UPDATE:

             Well hello everyone it has been awhile. I Should have gotten on here more often but I was seeing someone who is not into the life style at all.....  The relationship is over now and so here I am again. I think I learned a very valuable lesson with my now ex. I don't want to pretend to be something that I'm not just to please another. I tried very hard to get him to keep an open mind about my needs and wanting for the kinkier side of things but got turned down...... According to him my world was to weird. OH WELL his loss I guess.

I hope all of my CM friends have been well and sorry for my lack of response to messages. Hopefully I can pick back up where I left off. I guess I should hit my messages up now. "there is a long list of backed up messages waiting on me." hahaha 

Have a great day everyone and looking forward to hearing from some old friends soon. <3

                                                                         ~Georgia Peach~

Update:

     Why do people send friend requests without even so much as a hello first. If you send me a friend request and we haven't had a single conversation i will not accept it. I get that sometimes it is difficult to message someone you don't know and try to find something to talk about but try saying something like hello, how are you today? Don't however send me a friend request out of the blue then get angry with me for not accepting it. i don't know you so why should i add you to my friends??????

   Nine more days till I meet with Mistress for the first time. :) We have had several over the phone conversations to keep me from being so nervous. I hope everything goes well when we meet. It is not ment to be anything serious just kind of answering questions and getting acquainted with one another. I am so excited to have my first real face to face meeting. I will post afterwards to let everyone know how things go. Wish me luck. :)

    Hopefully after training with mistress I will be ready to find a dom for myself. I want to know that when I meet someone that I am able to make them happy with me. As it stands I know I am not ready. it may sound incredibly silly but I hate the thought of disappointing someone I care about and the thought of meeting that speacial someone and them being dissapointed with me is a battle I fight in my head all the time. Maybe it's something I shouldn't fear so much but I can't seem to help myself. I have always felt this overwhelming need to please those that i care about. I want to be able to take care of whatever needs someone would have of me and hate the thought of not being able to in anyway. So lets help this experience helps to prepare me for my next journey.

   Have a great day everyone and will talk to you again soon.:)

                                                                             ~Georgia~

Update:

I know I am way past due for an update and am sorry to those who enjoy reading my journal entries for going so long without an update. I have been so crazy busy between school and work finding time to get online has been rather difficult lately. I have so many messages to catch up on from my time offline.

 I have had an offer to meet with a very nice domme that a friend of mine knows and I am thinking of accepting the offer. I know I have not been looking for a female to interact with but I believe this may be good for me. I will get the chance for some RT sessions and to get some questions answered. Mistress Is a very nice woman and is very kind to offer her time to help me. I will update everyone after my first session. :)

 I hope everyone has been doing well over the past few months. I would have been online more but I have been pulling alot of over-time and doubled up on my classes to get a little ahead. I do really miss chatting with all my friends I have made on here. I hope nobody thinks I have intentionally being rude and ignoring them.

 Well I have to get to my messages now and get caught up on them. I hope everyone has a nice day and I promise to not take so long next time on an update.

                                                                                            ~Georgia~

I thought it was definately time for an update.

I haven't had a chance to get online much in the past few weeks. I have picked up alot of overtime at work and then with school at the same time and the combination of the two hasn't left much free time. I am very happy to finally get the time to get to some messages that I haven't got the chance to answer. This is my last week with the craz swing shifts so I will be starting to get online more often again. Hope everyone is doing well. :)

I have had quite a few conversations with my father since the last time I was able to get on here. I am very happy to say that I think there is definately hope for the strained relationship my father and I have had since his discovery of my lifestyle. He seems open to let everything go and realize I am still the same person. He has gotten on CM a few times looking into everything and even admits to being very interested in the lifestyle himself. I do believe he will have a profile on here soon. I hope he finds the same enjoyment I have. I never imagined that he would come to accept me and even discover something new in himself. I am so grateful for everything in my life rite now. I thank you to everyone that has helped give me the guidence and the advice that has helped to get my father and I back on the mend. You have no idea how appriciative I am to all of you. :)

I made a profile on a couple weeks ago. It is very different there than it is on CM. I have chatted with many people on and really do enjoy the site and if anyone would like drop me a line on there anytime. I really like the group discussions they have. I find them to be very informative for I can get answers easier to questions that I am still a little to nervous to ask people otherwise. I do like CM better on ther searches. It is easier to narrow down the search for specific types of people and areas on here where as it is a little more tricky on . There is not a whole lot to my profile on there yet but will be adding more soon. Hope to see you all there. :)

Well I am going to head to my messages now and catch up. Hope everyone enjoys the rest of there week and talk to you soon.

