased our journey completely and that their remains nothing physical of what was shared. I am useto paintings and drawings and songs and sketches and writing and letters and tools and things made for me. Not in tribute, but on occasions, I am special and for those that serve, it is a privilidge, one that stays with you forever. I am not one that people forget, till this one. and yes ive been a bitter,spoiled brat about it and dont think i feel beter yet either.

A kiwi friend texted me yesterday too, to remind me of my bitterness '2011 WORLD CUP CHAMPS. GO THE MIGHTY KIWIS CEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!'  maybe not the kiwi I expected it from, but perhaps on his behalf since the loss of one counted out his consideration.

And though Im not sport minded really, I will add. ONYA KIWIS YOU DESERVE THE 2011 WORLD CUP and i hope thats the one being played on home turf.

Even in saying that I do still feel extremely disregarded abd there will be no consideration of any under 35 from now on. I have become much more private in considering, I only need one, another superperson like me, who knows who they are and knows my worth.


9/25/2011 3:46:00 PM

I have awoken from a dream that lasted since December. My beard is grown wild I will need shears to trim and untagle its dreaded mess from my hair. My hair also grown and gone grey to white in my absence.

 

I look around me for traces of memories from the dream but nothing solid in real suggests I was anything but sleeping.

 

Those memories should fade soon enough as dreams tend to, trigered on in absurdity of moments and make me momentarily search again for solid truths where there is none.


3/4/2011 2:24:42 AM

Easy come easy go...


12/23/2010 6:15:03 PM

and hunt and feed i did mmm on one whose words were yes to my every command with mind body and soul mmm and who will return to please me again, perhaps not the 15-16 hrs i commanded on my first need after my knights rejection but enough to make the family xmas fold away the day with a smile and apreciation though like a dream it will be felt.

so away with the mask

I have no need of it and away with the fire fueling the rose to grow and create, some things are beter left as dreams. indeed... and true I am fueled enough already...

It would seem im better at commanding a sub then playing equal switch with a stone that promised to take me whole, with desire and once skimmed across my waters sunk and drowned all affection for me and reduced me to mentor friend and assumed I can change and play this new game.  forgeting our original intensions, which were whole, without shame and limitless. I did not forget. I would have taken both faces of the gemini but not one or the other and neithe without pride and desire.

 

  


12/16/2010 1:47:00 AM

Well it took my unmasking to make me don a mask and play and know it different to how I use to.  Taken with stories too just as I like it.

Still mostly im too raw for masks, straight up play. deeper and more intence the more the knowing

Learn their skills and play them like a conductor to my tunes so I can enjoy.  Knowing too in a vain way how much they delight in their delima. 

Watch how they learn my ways come back play me mmm switch delights...

And when they no longer enjoy...all gone my creative pleasure..till im forced to hunt and feed.

 

ahh pussycat indeed.

 

 


12/13/2010 3:37:40 PM

Come to see once more fair knight me in your chainmail you hidden in safety?...afraid?Ahh the alter ego...cant deny its power in becomming of split selfs or indeed in making us whole

  

The handcuffs placed on iron bed...ahhh you dream well...you had dreamed to cuff me, I saw it a moment in you as i have read it in you before and used it alone for my own satisfaction.

 

I say live well openely honestly no guilt and yes with our honour for ours as well for our past present and future relationships.

Back to dreams. Only there is no safety for you now in dreams. You allow me to haunt you. No guilt..No regret..

 

Our worlds shift back to our places east and west. 

I come into the space where you were and the doings that must be done can take my mind away with business. 

You wont be able to have a moments peace, in turmoil you will spin yourself, in every space now il consume you. 

Fallen petals where there should have been sweet scars from thorns, blood bleed for me. instead

 

I bleed a week early wash you out build new walls.

But for me I have learned to do well with my baggage

and if you consider it different you will see that you too earned your pain an glory and indeed i healed you. 

It seems there is no belonging, only figure 8 time.

  

Till 2 my time with you 2hrs away.. all that time i wrote our book ahaha well 8 chapters anyway.

Only 3 hrs it took to fly, I stole time so the journey before me took an extra hour and I flew faster home. The wind current the captain anounced made them take an extra hour there, we had boarded late and arrived on time.

