Update 13 may 2010

Well thanks everyone for the messages and the chats, i'm sorry for some people i didn't react to(i got quite a lot off messages)

I found out more about myself, feels like a big discovery tour :-) what i like or not like, excite me or not, while chatting with people. I still feel lot of shame while being open, but its getting better, guess little bit accepting :-) I'm going to tell so you can decide if you want to have contact with me. I'm still uncertain if i want to do anything with it, in principle not, but maybe if i meet the right person :-)

Not into:

Calling somebody master, Mr. Feels strange to me

Pain, maybe very light ok, like twisting of a nipple, but no spanking, needles

Hard bondage, with so many ropes doesnt turn me on

Leather masks, scared me

247 - I'm this year finishing my exams of high school in holland and probably go live on myself next year, go to college, i'm not looking to move in with a man, i more think if something comes out a regular meet like every 3 weeks or so could be an option

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Into: (well want to make sure, its still fantasy for me, i have almost no experience with this, and dont know if i want to make it reality)

My fantasy on multiple men keeps coming back all the time, i fantasize being the middle point in a sex cinema or in a parking lot with men i dont know

Serving feeling of pleasing men, that i'm a great, their girl, compliments, being accepted

Sexual, most fantasies have sexual nature, i fantasize being in the middle, all the attention, hands

Strong men, i like to watch big, strong men, older than i am, they dont have to be particlarly attractive

Sexy clothes, i have not much now, but i would love to wear sexy things i think, like heels or stockings, to make men really like me

I fantasize abot sex cinema, or parking sex or a club, some guys here sent me photos of that and keep turning to them again and again

tattoo, piercing, i have none, but maybe in the future, like the looks, maybe when i go live on myself to celebrate my freedom :-)

It's become a long story but hope it helps you if yo want ot message me.

X Lotte

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Hi, 

Just taking look here out of curiosity, see what happens,maybe a chat to talk a bit, don't expect to meet me tomorrow, i'm just trying to find my way. I think i have submissive feelings, but i'm not really sure and I don't know if I want to do anything with it. It's more in fantasy I think. Basically I'm a normal girl I think and feel bit strange about it.

Well if you would like a chat or maybe help me a bit, or talk, please msg me or add me on msn,

 X hope to hear from you, x

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i have msn to talk if you want

93lotte at gmai l com