                                                                                -Georgia-

Good morning everyone. I haven't really been online much lately. It's just been so busy with school and work. I hope everyone has been doing well.:)

I finally had a civil conversation with my father. He has finally realized that I am happy with who I am and will not change to appease his need for a so called normal daughter. I explained to him that it is not the evil world he thinks it is and that I am intelligent enough to keep myself safe. I am so happy we finally cleared the air. It will take a while before he isn't freaked out about everything but him just talking to me again and accepting me for who I am is enough for me.

I feel as if a huge weight has been lifted off my chest. To not have to hide who I am anymore is the best feeling I have ever had. Now I can focus better on finding the things I am looking for and growing as a person and a submissive. I am definately a lucky girl.:)

I do want to apologize to those that have sent me messages this week and have not gotten a response. I do plan on sitting down and getting through my messages.

Well I guess I have rambled enough for now. To those who read this I want to thank you again for taking the time to read my thoughts and sending all the kind messages I always get after posting. I want eveyone to know how much I really do appreciate the input you give. Have a great day eveyone. :)

                                                                                         -Georgia-

I have not been on here in a few days due to work. I have alot of messages to get through and boy there are a bunch.lol I hope everyone has had a lovely week.:)

I have been talking to someone that makes there own toys and has agreed to teach me how to make a few things like floggers. I am so excited to finally get to do something hands on so lets see how it goes. If I actually pull off making something on my own I will definately post pics.

I probably wont be on much till the end of the week, don't have another day off until friday. I do have the whole weekend off though. :)

Well I am going to my messages now. Hoping everyone has a great day.

                                                                                        -Georgia-

I think it's time for a journal update.

Hello everyone hoping you are having a nice day and thank you for taking the time to stop and read my journal. I am looking to attend another Munches here soon so if anyone knows of one coming up in the Dayton area please send me a message. I will admit I felt a freedom when at the last Munches that I had not felt in a long time. i was able to open up and discuss things about myself that i had never been able to share before. To be able to ask questions i have had about the lifestyle without being judged was something I will never forget and I wanted to thank everyone there again for making my experience such and enjoyable one.

*I talked to my father for the first time since our blow up. It did not go very well. I tried again to tell him he just didn't know what this means to me and it is who I am. I offered tohelp him research things online so he could get a better perspective on everything but he again refused. I finally told hime that I would always be his daughter and I will always love him. When he is ready to talk I will be here but I am happy with who i am and what I am doing. Even though the conversation did not go well I do feel better. I know who I am and am proud of the person that i am. I hope that one day he can see this and that being a submissive does not make me a ignorant woman but a strong and happy woman that is not afraid of who she is.

Well I guess that is enough for now. I hope everyone has a lovely day and will update again soon.

                                                                                    -Georgia-

I realized I never updated everyone on how my first Munches went and do apologize. I have to say on my way there i had the strongest mixture of excitement and fear I have ever had in my entire life. I actually almost got sick.lol I so enjoyed the experience. Everyone there was so kind and willing to answer all of my questions. I learned so much and made some new friends. i am definatley looking forward to attending another one very soon. I feel much better knowing I am not the only one that was completely lost and confused when they first entered the lifestyle. I actually met someone that offered to teach me how to make my own flogger and i can't wait.:)

*As for the situation with my father he is still not talking to me. I look at it this way, I don't tell him how to live his life or what people he can have in his life. Therefor he should not do that with me. i know I am his little girl and he wants what is best for me but he needs to realize this is what is best for me. I can't help who I am or what I feel and will not budge on the fact. All I can do is be myself and continue to grow as a person and a submissive. Hopefully one day he will come to terms with things and decide he still wants to be a part of my life. If he should decide to keep his self out of my life for good as much as it upsets me it will be his loss.

I wanted to thank everyone again for all the kind words and input on the situation with my father again. Knowing there are people out there kind enough to take time out of there day to read these journal entries and try to send words of encouragement and advice is so amazing to me. I hope that in time once I will get the opertunity to help someone in the way so many on here have helped me.

Well I guess i will quit rambling now and get ready for work. Hoping everyone has a very nice evening and talk to you soon. :)

                                                                        -Georgia-

good morning everyone. Thank you everyone for all of your kind messages. I really appriciate everyones kind words. I am hoping everyone is rite and that my father eventually comes around. I do get where he would be upset i am his daughter and he wants the best for me. I guess time will tell.  In the meantime I plan to continue on with my new adventure and finding myself. i have never been so in tune and comfortable with myself in my life. everyday i am finding new things out about myself.