 

You are metal, let the direct windless heat melt your selves and split and shape them as you wish in figure 8.   All of them, dont miss a thing in its moment of connection.   You get your pain and pleasures and earn and direct them and yes that is a command of time in order. Funny too i just realised that i only got 8 chapters done and they are sphericle indeed ahah

 

Perhaps you can write my theory as you see things, with books and research make it yours, ours if you wish i am not fussed with such readings you know i would prefer the reading of stories in many forms. You may tell me.. 'Spherigure 8', with the movements the changes some say.

 

Funny too that far we were closer as in days past i was older. I will and have created well with my baggage with you and have no regrets. Your wild honey just tasted. It is good! I will boil some garden tea and drink you. Just as i read you, wrote you and will paint you to make it.

Few trees or stones not none.

x


11/19/2010 2:10:16 AM

For you my rose of the night x


10/6/2010 5:18:00 AM
and with that contemplation i release my Evade who was never entangled enough to be moved by my release.  What was there in those moments that we needed to cross.
If but to teach Cleo patience then my release shows even in this i failed.
When will i walk a longer path with substance and depth...

Dare I wonder if I meant more then a free domme, an extention to a fine toy collection. What size sound indeed...

So i wont wonder on it, since i chose freely always and nothing occured i didnt allow.


10/4/2010 5:49:01 PM

I tried to chase a personalised story to DJMandy conclusion. I found out late and didnt want to believe. What a sad sad shame. and those who wrote they were competition with admiriation.. there was only one competition to her energy on the dancefloor and she never claimed competitiveness but expressed admiration and love.

And to you Lush one Im deeply sorry for your loss and you can come crash in on my life anytime as friend lover or top who likes to top tops. I went to troppo to be with others n maybe see you there. seemed nicer place to consider then hellfire or other events that dimmed in the lack.   And drove back over flooded roads to quietly contemplate.  am here now 

You were right that you will fight me to submission in public or in private.  And continue to grow in my desire for.  How indeed will i make you take notice. and when will i see your face again and measure yr loss.

I wish you would do DJ set at troppo NY.  the fuck mix has become a popular fav.


9/17/2010 6:25:43 AM
Sometimes the more i know someone, the biger the mystery... Evasion in realtime, not of service or willingness, but of self..perhaps spirit.  I am not useto not knowing, reading, comprehending with time to channel deeper sources. But this time there is none of that... the denial is stagering.. it exists beyong time n space, real and online.
I too ask little of that mystery, we talk play, openly and mostly within our natural kinks mutuality. We meet rarely but with want n desire. And tho a mystery i trust.. and know trust is reciprical. I ask little still.. n know less then i thought i knew even b4 our meet. There is a reluctance that is seperate to me that he cant/wont share and mostly I acept that, perhaps welcome it..

I feel loyaltynd am served well in our short meets  but know that mystery, sperate to me and our kink will make him Evade my heart almost permantly.  I know him less for knowing...  

He is not a cuckhold n is pleased if i am pleased.  I reply I am beter pleased by my own.

I dont own

He comes loyal when he chooses and comes with desire. n then dissapears back to his world which i have only advantaged in his apartment, in his few select words...text. Not enough for a reading.

Play too switches, a hard flogging where his skin reflects it n yearns for harder. n the another time, meaning to take his pain threshold further, mark him clear till next visit at least.  But ohh no his skin desires other.  And i hav a new book unknown to search. REad front n back get a feel for the depth
get as far in a chapter as our time allows n he is gone again.  to come bac new,

I look clear in his face each time to see what i have remembered.  He is  polished clean

A fresh canvas but i hav to paint quick, so i hav to get the image quick in my head to mix my pallette.. 

he is switch, will surprise me when n how it comes mmmmmmmm I think i accept my delima rather well.  I am calm with my mysterious Evade.  for now 

8/1/2010 6:57:56 PM
mmmm and then walla, a leap of faith is taken to loose his title Evade n earn credit as a cumslut sexypussycock. and continues again with my admiration.

Pride is lonely tru..I have learned too often

8/1/2010 12:18:06 AM
and still continues to evade me ahhh. It will take some leap of his desire truely now.  Even the right words text n images wont do anymore.  It is not a matter of patience and understanding anymore.  It has become about trust, my ego and his loyalty.  He doesnt need like I would want. Not me it seems or what i mght offer. Though his text speak other, there is no substantial action to substantiate his claim.

