Work, family, and certain unspeakable issues are draining all my energy. ALL of it. What has happened to that all around fun and upbeat girl that is me? I have to force myself to stay awake and half the time I fall asleep well before a reasonable hour in my mind. I've stopped talking to almost all the people who I used to talk to, only talking to the very very important select few, and even those are rare. I know this isn't me "Growing up" because the rare times I have energy, or when I'm talking to a certain person I'm still fun, cute and upbeat. 

I haven't actually sat down and read(Not counting on breaks, those are ten/30 minutes) in over a month, I have the time, I just haven't felt like it. I always feel like reading! 

I need more outlets, things/people who bring me back to who I love being, I have one and seriously he has no idea how much he means to me for that. I think I'm going to start a real search for needle play, the adrenaline rush I get from piercings and even the one I get from shots is magical. When I got my nipples pierced just a few weeks ago, I had a high that puts to shame any one I've ever had before, and it lasted for almost two weeks, any time I bumped or caught a nipple and got that sharp jolt of pain. 

Oh so annoying,

That is what most of the men on this site are. All the so called "Doms" acting as if because I'm female and have a submissive side I shall submit to them just because they "grace me by speaking to me."  Submissive friends who decide they will do everything for me and sit there begging for me, seriously, it's not attractive. People who message me based of looks and the ridiculously little I have on my profile and are expecting/asking for more then to get to know me can go shove something with spikes up their urethra, then have someone jump up and down on their cock.

Hey!

I use ftlife so much more. There are more photos, a longer about me, and I post constantly.

I'd love for you to go check it out if you have one. 

Same name.