10/16/2015 5:54:05 PM: . . . here we go again! my back surgery is scheduled for the 26th this month. So much to do before hand. Am i nervous?? hell yes. And the whole time in the hospital i will not be able to access any of my kinky profiles. So my friends, now you know in advance that i am going to be out of the loop here for a bit. Those of you that really do know me, will know how to get in touch with me. The best part of this part is that my breast cancer surgeon is working on getting me all looking equal again. this makes me so very happy. Maybe then i won't be so ashamed and shy about getting naked. hopefully this will get done soon and then on to the ink work to cover the scars. really do not want to feel so bad about me and how the cancer and such has affected me . . . . going to get out of this funk and see if there is one out there that may want me for theirs oh and if anyone knows someone that could watch my precious pups while i am out of action, please contact me.. hey how was that for a quiet begging>???? LOL

10/3/2015 12:40:27 PM: Dayum early storms!!  internet off and on.  more off than on.  Hope this goes thru, will try access again later

9/16/2015 8:13:05 PM: Sometimes it is very hard to understand why i wait so long to write here.  Could it be that i just do not wish to face in black and white all my realities>? It shames me to admit that this could be the case.  And yet i wonder, is that really such a bad thing>?  Life deals us the sudden blows of pain unexpected and unwelcome.  But being the person i am, i do my best to accept those things which hurt the most and put forward a face that says, ' I am fine and will do better each day.'Those who are my friends here in real time, face to face know much of how painful the last year has been.  Dayum why is it always a year that invades our peace and possibility of sharing life with a partner that would take the time to know me, to wish to have me near?My mother passed earlier this year.  That should be enough of a sharing for all to understand.  so i will leave it there.sigh, so once again i will do my best to be more aware and share what, where, who, and how.........  soft smile here.Where are the shoulders and heart to help me bear this  . . . . . shared weight is so much lighter..........   

5/28/2015 3:29:01 PM: Well, it has been a very long time since i have written anything here.  I will have to really push myself to get back into this. So dayum much pain and none of it good.  So for now, just committing myself to at least try to get started, this will have to do for a start. Hello to all my friends.

8/29/2013 8:21:12 PM: Well, made it thru the surgery. More days than i thought in the hospital after but that was okay. Needed the time to be able to move on my own. Have work in front of me but to be able to walk right again, sheer heaven.  Quite the experience all in all.  The nursing staff and all else were amazing.   The dedication of most managed to make even the most demanding feel well cared for. Thank them each and every one.