6/27/2012 6:27:47 PM: Earlier today I had a hard time imagining how I could possibly be more frustrated than I was at the time. While I completely love my job and am so grateful that I have it in my life, sometimes aspects of things I have to do to report what I do aren't always reliable and make things extremely difficult to say the least.   When I got home I decided to put that aside and relax a bit. Good thinking I thought at the time. Then there was the discussion with an opinionated person who thought that because I didn't bow down and totally accept his point of view on a subject, that I am therefore insecure and don't want a relationship. Wow, if I was really all that insecure would I really have the strength to stand up for my beliefs? I'm thinking the answer to that is a definite no. However, I'm also thinking that if you can't stand anyone to question you on something so minor that you yourself might have some insecurities. YA THINK?!

5/27/2012 2:44:51 PM: I had the most delightful experience last night. I went to a BDsM club with 2 friends of mine I hadn't seen in ages. Not only was it just wonderful to spend time with them, but I got a chance to spend some time with an acquaintance as well. Beyond those things, I thoroughly enjoyed assisting my Dominant friend in doing 2 wax art sessions and taking photos of the results. The first submissive made the most delightful squeals and laughs when the wax hit ticklish or sensitive spots. I can so easily see why Dominants enjoy those sounds! I also was able to watch a few really hot scenes others were doing. As an additional bonus, I got some wonderfully kinky ideas for things I want to try.

4/7/2012 5:51:25 PM: I have found myself more and more exasperated with this site in the last few weeks. I have been vacillating on whether or not to just delete my profile here or not. It seems like such a waste of my time. It's really appalling to me the sheer number of totally and absolutely clueless people you find on here. For the most part, I believe the people trolling here....yes, I mean exactly what I said...are here on this site because they think that BDSM or D/s means free and easy sex. Well news flash idiots- this is not about the sex!!! Oh yes, sex is a definite bonus and by product of this lifestyle, but it is not what it is about. I think I speak for many submissive when I point out the following offenses that the so-called Doms who contact us make- 1) If you think contacting a submissive for the first time and barking demands or insults is going to get you a favourable response, you are sadly misinformed. As a submissive, we have the luxury of controlling to whom and when we submit. Submitting to a rude, insolent idiot we've never even spoken to before isn't even on our radar- so get a clue and stop this. If you need to have your ego boosted, you're going about this the wrong way- this is an EGO-BUSTING activity for proper submissives. 2) When you contact someone for the first time and you'd like to get a response, you need to say something which will make them want to respond- be it charming, interesting, titillating or humourous. Saying 'nice tits girl' or 'hello' is not even close to meeting this criteria. Come on fellas, don't you have a freaking imagination? People who are truly into this lifestyle should be overflowing with imagination- so freaking use it for something productive!!! It will only be of benefit to yourself. 3) Where have all the manners gone since the onset of internet communication? If you met a woman in the grocery store who caught your interest would you walk up to her and 'nice tits girl' or 'kneel at my feet and worship My dick.' If you were stupid enough to do this, I think you'd certainly deserve the slap or blistering verbal abuse you would get heaped upon yourself. A Dominant should have respect for a submissive, just as a submissive should have respect for a Dominant. Respect means you don't ask sexual questions as your first questions- jeez- you're supposed to actually get to know someone a bit before you delve into that aren't you? 4) Why is the only way that CM 'Doms' (and I use that term very loosely) know how to communicate with submissives is through an interrogation using the 20 questions game? I'm thinking that if the roles were reversed and we, as submissives, asked you quesiton after question and never gave you any information about ourselves, you'd soon get tired of it and say thanks but no thanks. Why not converse with a submissive? Conversation involves the give and take of information in a fluid manner which leads to a greater divulgence of information from both parties in general. When we feel comfortable with someone we are all apt to give more information and lead others to give more information hence providing for a greater avenue of chances to get to know one another. When you get short, clipped answers, it generally means the other person is not interested- interrogation breeds such disinterest. So wake up Dominants- learn to use the tool of conversation to get what you want. signs.....Now that I have basically finished my rant I feel a tad bit better. However, I am sadly cognizant of the fact that the idiots to whom this is most targeted don't read profiles or journals- all they do is perv photos so they can jack off to them.....MEN!!!!!!!!!!!

3/22/2012 5:58:35 PM: I'm curious, what is it about describing yourself as a sensual submissive that makes a sadistic Dom/Domme or a begging male submissive contact you? Me, I'm thinking that sensual submissive and sadist or begging male submissives just don't mesh in any way whatsoever.    I know my dear 'gay friend' and sadistic Dom will disagree with me on this point. He would tell me that it's better to have a submissive such as myself who has to endure the sadistic 'torture' rather than a pain slut who lives for it.   Anyone else have an opinion?

3/21/2012 10:18:23 AM: I just finished doing some minor revisions on my profile. I deleted a few things and added 2 major things. I'm not really sure why I added the 2 things....2 lists- What I'm not looking for and What I am looking for. I realize that the vast majority of the people those lists should be aimed at are never, ever going to do anything other than perv my profile pics and send some irritating caveman message....wow, I'm gonna really have to hold myself back not to jump on those guys!!    I am hoping that the addition of the 2 lists will help those Dominants who actually do know how to read and do actually read profiles before sending messages get a very clear idea of what it is I'm hoping to find. Also, I'm hoping it will alleviate that dreaded question- so what are you looking for? (We won't even get into the fact that that sentence was finished with a preposition!!! Don't get me started!!)