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Who am I? Well, I am... HD adhd, brilliantly scattered like the stars, have good days and bad days in the same 12 hours and some daze see 5 sunrises. I engage without thought, yet strategize the big picture down to minutia. I look before I leap, yet no matter what I see, I leap anyways. I will not remember what we spoke about so passionately a day ago. I was ranting, I thought you were listening to me. I do not have the capacity to talk as fast as I do and also pay attention to what I say.
On the whole I am mercurial as chaos theory yet as staid as the sunset. I value loyalty over righteousness. There is no right or wrong, the present manipulates the past from moment to moment, but I stand my ground in hopes that the future will vindicate me for my actions. That being said, I am a tranny, who will never get SRS, so it is obvious that I cannot even pick a gender. No one is even comfortable with me in pronoun semantics. I am a dichotomy of self with a non polar personality. My mood is always.. well.. I am a cheery motherfucker day in and day out. In the face of adversity, I smile. In the face of love, I fucked up, but smiled nonetheless.
I will be smiling in Hell when I die, for it is not in me to burden samaratins or charlatans with the cross I bear. Stick it in deep. I want ya to nail me. Just dont expect me to hang around for very long. You can't save me and I do not want to save you. I'd rather die for your sins than live with mine, but when I tried, no one was good enough, but I was bad enough, so I doubled my nightmares and gave up on sleep.
I have been on xxxxxx for longer than most of you have been alive, yet I drink enough whiskey that I look right in society. I coined the term "Blasted Reality" to describe my perception of life and named myself "Blasted T-Girl" to warn others away, but still I am beset on all sides with guys who like walks on the beach and snowflakes. I love Elvis and firepower, the Beatles and bombs.
I believe that your God is real and that your enemy's God is just as real. I would not believe in my God if H-im-H-er-It wasn't so funny and I've always gotten their jokes. You see, everyone claims that their God is everything, then states what their God is not. God is all things to all people then all that is missed. The kissed, the pissed, the dissed and the dick with a list. The Devil in these eyes and sheep in disguise. So fuck me or fight me. I don't care if ya like me. I'm not here for your sake. It's my fate and I'm late. So... I just ate. Don't really much date and I can masterbate, so don't hate if I wait or fail to concentrate on being your dream girl or your perfect mate. Got that straight?
There are no straight lines in this universe, so if you thought yes, you are wrong...
Only a fool is totally certain.. Am I positive on that? Absolutely!!
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