I have my first Munches on friday and can not wait to attend. I feel like a child waiting to unwrap their christmas presents. The anticipation is killing me.lol I will admit i am a little nervous at the same time though. I hope i don't ramble to people and look like a dummy. I will let everyone know how it goes.

Well I am going to get to finishing up with my messages so i can get some sleep. Thank heavens i am off for two days. Maybe i can finally catch up on some sleep. I hope everyone has a lovely day and will talk again later. :)

                                                                          -Georgia-

Feeling a little down and out today. I have a huge problam and don't have any idea what to do about it. I confided in my sister about the profile I have on CM and the desires I have in confidence the other day. She then took it apon herself to call my father and tell him about all of this against my wishes. I recieved a phone call from my father last night telling me he can't believe that his daughter would want a part of this lifestyle. He went as far to tell me he was discusted in me and I was a freak. I feel like my heart is broken. I love my father very much and can't see why he feels that I am discusting in any way for the feelings i have. I tried to explain to him that I can't help how I feel or who I am. I even pleaded with him to research online and educate himself on the matter before throwing judgement on something he knew nothing about.

The conversation ended on him telling me that if I was to chose this lifestyle I would no longer be his daughter. i know I am an adult and can make my own decisions but don't want to lose my father at the same time. How could someone ask you to chose between being who you are or their child. It all seems very unfair to me. I just don't know what to do.......... Really when you think about it how does one choose to not be themselves. If you are not yourself then who are you?

                                                                        -Georgia-

Good morning to everyone. I had someone send me a message with some links to a few very interesting and informative sites. I have been reading alot about flogging and find myself very interested in it. I have went as far as to research exactly what materials are used in making a flogger which i know may sound a little silly but I was curious.lol

I wanted to say thank you to all of those who sent me information on Munches. i have actually found one that is going on in about a week and plan to attend. i am very excited to get to talk to others face to face that have actual experience in the lifestyle. I will let everyone know how it goes.

Each day I am learning more and more about myself and where I fit into my new lifestyle. I am enjoying every bit of the experience. I have made some new friends and am very thankful for that.(I have run into some real goobers.lol) For the most part though I have gotten to experience some very kind and intersting people since joining CM.

I'm looking forward everyday to explore who I am and dicover new things out about myself and for the first time in a long time i feel a little more whole knowing that I am not alone in my feelings and desires. just knowing that there are so many out there that share the same need that I have for this lifestyle has helped me out a bunch.

Well i guess I have rambled long enough.lol Time to check my messages and get to sleep. Gotta be to work "Dark and early" tonight. :) hope evryone has a great day.

                                                                      -Georgia-

I got few messages that a couple of my journals were percieved to make me look like i am a fake and not a Sub. I would like to say to those people that just because I am a submissive does not give you the rite to message me being overly rude and vulger. If you want a response then maybe try to say hi or how are you doing. I do not have to submit to everyone that messages me nor do i want to. I don't like getting messages from people that only state something like "can i f*** you in the a**?" I find that to be very disrespectful. I also feel I should say again i will not relocate and please do not ask. I have respect for myself as a person and a sub and will not put my safety at risk.  I hope that you can appriciate and respect this.

On a lighter note i have spoken with numerous people about Munches and looked more into them and will be finding one to attend soon. If anyone knows one that will be in the Dayton area soon please message me and let me know when and where. Thank you. :)

Well I am going to go to my messages now and catch up from being offline for awhile. Hope everyone has a lovely day.

                                                                     -Georgia-

Goodmorning to everyone. So i think I have my yahoo messenger fixed so we will see how it goes. I didn't really get the opportunity to get online yesterday due to a very long and hectic day. I have alot of messages to get through and respond to and am very sorry if I have made anyone feel i am ignoring you. I really do hope people understand I have a very crazy schedule. I was wondering if anyone could give me any information on munches. I have read a little about them and think they might be perfect for me. With all of the things I am trying to learn to have that face to face contact with people in a safe enviroment that i can talk to would be perfect. I would also like to ask if there are any subs/slaves out there that might be interested in chatting. i feel it might be good for me to get to talk to someone that has been through this before and give me some perspective on things. If you are interested please send me a message. i am always up for making new friends. Hope you all have a nice day.

