Oh the joys of looking like a wiped chalk board..

Sick at home with Scarlet Fever... :(

I feel like a kid again..plastered in calamine lotion and feeling really sorry for myself.. itchy, burning skin, dizzy head and almost photosensitive eyes topped with a delicious case of tonsilitis 

Ok, so having gone to meet a few friends last night.... I decided to hang a little longer than planned... guess it was a good job being as the femsub decided to go off into several full on harsh epileptic fits, four in the space of 25 mins... 

Thank heavens for medical training.. then not quite so yay for the next five and a half hours spent in hospital waiting to see if she is ok... half dead me today... with a killer headache to match

Really bouncing... new toys... heavens my bank took a beating today.. rather sorry to have not bumped into the ppl that I could have met today... looking at my messages.. mmmm

new electric toys to be used... lets see how high my sublings can jump....

Ho hum... soo having had a fairly nice weekend... back to the grind today with an added bonus or two.. first one not being a bonus.. a trip to the dentist... *cries* Dentist NOT my favourite thing...

Second however is the return of a sub.... a few weeks out of My service and he begs to return.. bless his little heart, so tonight he is being re-initiated and collared again.. this time with no options 

Mmmm Feeling a little low.. Really in need of a severely good massage... something to lift the spirits

Having had a wonderful day...

woke to pampering by a new friend... blissfull orgasms... for hours...

the use of a returning sub who is aiming for his collar...

the meeting of a very high potential sub... I like!!

then to top it off .... the clutch goes on my bloody car!!

Mmmmm now why cant every day end like today... a lovely long day out with a friend, meeting old friends at the BBB and having lots of fun.. a meal out.. then an evening of trying out new toys on my willing friend.. sending her to a blissful subspace event.. then the cherry on top.. a random messaging event which results in meeting a wonderful sub with the most amazing hands and my feet are now officially smiling! :)

Been offline due to family happenings, will be back in full force shortly! I shall attempt to catch up on correspondance as soon as I can

Oh my heavens... My sadistic side has well and truely feasted on  a willing victim.. whos only just stopped bleeding from his cock... not that its any good for anything else anyhow!

The facility in Walsall is an excellent place for doing whatever the fuck you want in... Lord knows that my sadomasochistic female domme friend and I had hours of fun with My victim who has requested the same abuse next month!

A few photographs will be displayed :)

Having had the beginning from hell of a week... Totalling my new car due to a stupid fox,  I am now hoping that it shall improve drastically with the arrival of one sub.. you know who you are... and I hope to heaven that you are ready to take what is waiting for you... who knows.. you might not be able to walk out the door....

****FYI NO ANIMAL WAS HURT IN THE ACCIDENT AS I SWERVED TO AVOID THE DARN THING****

Oh the joys.. after a weekend filled with celebrations of getting older.. 

the chores still remain.. where are My housework junkies when I need them

forever swirling
going down
the emotional rollercoaster
hit the town
twisting, turning
spinning fast
going over
all things past
eyes closed shut
really tight
wanting off
filled with fright
fingers cover
my closed eyes
slowly opening
up to the skies
hand then moving
to the rail
stomach clenching
feeling frail
a voice within
feeling strong
suddenly shouting
this is wrong
heartbeats faster
endorphines rush
standing up
firm footed push
eyes wide open
looking around
beneath her feet
solid ground
panic over
filled relief
head shaking
mental belief
world stops spinning
now does smile
deeply inhaling
on with the next mile

Having a little of a down moment.. seriously at odds with everything today

Slaves who deliberately break rules get severely punished... amber will be experiencing this upon her return to My feet

Mr Sandman

The darkness turns to fading light
Mr Sandman long ago took flight
Leaving me awake, no dreaming
While outsides light begins streaming

Climbing higher to its crest
Bright burning suns heavenly quest
While in my head thoughts darkly growing
Multiplying increasing never slowing

Watching inky black turn white
Hearing tick-tocks passing night
My brain increasingly wide awake
Sheer exhaustion causing fingers shake

Wondering what makes night so dreary
As I sit and ponder thoughts so weary
Yellow bright, Blue, Inky Black
Maybe time to hit the track

Should I try recall a dream
Where things were made of soft whipped cream
Where things were light and airily cuddly
Instead of inky dark full of drudgery

So down I lie and look to the ceiling
My sleepless life.. a regular feeling
If I close my eyes and breathe in deep
Maybe I can drift .....

to sleep

TRUST

something there at the beginning and should be there at the very end...