His desire wasnt enough to make the time...

And so I will go on searching, i have no intention of chasing a sub. I want a selfish sub who comes with desire for me for their own reasons.  Who need it.... 

7/23/2010 8:25:30 AM
I have been entertaining one that evades me..seemingly so suited, all the right words and desires. But not present... i say desire makes time. But only once is it worth my saying.

Anytime this week was spoken.. but alas no time this week or last week and I grow wicked with want for the creating ive done in his honour.

I thought perhaps he will teach me patience, but tru i want service more.

6/21/2010 12:25:21 AM
I am in bad form today mmm it seems as a man or woman i will bleed.

mmmm speaking of bleeding was wonderful performance at hellfire friday.. i was moved
The pulling of the flesh took me back to Zen n Zoodoo routine mmmm tho entirely different character play in scenarios.

4/10/2010 9:28:30 PM
It seems a lonely time for many not unified in their work and desires and I truely feel for those that had been mine for their undieing loyalty in searching me out to lay open their souls.

At the same time I am struck with how manipulative my nature is.  I bare open souls to read n write them in my pleasure and they real n never fully textualised stay with me regardless of distance or if our paths hav wondered in diferent directions.

And four of them over the last few busy weeks write n msg and call and chat and want.. I want to and want someone equal to come whole and with self responsibilty, fully aware of my wild nature and charged with how they will play me.

I cannot control my beast so i try to control the selection and relationships around and towards and beyond.

Im like a vampire with a coven..yet alone

8/28/2009 12:30:36 AM
And with a few words of respect all is forgiven and we continue on our own pathways.  Fairwell Sebas and thankyou for your service, even the pain of loosing you i earned mmm Like a Tsunami 'smile' indeed across your many plains... 

8/24/2009 5:39:38 PM
Well i have accepted my loss and am considering a couple of interesting possibles.

One i considered took me completely by surprise and tho come as a sub/switch, toped me genuinely with skill i have never been so fortunate to experience. 

Would certainly have to be the best oral service i have ever had mmm and i had more than my share mmm.

and i dont know if any would believe me, and this is coming from an avid slut too who has had relationships with both men n women and can certainly please myself well, but he knew how to touch me like i touch mmmm

and i truely became like a howling sub dog, cumming to him, and thinking after this orgasm i will be in control.. and another multiple and still shaking he continues to serve.  mmm

I didnt dare put my collar on him...I didnt flog him and i didnt bind him, no cbt... subsided enough for some waterworks...and tho he served only 3hrs in consideration of each other...and may think i am not what i said i was.. I wouldnt dare deny him...

and believe me, once i am less overtaken by such skill, in one 9years my younger, then i will create play that both lets me enjoy my domminant/switch potential and allows him respect and dominance for his skills also mmmm

And Sebas truely only a look again and no word, not even a mention on your profile that you are no longer mine, ahh i dont even feel i can look at the images you have done for me and my paintings,  and may hav to get another model to sit.  Even my casuals show me more regard, before, during and after service.  Perhaps the molten wax on your inner thighs should hav burned hotter and marked you deeper, longer, but no, you heal like me and i am permantly removed, healed from your mind body and soul.  Alone in your closet you think on me now mmm, that is not where i would have you, hidden in secret.  But you must place yourself as you choose your guilt and your poison.

8/13/2009 6:29:56 AM
well 2 weeks and 2 days and not a word, not an image. no nothing to say that he was ever mine.  funny that i felt he was mine and true throughout.  Guess i was just a dirty secret.. and still no regrets mmm i chose freely and enjoyed.  Tho i think that will be my first and last for online domme. So dont think to ask

7/29/2009 5:40:54 AM
ahh and within a flash he is gone and Cleo's no more. Come late too with barely a moment to spare me in parting to see that i had dressed and shaved completely to fairwell. and the double ender sterolised and ready mmm. with my mourning pj harvey dress and frilly red knickers

And i didnt fairwell, I was harsh n cruel n hurt yes..no image, no face, no bodies. and the distance grew till he was free and released n felt light and i was alone and lost n had no place in his world and i was mastress Cleo to him no more. so for the first time he called me by my birth name.. and was gone


so what is left but fairwell?  and perhaps a thankyou for the last set of photos just as i had asked to the detail.. that in all the whoohaa i thought but could not slip into conversation.

