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off to work on writing my vows .... Iwillspanku you are amazing me everyday with Your patience and i love You with every fiber of my being. thank You for making me Yours always.
ever Your dovey
last pic i added is of Sir and i out riding in feb 2011 rest break at applejacks |
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a repost of some feelings over the loss of who i called my best friend couple years ago feeling that way again today kinda
so reposting this lil thing ....
I might not be the most beautiful or the sexiest...nor have the perfect body... I might not be anyones first choice...but I am a GREAT choice... I don't pretend to be someone else...cause I am too good at being ME... I might not be proud of some of the things I've done...but I am proud of who I am today. Take me as I am or.........don't take me at all
HAPPY TODAY JUST BEING ME!!!!! |
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~*~I've made mistakes in my life. I've let people take advantage of me, & I've accepted way less than I deserve. But, I've learned from my bad choices & even though there are some things I can never change or get back & people who will never be sorry for their part, I'll know better next time & I wont settle for anything less than I deserve!~*~ |
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i come to you....
i come to You and offer my body for Your unrestricted use
to punish or carress as You see fit
Knowing You will protect me from the World,
Your unbridled violence and my own neglect.
i come to You though i feel unworthy
of all that You bestow
i come to You to seek and to learn
all that You teach be it in joy or in Pain
i promise to learn all i can of the pleasures
of which the "nilla" world knows not.
Or if they know will never understand.
i come to You in simple yet total faith
walking past my fears and through my doubt
i promise You my absolute trust in Your better Judgement and i will show this
with my every action in daily life.
i come to You in naked truth
with no masks, walls or false modesty.
devoid od any deciet or trickery.
i say to You, "Sir looking at me, here.... now...
all that You behold is all i have to bring."
i promise truth, i vow honesty, and on my life
i swear to be true in seeing that my every action Pleases You.
Swearing this..... i come to You
doveySMP sept2010 for Walt |
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well this is a sad day for the the dove...looks like i wont be onfield with the A's this weekend for the pregame... seems i have developed bronxchitis and it would so be wrong for me to risk passing it on top opther fighters at the evenrt so it looks like i wont be going:(
on the upside of life looks like dj^dovey will soon be back on internet radio airwaves!!!! wooot have missed my dj timeslots and looking forward to a new station and bioth new ansd old listeners tuning in... not yet sure of times or show types in full yet like a nest of blues one day a week and perhaps 1 or 2 others
Updates to follow
hugs
dovey |
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The me NOBODY knows
All Rights Reserved...2008 by SMP"dovey"
Why can't i show to You the me nobody knows?
Is it because i am afraid? Afraid You will not accept who i really am??
Or is it something else?
Do i think You will try to change me; Make me what You want me to be
or worse yet, Make me what
You THINK i should be.
Perhaps the me that i am is not acceptable to You...
Too different to be understood, too complex for Your limited mind to understand.
i do not know the reasons or the why's i just know that i cannot expose the me nobody knows to You...
not yet...
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A diamond uncut has no sparkle, no shine All it's beauty is hidden It Takes...
A Master Craftman, His tools and steady precision To bring out its beauty.
Could there be a more perfect craftsman to bring out my hidden beauty Than the One for whom my heart beats and my world turns?
written by... SMP~dovey |
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been slacking not feeling too gr8
repost
pray.... all rights reserved by smp (dovey) 2008
i pray that i will have...
The strength to continue as this path gets rougher
The courage to try again when i fail
The ability to ride out lifes storms
The hope to continue towards my dreams despite Cancer
The chance to reach out and embrace tomorrow!! |
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GOOD MORNING A/all and what a wonderful morning it is!!!!!
life is good and gonna get better i just feel it in my bones......
will be offline and incommunicado a while rtoday gettting rid of this sucky ATT and getting my comcast back on it will be being reinstalled in about an hour or so i will check messgaes etc once they are done'!!! Have a Marvelous Monday and a blessed week!!!
dovey!! |
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GOOD MORNING A/all not yet bright eyed and bushy tailed but getting there with the help of my friends Gevalia & Folgers Have Spectacular Sunday and Many Blessings !!
dovey
will check mail periodiccally but need to start making stock for Sept 12th's house party Be wll A/all and Have A Blessed Day!! |
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The Journey to wholeness is a painful one Your memories, that fill me with joy and pain are slowly healing Now there are new ones to face...