RESPECT

that you can talk to me and I am non-judgemental 95% of the time, I do have compassion

FAITH

that I will move heaven and earth to protect who and what is worthy of MY time

LOYALTY

to the bitter end.. like a lioness and her cubs

THINK

actions can be considered hurtful even if with the best intention

CONVERSATION

something that is integral in these bonds we form, sometimes abandoned but connections remain.. use ANY way of contacting me that has been made available to you.. tho at times delayed a reply will always come!

Tonight I had for the first time in ages a wonderful night out with a very mixed group of friends.. all suited (or should that be corsetted) and booted to go and watch Rocky Horror in Birmingham... excellent night out.. shame we were nearly at the top of the theatre.. and I dont like heights... but still at the end of the evening we joined in the encores and did the time warp... allbeit very gingerly

An hour
Two voices soft and gentle
Fingers entwined
Palms caressing
Contact broken
A command issued
An order executed
A beaming smile
An apprehensive reply
One look, watching
Eyes approving
Ears hearing the rustle
Clothing falls
One more word
Order followed
An admiring view
Twin globes ready
A gentle smirk
Adrenalin rushes
Two words.....
"Good Boy!"

Her breathing harder,
Rise and fall,
Her chest buring,
Aching within,
The finger circling,
Round and round.

Her hips lifting,
Rise and fall,
Twisting left,
Snaking right,
Grinding slowly,
Deep groan vibrates.

Body on fire,
Rise and fall,
Tidal wall breaching,
Aching hard,
One last touch,
Crescendo peaked

Rise and Fall,
Indrawn breath,
Rise and Fall,
All consumed,
Rise and Fall,
Rise and Fall.

knelt in position, waiting orders
"Close your eyes"
the words were uttered close by
feeling the covering sliding down her face
the binding behind her head tightening
"Now open them", comes the command
seeing that the light is gone she knows
her vision is taken, her senses expand
her skin prickles with awareness
her ears pick up the slightest movement 
she cranes her neck as she concentrates
the sound moving further away
her heart skips a beat as she listens
the sound of the cupboard opening slowly
the smell of the leather escaping its hiding place
she feels her moisture being to flow
readying her, making her aware of what is to come
she blinks rapidly behind the blindfold
trying in earnest to see that which she cannot
the rustling of fabric behind her makes her jump
a shuddering intaken breath, her head held high
the cold of the leather as it surrounds her neck
the smell invading her senses, increasing her submissiveness
the buckle icy against the heated skin, pulsing
feeling the collar tightening she bows her head
"Good slave" uttered close to her ear

Considering my next line of script ... volenti non fit injuria

the stinging swipe,
the heat of fire,
the burn of pain,
the wince of delight,
the throb of arousal,
the growing want,
the quickening skin,
the moistening tip,
the slippery edge,
the drag of nails,
the excitement grows,
the need increasing,
the bite of the lip,
the held breath,
the illicit groan,
the eyes wide open,
the pinnacle reached,
the sudden flood,
the rapid beat,
the pleasure gone,
the looking forward...
to the next crest

Stop the world, I want to get off....

To have my eyes opened, 

to see what it is that I know,

to have to admit it, 

to wonder at the outcome,

to wait till contacted, 

to hear the outcome,

to be in suspense,

to be agonised,

to wait,

simply.

Wait

NIN - Sin  :)

You give me the reason.
You give me control.
I gave you my Purity.
My Purity you stole.
Did you think I wouldn't recognize this compromise.
Am I just too stupid to realize.
Stale incense old sweat and lies lies lies

 It comes down to this.
Your kiss.
Your fist.
And your strain.
It get's under my skin.
Within.
Take in the extent of my sin

You give me the anger.
You give me the nerve.
Carry out my sentence.
While I get what I deserve.
I'm just an effigy to be disgraced.
To be defaced.
Your need for me has been replaced.
And if I can't have everything well then just give me a taste.

 

It comes down to this.
Your kiss.
Your fist.
And your strain.
It get's under my skin.
Within.
Take in the extent of my sin

TO SERVE

to give freely
to take nothing
to always obey
to fulfill needs
to bend gracefully
to be prepared
to accept willingly
to give thanks
to be for another x

TO TAKE SERVICE : TO DOMAINTE

to take at will
to take control
to understand
to always care
to be supportive
to guide and teach
to nurture and adore
to take a kindness
to respect a limit
to bind another
to extract pleasure
to give it back
to give : to take
to want
to use......

Happy Halloween!!  Time for a new start in life.. to take control of the things I have let slip, and to tighten the reigns on others.... literally!  It's time to become more expressive and to find a release of things that need to be let go of, a fresh and new bright future to shape and mold into whatever I choose :)  I sense a change .. a big change :)