lighthearted im not..vain and proud yes

7/4/2009 12:53:23 AM
no absolutely not willing to give up mmm snakes and saw horses , 10 lash 20 lash we all fall down.

yes it was a scorpion that stung mmm a cleo scorpion... sebas is stung collared n owned and wearing me proudly and tight.. though silently and alone

7/2/2009 5:45:54 AM
something changed 2nite and he sliped away... My day is his night... my winter his summer..where can we go...two oposite sides of the same coin.  With different images patterning us yet belonging and ohh the longing is not wrong... I am dangerous.. Perhaps i went too far...

Maybe 3mths is not real...in this not real medum .

'has' then 'is' a pleasure to serve mmm does that not read goodbye.. n no blame.. I know all too well.. maybe i should be thankful of the understanding.. is mutual too between us..

But i like open communication... I like to make sure im not just reading myself n my concerns. n no regrets.. i have enoyed and chosen equally..

perhaps it was a scorpian that stung ??

6/22/2009 10:45:34 PM
How completely I feel the bond with Cleo's Sebas..our languages the same or rather the textuality that weaves words feelings and action.

In pain, in blood, in lust, in bondage, ahhh in sunshine n sunshowers of sorts

and the loyalty i feel is mutual between us, though selfish on both our part. He doesnt always admit to mmm says its for my pleasure first he serves.. but it is his pleasure for himself to take what is dealt that makes him so close to me..

and in the few moments of our time together, not a month yet, i hav explored more with him and taught and learned more from him than any in a good 5 years.

Ahh and im so greedy and perhaps sometimes admitedly a cruel mastress.

6/17/2009 5:27:43 AM
I am so calm, tho my pussy is pouncing with creative notions of play.  Ahh My Sebas, it is lucky for me you are no blank canvas mmm n more like linen to paint on, even with this distance i feel in your skin...

Little do you know mm how yr dance took me n held me..

and by the way Cleo's Sebas 'smile'
you forgot to mention 'signed in pee'...into the ern mmm thanks for the close shave xx u are a complete pleasure. x I m a priviledged Mastress indeed

6/12/2009 9:17:43 AM

mmm cleos sebas is delightfully, creativly and surprisingly easily satisfyingly mine.. like ying n yang ahah nite n day oil n acrylic mmm preempts me and yet we move in time ahhh mmmm


6/3/2009 1:23:57 AM
i have never considered domming online before ... I dont like to be teased an i need real loyalty n desire to tempt me.....

but there is one too close to be far n i am thinking on it...more i am creating towards...

5/2/2009 7:47:02 AM
Ahhh n still the same switch that moves me more than any other.. and still not ready to be mine tho i grow hungry for attention to detail that i wont give uncollared.

In so many ways we are so suited and a year has passed n the suitability grows with my hunger to posses.

And i can no longer use him in a casual manor without pain that isnt pleasure and so again i try to let him go.

I will never be a domme, regardless of my dominant nature.  A control freak that yearns for more control and one who at the same time desires to lose that control in my own controled way. hmmm

I am pathetic, I feel his gaze when in same social setting, in a crowded room i feel only we two and others are tools for my desire yet not desire itself.  i can follow that feeling with my eyes through the crowd to meet his.. He hoped i hadnt noticed.. it was for my own pride i hadnt let on and for the ones he had come with.. We are open books together, he isnt like that with anyone else.. but i had demanded that from the start..mmm our trust is intence and pure pleasure..

and feeling like this i am to try consider new. What meaningful new would want to be considered under such circumstances and yet they do.

OHHHH he is an exquisite cunnilingus, hours and hours of service and a sexual slave that is yet to serve less than 8hrs continuous each time.  He dances spontaneously and desires to be the subject in my art.  Takes my anal play sometimes, sometimes more, sometimes less and the times i have had him on his knees in my thighs begging me to pee in his mouth till we both cum from the denial.  and the pleasures he takes from my stories of others...Why cant i take this same pleasure of his stories with others like i do with my others...

Ahh ohhh and just when this all should be enough to make us one he shows me how he is building his strenght and flexibilty and has become as flexible as me.