The pain ... it hurts It is hard to trust- But i must... If i am ever going to again find joy in The Journey! |
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Oh, give me back the passion That left with your embrace It wasn’t fair to take it To remove it from it’s place
It’s mine, I want it back It’s the thing I can’t forgive Of all the things you’ve offered Only the passion deserves to live
Oh, give me back the passion That came from your burning kiss Hungry lips are a dime a dozen But the passion I sorely miss
I can forgive you for the heartache I can forget your thoughtless greed So take back your honeyed words It’s only the passion that I need
Oh, give me back the passion Flamed as fire in your urgent touch So deny me of your caresses But the passion I need so much
As the only gift you gave me Stirred as emotions in my soul And they flowed through me like an elixir Through my veins to make me whole
Oh, give me back the passion Born of your whispered dreams You can keep the sexual notions But the passion I must redeem
Why would you want to take it? For in you, it has no use But for me it heals the hurt It’s a voice to express my views
Oh, give me back the passion That you awakened as forbidden desire Just keep the words I’ve longed for But in stealing my passion…you’ve stolen my fire!
cassmp orig 2006 posted 8/14/2010 all rights reserved |
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A giant hand inside my chest Stretches out and takes My heart within its mighty grasp And squeezes till it breaks.
A gentle hand inside my chest, With mending tape and glue, Patches up my heart until It's almost good as new.
I ought to know by now that Broken hearts will heal again. But while I wait for glue and tape, The pain! The pain! The pain!
cassmp...orig 2007 posted 8/14/2010 |
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Knowing what you need Is more than knowing what you want.
It's a kind of clear-eyed wisdom To see what is worthless. It's touching on someone Who you know won't turn away. It's reaching for something That's really worth the climb. And it's learning to let go When it isn't.
Knowing what you need Is more than knowing what makes you feel good right now. It's knowing that the same thing Will make you feel good again. |
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after a long period of introspection after the loss of some i once thought and held closest to my heart due to backstabbing and lying and total false front... this is how i realize i feel about me today.... i cannot let you bring me down....to much already tries in my life....
I might not be the most beautiful or the sexiest...nor have the perfect body... I might not be anyones first choice...but I am a GREAT choice... I don't pretend to be someone else...cause I am too good at being ME... I might not be proud of some of the things I've done...but I am proud of who I am today. Take me as I am or.........don't take me at all
HAPPY TODAY JUST BEING ME!!!!! |
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wishing You every Happiness Ben.... be well |
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well hmmmmm las night / early this am things looked very very.... shall i say bleak i didnt care if i woke again.... but in todays sunshine things look so much better and Ya know what it dont make a poop why some people do what they do and i know im not in control of others actions only my reactions to it...... and today im ok and at peace with me my life and who i am today!!! Woot gonna be a great day i just feels it!!!
Have a blessed weekend ya'll
dovey |
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wonders why a ghost appears out of the past only to delete unread that persons responses once ghost didnt like what that person had to say.hmmmmm some things never change i guess.... stir the pot abnd then run...... go figure.... |
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kimberlee2010 you rock!!! keep on keeping on prayers are yours and your moms please keep us posted !!!!
and ty for this love it!!!!!!
-Put this in your profile if you know someone who has survived, struggles with or died of cancer...
Never pass the chance to say "i love you" to those in your life you care about...as we are not promised tomorrow 
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was just thinking about things an interesting time it seems im iin in my life kinda lost kina found not here not there but somewhere..... sounds a bit chaotic i guess but it lead me to ask myseklf as manty have asked me recently why im here and what i seek....well this i know from my own history to be true
D/s isn’t about rules for behavior... it isn’t about scenes or playing games... it isn’t about rituals and postures... it isn’t about pushing boundaries, kinky sex or living a lifestyle. A D/s relationship may include aspects of any or all of those things, but they are adopted out of the desire to titillate, heighten experiences, or maintain mindset.
