12/12/2016 12:06:01 PM: I really could do with some non-vanilla now. Any Goddess that would consider giving some online training? Trainers fees and some laughs for You, aching balls and blushing cheeks for me? 

10/3/2014 11:41:24 PM: I haven't updated in a while, partly because I didn't know what happened when the old CM internet address stopped working. The main change in my life is geographical, I am now working in Stockholm, Sweden.Unfortunately I still do not wear a collar. And I haven't been so focused on D/s lately, mainly due to big changes professionally. But the need to submit never goes completely away, and the trend is for it to get stronger again. Sweden should be a bit more D/s friendly than Central Asia, I hope!

10/12/2013 10:42:28 PM: Finally my work in Central Asia is coming to an end, and I will soon be looking to relocate. Right now I have no idea where, I'm looking for a new job globally.   Since I will be leaving the D/s desert of Central Asia I took a look at my profile, expecting to see needs for an update. But I was a bit surprised to find that I still agree with what I have written earlier years. I'm a consistent submissive!

4/16/2013 10:53:27 PM: The site moderators considered my (only) pic offensive and removed it. It must have been the chastity belt that was the problem... I'll upload pics again at some stage.

12/21/2012 11:10:08 PM: While on the topic of chastity I feel like rambling a bit more.   I think most Dommes would agree that orgasm control makes a lot of sense. I know it works in my case, when my balls get heavy I get more submissive and more service minded, all my thoughts center on the Woman who decides when I next time will get release.   But does the control have to be enforced with a chastity device? A matter of taste I guess. I do think the 'honor system' works too, I have never masturbated without permission in a D/s relationship. But a chastity device is admittably more effective as it takes away erections too (at least some devices do). I only have experience of being locked up in 'the Curve', and I can say that I get quite desperate already after 1-2 days. Just to be allowed an erection. Without a belt it takes a few more days before I start climbing the walls.   However, being locked up is really not easy. I know that a lot of slaves and submissives are locked up 24/7 and for long periods of time. They may not have a choice, but I still think it is quite an impressive feat.   My main issue is sleeping with the belt on. After some time of denial I start having continuous 'wet dreams' at night, but with a device on they end by waking up with a painfully suppressed erection. The Curve allows me to get half-erect, but then I run out of space. This presses the head of my cock against the plastic, causes unpleasant skin friction on the side, and the ring around my balls is pulled forward, thus squeezing my testicles. And to make it worse, once my penis is filled with blood it isn't so easy to go from half-erect to soft again, even though I'm in pain. So it may take 10 minutes to calm down again, and then I'll fall asleep, only to wake up a bit later in the same painful situation. After a few nights I'm willing to do whatever it takes for some genital freedom...   Don't other male submissives have this problem? Do they manage to control themselves while sleeping? Or do the just suffer without complaining? Or would I get used to the belt if I had to wear it for longer times, like a couple of weeks? I think the longest I have been locked up now was still less than a week.   Maybe my tool would submit to the belt if just given no other option?   Would be 'interesting' to test it, but then I'd need the help of a somewhat sadistic Domme. In the past when locked up I have done all I could to please, and I have been given freedom again. For a proper test the key should probably be with someone who isn't too sensitive to a male submissives pleading. And if that test would be before I relocate next time it would likely have to be online. Perhaps using a 'ChronoVault' for the key management, though they are a bit expensive? And perhaps a webcam installed in my bedroom and linked to a webpage so you could following my nightly suffering? :-)