More too he is someone i want to know, want to talk to. here too we are mutual and still he wont be collared till i cant bear it any longer...

and now i have asked him to go untill he is ready to be mine and three days past and the loss tears my soul and i wonder how in this insane world, two so mutual are apart..

but apart we are and i cant even delete his last msg asking me to come take him..

and my switch is not mine .. i am unowned

3/17/2009 12:22:11 AM
I am a loved BITCH and aparently a healthy one. i have my entire medical history in a large envelope with pictures of my body that i have to use in paintings mm so nice my interior.

Great lungs tho one damaged when young yoga keeps strong.  The heart of a young athlete mm i wanted to kiss that doc when she said mm i thought something was wrong.  good kidneys and liver and no one knows why i loose weight.  And for all my sexual exploits the only thing i ever managed to catch sexually was pregnancy mm and that only twice. 

But i have changed... grown maybe and happy now more than ever about my strenght openness and overt ways. and will choose one from those that stayed to further intensely.

I had a whip once was confiscated.. I am still not controled enough to say im domme.. But im ready to hold a whip with trust and desire and bought a beautiful medium weight flogger today..

mmm its so instincual to me the movement i made my friend let me try in shop.  I was going to take Her that cared for me but she is no longer mine.  though she came for a taste of it and i obliged..

MM n i saw an ex gurlfriend, who had i been ready then would hav loved a tender and strong flogging and i never trusted myself to oblige.. she is younger and sensational but much younger and not mine.. however in the street we unwrapped it.. and i gave her a taste.. not too hard..'its too soft she complained..'

My switch came back too..everyone came back .. but he still is undecided to be mine an there is a new gurl yes .. she will take time but it may be.

I took her and my ex sub to an alternative mardi gra party and let her wear my cuffs..and watched her flaunt herself with the one i let bind and whip me on the dancefloor to my favourite dj..i was jealous but gee it was hot..mmm denial .. i too am prone to its lust.

11/30/2008 5:46:45 PM
I have been unwell and have cancelled all current considerationsand let go of those bound to me.. and yet they stay..is it loyalty to me or to themselves that i know and inspire as well create a space for fulfilment through serving me..

Perhaps its true then, that service to me is emancipating to those that serve. 

It was my birthday also, and they come to clean to put my rack up to play my ways.

i even got one recently broken from an accident to use for long periods as i am accustomed to and warned if he healed before he got to me then i would have to break his leg.  Of course we both laughed mmmm and he served espcially well that i am allowing him another play on the rack with a female that i verbally domme and am keen to view her extrodinary skills.. she is not for women but serves me well and is one that has refused to go since i have been ill.. and he will only do what i tell him and will still be up for my solo use when she has been unbound and asked to leave.. i will watch n domme them both and then not allow her to watch... I am sure it is her yearning for my rack moreso than loyalty to me that she comes...  by friday my collars will be ready mmm and i will make her wear the next time she wishes to enjoy more than verbal domination.  but she will beg for it before then and by then will ask to wear mmm


9/23/2008 9:21:03 PM
ohhhhh here she comes again, n i had just instructed a young Domme some handy rope work and how to personalise and use to subject.   Of course I would tell her, when she has perhaps played with us both, myself over 15 years and the young bout 8...  Ohh you must know what I mean about a dominant submissive, who is eager for use and waiting and wanting.. becoming more dominant with how they will please to be rewarded with their desire... ahhh she is so beautiful.. but her and her partner are bartering with ideas of poly and i am not for barter but love them both..

Yes I roped her, she would not remove her top and the rope was shit,,, so I talked her through her desire and in honesty more than direction her body moved into a kneeling position on the lounge facing the window..
mmmmm I could have taken her then..she had chosen beach branch to be floged with but in her need and my absence had told others in moments of weekness forgetting how tales tend to travel in my direction...

I pretended not to know and suggested the raw thick rope and the freying edges my hands and the leather gloves she had worn to her fingers and made me wear when last I saw her.

She knows I love pissing
she followd me into the toilet.. the party was pumping and others were wanting both our attention but wee you know I love... ohh how good could I be

then all night seductive dancing watching and being watched our plays with others more talk ohh her mouth when it comes to mine is the closest we have to mutuality..

we are still not suited n love her more the loved she is and have no expectations.

imagine 15years and for all our talk of pissing and nude posing swimming bathing hanging.  I dont think she had looked at my nudity with such desire... Oh your pussy is beautiful, im all hairy as she climbed on and am sure the three people who walked in were more aware of us then us of them.  It was sexy and hysterical
we both had pants and needed each to take a leg out to make it work.. ohh joys trust yumm

when he rang me later i wanted to die if i had hurt him one bit but there is love n his voice and know she is his and he accepted her and me and always will lovingly and respectfully..