The true heart of D/s is about giving. Each partner supplying what is needed to complete the other. It is a symbiotic relationship, plain and simple... the desire to be fulfilled and to fulfill the other borne out of mutual admiration, respect and trust. Each person reaping the benefits in whatever form they take.
A D/s relationship is not casual… it is intense, adventurous, exciting and passionate. It requires time, commitment and work for both parties and must be carefully built. It isn’t something that can be planned for the future, the foundation starts from day one!
this is ouit there its doable and findable been there i know it to be true and i will know it again... guess thats my answer to that question
at leasst at thie time it is. im a realist thouhgh rome wasnt built in a day why should any relationship be?D/s or otherwise?
Blessings A/all
dovey |
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wrote some time back but sure does fit the moment..dovey
well except the blonde curls part i dont have those anymore but thiis too shall pass.
Come Take me Master
come take me Master
and make me Your slave
i long to please You
all of my days.
i so long to feel the sting of Your whip
the weight of Your hand
a kiss from Your lips.
the feel of Your teeth as they sink into my skin
the darkness befalls me
slave to Your every whim.
i kneel at Your feet
awaiting Your call
naked and ready to take Your all.
tighten Your ropes Master
as You strike with Your cane
Your hand tightly pulling my blonde curly mane
yes come take me Master
and make me Your own
keep me close Master to hearth & to home
So come take me Master
and make me Your slave
and i promise to please YOU in every way.
cassmp written 2006 posted 080910 all rights reserved |
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IF IT PLEASES YOU....
If it pleases You to have me kneel before You
i will kneel reverently.
If it pleases You to bind me
i will gladly offer my arms to You!
If it pleases You to touch me
i will allow myself to be touched.
If it pleases You to teach me
i will learn all you have to teach.
If it pleases You to discipline me
i will accept it without a sound.
If it pleases You to allow me to serve You
i will serve You with total loyalty and devotion
cassmp all rights reserved 2005 posted 080810 |
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pretty proud of my non techie slf... ity took me anout 11 hours but managed to rid my puter of the 4 worms and 2 trojans and alll all by my lonely..... learned some thing new today,,,, dont click on links in messenger messages even if you think it came from your friend....it 'll mess your puter up baaaaad.... hehehehe but this time i fixed it ll by myself
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my fights get up and go done got up and went may not be around for a few days... Be Blessed till we meet again |
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"A friend is one who knows us,
but loves us anyway."
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seems im having a no hair day!!!!!
be back in a bit with a better attitude or maybe its frame of mind havent yet decided
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didnt ask permission to state said Friends names so i didnt but IF They read that post They will Know who They Are be blessed
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good morning A/all and have a Marvelous Monday.... time to fundraise for my walk soon maybe try and eat a lil, havent been doing enough of that it seems... *sighs*
just not hungry most days guess this really isnt the place to Cancer related journal but its whats here atm so..... had a restful weekend and i hope Y/ya'll did too!~!.. Oh a friend sent a wonderful chart they made for tracking things meds food etc etc what a wonderful that was and TYTYTY soo much my friend never thought to use Excel for tracking those very important Cancer things!!! I have been writing up a storm on it and its an amazing help TY again.. silly girl i am i shoulda thought of that and not putting stuff in storage in onenote lol... oh well.. newest news on my front for anyone curious they have dropped me from the clinical trial i will potentially eligible for a different one... but... this one isnt working to well with me... i got spider biit and in less than two days i was close to losing a foot potentially had i not went and ghot checked it seems i reacted very badly to the bites which were massively infected in less than two days. anyhow... this too shall pass.. the bites are healing after lanceing etc and though currently on hold treatment wise Another new friends involved with The Cancer health field has made suggestions on things for me to do(take) supplements etc that i am looking into as well so another thx is being sent to That Northwestern Friend!!! TYVM Sir much appreciated!!! and in the meantime life goes on and intend to enjoy as much of it as i can!!!
Be Blessed A/all and have a Marvelous Monday!!
hugs
dovey
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wow i been slacking on being here.... but have been starting muy fundraising nd physically gearing ,myself up for my Making Strides against Breast Cancer walk which is in 98 days so havent been on as much my apologiess to any i have seems rude to in non response last few days. But my advocating and helping anway i can in the search for a cure and for fellow fighters hads become an important part of my life these last couple years.