                                                                    -Georgia-

I am about to head to work. Just wanted to hop on and say If there is anyone that have not responded to today I am sorry. It has been a busy day and I hope evryone understands. I will answer everyone as soon as I can. I got yahoo messenger installed but I'm having a few issues with it. I will get on in the morning when I get home and try to fix it. I know I have said this in about every journal entry but will say it again. thank you to everyone for your support in all of my questions. I am starting to feel a little bit better about all of this and am very excited to keep moving forward. This is such a new experience andI want to make the most of it. I have met so many new people and am happy for the new friendships i have made. I hope everyone enjoys the rest of their night and will talk to you all later.

                                                               -Georgia-

Well I talked to my roommate and I am now downloading yahoo messenger onto my computer. I know it will be easier to be able to talk to people now. Remember I have never used a messenger before and it might take awhile for me to get the hang of it. Thank you everyone for your help in my trying to figure this yahoo messenger out. It is very nice to know that people are reading my journal entries and finding time to stop and help where they can. I always appriciate peoples feedback. I am going to try to finish getting this messenger up and running now.

                                                                     -Georgia-

I did want to ask something to everyone real quick. I have had alot of people asking me about yahoo messenger and I don't have one. Is there anything like that I could get that I would not have to download to my computer. I share a computer with my roommate and we have both agreed not to download anything like that so I need to find something else. I know i have had alot of people say it is a bit harder to chat on here but at the moment it is the only option I have. If anyone has any ideas please message me and let me know. Thank you to everyone. Time to go to bed I have to work tonight. Everyone have a good day and talk to you later. :)))

                                                                      -Georgia-

Goodmorning everyone. I hope evryone is enjoying their day so far. Thank you to everyone for your kind words and support from my las journal entry. I feel much better after reading everyones messages. I really have met some very nice people here so far. :) I did want to say that if you message me and I don't answer rite away I am sorry and i'm not trying to be rude, but I have a crazy schedule and might be at work or doing school work. I will answer your messages as i can get to them and do value your input and kindness. Their are alot of messages on here and it is somewhat difficult to get through all of them. I guess i will go to my messages now so I can get to bed soon. Have a great day everyone.

                                                                  -Georgia- 

I have come across a couple of very rude people in here. i don't understand when you tell someone politely that you are not interested you would think that would be enough. i am not willing to relocate to another state. I am rooted where I am at. I want this life but am not willing to give up my schooling. i have worked very hard to get through college and have almost reached my goal. Idon't think that means I am not serious about my want and need for a sub life and trainer, nor do i think it would conflict with my ability to be a good sub. for some reason I keep coming across people that seems to want an uneducated person. I am sorry if my way of life offends anyone but I am who I am. I am a strong person and do not feel that makes me a bad submissive. Am I wrong?

                                                                       -georgia-

I wanted to thank everyone who gave me feedback on my questions about the collars. I feel I understand the meaning of them alot better now. Although I am starting to understand that there is not just one specific set of rules I guess I find myself a little confused about everything still yet. I am learning more about the lifestyle every day. I will confess I am so excited to find out new things and learn everything I can about the sub lifestyle. I guess my curiosity is due to the fact that I want to make sure that when and if I find a master I want to be able to make him happy with me. I have known most of my life I am a submissive woman but have found myself feeling empty. I have had a few as some would say vanilla relationships and they do not make me happy. I guess I am trying to say that the need to be controled owned but loved and wanted at the same time is something that I desire greatly, and am excited to hopefully one day find just that. I have found no one out of this site that I am comfortable discussing my feelings with due to fear of being judged by those who don't understand my wants and needs. Well I guess I have babbled long enough. Lets see what is to come next. :)))

                                                                     -Georgia-

I have learned so much in the last two das of chatting with some very interesting people. I am still very confused about all of this and where exactl I fall in my new lifestyle. I am hoping that people are reading my journal on the note that I am going to be asking questions that I seem to have a hard time actually asking any specific person or just don't think of during a coversation. i have heard from numerous masters that they expect their subs to wear a collar. This does not bother me but due to the fact that I can only do this on a part time basis, I am very curious if a part time play sub would still be required to wear a collar. I am having issues on knowing where to go from here and what are the rite questions to ask. If you are reading this message I would so appriciate your responding to this and maybe giving your input or just some coaching and friendly advice. Thanks much. Talk to everyone later and have a great night. :)))

Well I have got some new pictures up. I hope everyone likes them. I am really enjoying the site and getting to talk to new people. I guess we will see where all this leads. Looking forward to all that is hopefully to come. :)

I have only had my profile up and running for about an hour and the response I have gotten is amazing. I am so very nervous still about all of this. I know what I want but so unsure of how to get it. Still with all that being said I am very excieted to see what my new advernture will bring and the people it will allow me to meet.