8/23/2008 2:11:46 AM
I was too harsh with my casual, and misjudged his plight.  He has proved me wrong and made me proud and I hope his desires may find him in warmer weather.  And of course, should that warmer weather allow me a tale here and there, well I like to read text...as image as real as fantasy.  He is good free and come needy ohhh and what I showed him that he once feared, now acomplished and desires...mmmm

be well and if your close, be near.. and needy... to my tastes...now yours...

8/16/2008 3:43:32 AM
Thanks Hellfire crew...
I had fun 'smile'
everyone was so compliant with my desires and oh so helpful.

It has been 16 years since I  last went, when still on Regent st, but i am no stranger to the talents, varieties n perspectives from other local events.  Sydney is so incestuous.

and no I did not forget much in nearly four weeks without play...

oohh and the piercing performance with that sexy sculpturer girly yumm she is great, nice to see her so well cared for.mmm

8/8/2008 2:54:36 AM
Its harder than i thought ,not playing for so long.  Has been 2 weeks maybe more...

I even allowed an online roleplay with one i trained who has moved, who now matches well my creativity in play, at least in the stories and timing and guessing movement of intent.mmmm yum, yes i will see him when close. 

and on the same day I rejected online continuation of play to a switch i have casualed with all year, who has relocated to warmer weather.  But he does not acknowledge my training and though charming, stylish, and played my way, cannot take the length and extent and stamina needed for the timeing of scenes, I like. smile. He had to do with dirty stories of my recent plays. i hope they sustained, but I will only hear when he is needy and close or both hopefully.

 I would love a switch girly...yum with cheeky dominant tendencies and overtly sexual desires..

But true time is scarce, and my recent considerations found me, one very suitable switch who is not quite ready (but delightful and I look forward to when..again..mmm he is one I would collar...but not yet)

One very eager to learn sub, closer to my age and fullfilling most.. of what I desire, though our work timeing and other has not lined up. 

A genuine slave who's desire to serve had me spinning when I was coming into my time of over committed commitments.  Who also knew perhaps my needs would well outweigh his desires for service, and would require much training and pushing of levels, but young and perhaps more suitable to another...very charming and real in his service.  they are there yes,..

And a dom who would play sub to a powerful domme, to trial some of his unrequited desires, who also, not having privacy of premises, limits the time and space to play that again, have not matched.  I generally like my space, I like designing the movement of play from one space to the next....but that is not always possible and Few come into my bedroom.

But always those who wait and want and  give whats to be taken. 

I always ask you to measure your needs to mine..cause I do...
 
I think I will play this weekend..perhaps the switch who is unready would enjoy the dom, under my direction, for my pleasure..mmm yes that would be nice.. I must get on it...life is good..'smile'

7/19/2008 11:51:02 AM

do you flog someone you love who desires it by your hand and not their dom. When i look at the dom, I know he knows of whats been asked me and is passive and compliant. Theirs is a love bond and I love them too.  Her I always loved her and took her into my home with my family and we all loved her but with him I saw her loved. We are not suited me and her, she is too submissive. 
Not tonight though, I put of the flogging, and she is needy and unsure and becoming dominant in forcing me to kiss her and i had told but one person in the moments before ariving at her door to visit someone else.  i had to tell, I knew she would be needy and knew he would know. 
True I know her well and when I arived at what she was asking at first i was shocked.  'are you asking me to flog you'
'yes, I think I am'
Well there was much more to say and then 2weeks of running into my indecision for wanting to know his feelings also.  he did end up pulling her of me, but kissed me goodnite too.  though he may have to say so, I would never be a cause to a break with them I enjoy their depth too much, when I share it...
She wants it to be between me and her and our history but still he is our history also now and...still not sure...

Though I am sure about how I'd do it and what specific things I would use to torment and tease her, I know the textures, the presures, her pose, her movement mmmmm yes i do desire it... mmmm....but still not sure..I do like how it brings out her dominance and would be eager to see how far it will come out 'smile'


7/8/2008 5:25:31 AM
It is true, we all have our own current discriminations that direct our way, some inbred that torment with our learned layers of knowing.