FIGHT LIKE A GIRL!!!!! I DO EVERYDAY!!!!! |
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Maybe it's true
maybe W/we dont know what W/we have until W/we've lost it...
But Maybe it's also true that W/we dont know what W/we are missing till W/we find it.. |
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how i feel today after the back stabbing loss of some i thought closest to my heart for quite some time... you will not bring me down because today this is how i feel after much introspction!!!!
I might not be the most beautiful or the sexiest...nor have the perfect body... I might not be anyones first choice...but I am a GREAT choice... I don't pretend to be someone else...cause I am too good at being ME... I might not be proud of some of the things I've done...but I am proud of who I am today. Take me as I am or.........don't take me at all
HAPPY TODAY JUST BEING ME!!!!! |
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i pray.... all rights reserved by smp (dovey) 2008
i pray that i will have...
The strength to continue as this path gets rougher
The courage to try again when i fail
The ability to ride out lifes storms
The hope to continue towards my dreams despite Cancer
The chance to reach out and embrace tomorrow!! |
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Random thoughts.....
Knowing what you need Is more than knowing what you want.
It's a kind of clear-eyed wisdom To see what is worthless. It's touching on someone Who you know won't turn away. It's reaching for something That's really worth the climb. And it's learning to let go When it isn't.
Knowing what you need Is more than knowing what makes you feel good right now. It's knowing that the same thing Will make you feel good again.
all rights reserved by SMP (dovey) 2008 |
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Come Take me Master
come take me Master
and make me Your slave
i long to please You
all of my days.
i so long to feel the sting of Your whip
the weight of Your hand
a kiss from Your lips.
the feel of Your teeth as they sink into my skin
the darkness befalls me
slave to Your every whim.
i kneel at Your feet
awaiting Your call
naked and ready to take Your all.
tighten Your ropes Master
as You strike with Your cane
Your hand tightly pulling my blonde curly mane
yes come take me Master
and make me Your own
keep me close Master to heart and to home.
So come take me Master
and make me Your slave
and i promise to please YOU all of my days.
reading through some stuff i wrote long time ago.... brings back memoriues of what im missing thought i would add some of it here
All Rights Reserved written by "smp(dovey) 2007 |
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omg my friend brought m gift not big on wigs but she brought me a quite lovely kinda burgndy red wig in a bob cut its very cute may have to take pic in it to add at some point i reckon.... lif is good but a bit dull very much looking forward to this tuesday may have a nic day again.... well time for some tea and tasks TC A/all
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well been lovely morning since home from treatment best get at my chores tho laundry dog walk etc etc etc
.. back later!!
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i am not here to indulge in either phone or cyber sex to please anyones fantasy while they hide behind a keyboard so please dont assume thats my purpose or desire here ... if you took time to try to know anything about me you would quickly know differently.... TY and have a blessed day
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-Put this in your profile if you know someone who has survived, struggles with or died of cancer... |
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ok pics dated profile day i posted red Top, New Years Eve 2010 sk other two wre right bteween when i hair for a few short months i believe in napril if i remembr right when i took them.... |
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Once upon a time, she met a dominant man with dark hair and a sexy smile. He was very measured and in control when he reached around her and lightly caressed her bald head, lightly caressing yet running sparks all through her with his touch. He pulled her with just a fingertip to Him, tipped her head back and kissed her, His tongue deep and in charge. He reached over and pinched her nipple with His free hand. Her head spun and her pussy moistened. A voice inside...an old tape perhaps, said "Hey He isn't allowed to do that." Silently of course, a newer voice led by pure passion said, "Yes, yes, yes, more~ please".
This scene, intense and forever etched in her mind will always be the one that surpasses any first meets before or since.
She adores His touch and longs to feel it again. |
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think i will walk jack have some tea *giggles* and reslect on life his afternoon before i get back to my writing and jewelry be blessed all
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had an amazing yesterday a wonderful lunch and time to follow was even more wonderful.... can hardly wait to have more days just as good may yet be a summer of happy sunshine filled days....ty my friend! |
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