Collarspace

im just a boy looking for that elusive ever after. What am i willing to do to get it? You might be surprised. Try me.

i tried this site a few months back and got disappointed. i left. But quitting isnt my style and neither is being pessimistic. This time around, i feel better prepared. ill let the fakes and flakes roll off my back and ill concentrate on those who might be looking for the same thing that i am.

So, what am i looking for? Is it okay that i dont know the full answer to that question? Is it okay that i want to have the answer dictated to me, instead of having it be something ive predetermined? Is it okay that i want You to be the Boss and You to be able to expect that ill get on board with what You want instead of giving You a list of what i want? Is it okay that i know that happiness, for me, will mean my life, my world, my everything revolving around You--including what im allowed to like and want?

i do know some things. i know that i want it to be permanent--or at least leading to permanence. i know that i want it to be ALL about You. i know that i want an Owner who is part Queen, part Teacher, part Taskmaster, part deity. i know that i want Her to feel entitled to me--to owning me, to my service, to my devotion, to my worship. i know that i can be confident, intelligent, worthwhile and still kneel to One who is superior to me and embrace a Superiorinferior dynamic with Her that is the foundation of Oour relationship without it being a bad thing. i know that i want to literally worship the ground She walks upon. i know that i want to do whatever it takes to make Her happy. i know that i want Her to define not just Her happiness, but mine and Oours as well. i want Her to feel comfortable remaking and remolding me to Her personal tastes.

i hope i find what im seeking here. i hope i find You. And i hope i get to spend the rest of my life, serving You, pleasing You, obeying You and worshiping You.