One of mine, and I freely apologise, even before I speak, because I know and have known and do know better..  but still ..  I cant help but feel that its close to Vanilla 'Male Dom for Female sub/slave... hmmm breath cleo.. True my life has not been vannilla and I am speaking purely from my own discrimination and predjudice... But again I admit it, though unsure of vannilla and have asked many, some here for their take...  Its too, what I think vannilla is, its just to common... and I like difference and change and when i am more man I am more sub..(more only) 
So again I apologise for my discrimination, but if you have known me, you know I am upfront, tactless, over creativly sexed.

My apology goes mostly to those I know who within that very framework, I discriminate, are my equals, friends and family within their chosen role and perhaps currently more sucessfull within than I am in my discriminiation.

6/25/2008 7:08:51 PM
I need to learn not to complain and panic, because it has always been that what I need is close to the asking or rather knowing the need. 

Each time, whether I have trusted it will come or whether I have complained 'I need' it has come.  I am a very lucky person and don't mind sharing that luck around sometimes.  It is there for the asking...

Yes in some instances I have worked hard and long for results but I consider that taking.  I am talking about the needs that arise that must be freely given and recieved..in temporary, oportune moments..

6/23/2008 4:56:13 PM
Sorry all who have come to play and percieved my current shallowness. Yes it is true I am perhaps a little overdone with casual plays and considering further into a depth of experience and someone to grow with, who will teach me as much as i... and truth is i would like someone close to my age mmm I would have the baggage and develop in play.
You young ones who try, even if we are compatible in other ways, or showed depth in our play, you would already know my needs for equal regardless of roles.
that is not to say i have not enjoyed or that I will not continue to enjoy as is my way, just to say this current mood has been a long time in coming and where my overt needs don't bombard me, it will take priority in my selection and i promise I will continue my upfrontness with you all as I expect in return..

5/26/2008 6:56:51 PM
I have been asked much about my last journal entry, with suggestions that the soft scarlet lady maybe homophobic n hence closeted in some way.  Rather than reply to each individually, i have decided to clear my opinion here. 

soft scarlet has never shown any homophobic tendencies and our first meet was a bit of a dyke get together, as well she performs and attends and supports gay community and events.  She is a sensual women (and makes a hansom man as well mmm) with loving and open expression of feelings, rather than like me, open sexually and somewhat closed in other ways, except to express to a precious few.

So thankyou all for your concerns and advice, though i think in past journal entries, it is obvious i have no tolerance to dance with discrimination, is not my way.

5/17/2008 6:13:40 PM
Last night i saw her 'the soft scarlet women' who i had met 5-6 years ago and swooned upon a tale of cooking told with such sensual delight. 

She is very sexy and straight, though my affection for her is heightened with her delight in my openess which she uses in exhibitionistic ways.  Often she will dance seductively with me, once even in a gay venue, in a scarlet dress, in front of her male partner, that she loved and later lost oversees in frightening circumstances, in the midst of their passion. 

When she is drunk her ease with me, and lapping up my unrequited passion, she will sit on my lap praising me for my work and other things, patting me, ofering to model, even giving me her phone number and dragging me to the dance floor for an erotic dance and partial strip.  People around suggest to take her further, but i would have her straight and with want equaly, is my way and i know is hers.  It does not suit me to give or take unwanted.

But last night, again in a garden, like our first meeting, with my affection again overt to her and other peoples attention, she came to me, looking sad and wanted me to dance to madonna.  I would not refuse her and i would see her shine and so i danced, with us the only two at the party dancing outside, seductively, one song. and was gone

I guess she got a little drunker before our lap scene and it was more sober and honest about us and our mutual feelings and knowing of each other this time.  yes there was still that opening of apraisal, but she is too easy with her criticism of me and my work and i am too drunk with her on my lap to concern with less imediate matters. 

so it goes that she is straight, deeper more commited and still in pain of loss and would love me if any women and is comfortable with our extent of play and so it goes that i am also and would be happy to see her shine with a new love and exhibit with her in dance her reawakening....

5/12/2008 6:10:29 PM
Slavedogbitch Beware, Burwood is not in Alaska and i can reach you first beleive me and will if you dont stop your stalker ways..

You know what I will do if i catch you?..  Yes, i will force crossdressing and anal and you will see that i am, and will always be a bigger  man than you and not to be messed with.

5/6/2008 5:05:20 AM
i have found that i too am breakable, and will alow exploration of hard limits with the right persuation. Also it is good to sometimes ignore someones verbal requests when they are bound and listen to their body instead, especialy when they are saying 'no anal' and their body wants your fists back and front and sucks you in greedily, so you feel like your wrists will be wrang and snap..oh the pleasure..

And scarlet get up mixed with pissing does not help bleeding wait till after play 

4/23/2008 12:58:40 AM
Im still waiting for a teleporting expert, yes i get offers to have toilets, racks ect made but that is not what i am after.  The full moon will come and go and i will still be howling and blood thirsty for a Melbourne dish thats apetising from far and sure to be orgasmic in real.  No other pain or pleasure will suffice when my sight is set, maybe the drifting snow will shift the boundary closer, though my heat is sure to melt the snow.

4/15/2008 6:16:57 PM
Ohhh there are some LUSHous women switches in Melb, i might have to become a frequent flyer, and why has no one invented teleporting for me yet, Where are the makers, cause this bitch is howling AAHHOOOOOOHHHH.

4/14/2008 9:48:28 PM
Again and with respectfull intensions to the male doms that challenge, it would do you good to read my profile and guard yourself well.  I am no sub or slave and have never known obedience that wasn't within the interest of my domme nature and resulting in my pleasure.  Several of you now, once defeated have requested to sub for me and have been set individual tasks that need to be met for consideration. If you contact me again without having acheived those tasks than you failed consideration.

No i am not a mind reader in having outdone you by guessing and exposing your true desires. That is predominantly why i am dom that I am a visual/textual reader which makes it obvious for me to see your desires and the extent to which you troubled yourself with mine. 

i would also like to say thankyou to you all for the humbleness and respect you have shown in defeat, this is where you have topped me because i think it takes courage i do not have. 

4/9/2008 4:28:16 PM
firstly what is going on that i would recieve more messages in one day then entire time online?

And now i will share that i am dom, and a complete (at the moment ) unemotional control freak but today i cry like a little girl at missing the opening night film for the Arab film festival, and the last time i cried was because was premenstral and had nothing to cry over.  How sad that my budget freak mentality means i pay cash and do not own credit and have relied on others to book. Ohh and cannot use premenstral for my tears as i am enjoying my blood that has run for the third day (thanks to a particular pissing vampire mmmmm and no i haven't washed the piss out of my hair yet, even put it up in the shower )

3/28/2008 8:18:04 PM
Their is a switch who recently rejected me.  I am not apposed to regection n require any who come to do so of their own free will, as well when they no longer require my services to leave of their own free will or they will be asked to.  For me regardless of roles BDSM is an equally consentual practise and respectfull also.

In saying this i will add that had you read instead of deleted my last message you would have had privy to what i have said and though i still find you the most appealing i had removed you from my view and favourite list out of respect before you so rudely deleted my message.

MMMm though you are still delightfull and i hope you find what you seek.

Their was one like you that i spent many delightfull years with and though seperate now our bond is eternal.  I do hope the same for you, with all the pain, pleasure and unexpected scenarios.

3/20/2008 9:42:39 PM

the only thing about going the full brazillion lazor is that i would miss those indulgent moments infront of the mirror with tweezers pulling out hairs like the reversal of a tatoo sensation and oh all the pretty hairstyles. 


3/15/2008 7:56:34 AM
mmm has been a fine day for high heel shoes, fine wining, dancing and dining and some sexy girl blood sports lets say.  My hands and body are stained and smell and taste of iron. No need to wash till tomoro as overall has been a fine day an i will sleep tight.  mmmm

3/13/2008 5:39:29 PM
I just pulled out a toe nail, one that grows double on my otherwise fantasic feet.  I love waiting till it grows long like the rest and pulling it out like a splinter with my bare hands and watching that trickle of blood that comes out.  It never hurts when im doing it, its just the slight discomfort when im on my morning walk/run that i recognise which only serves to remind me of my little joys. hmmm Next time i will pull it out while im pissing and double the joy.

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 Age: 20
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