An Innate need to please and serve.

i was able to name this way of life by a mistake phone call in '91 (it's a long and rather odd story).   i was collared in a 24/7 TPE relationship for 4 years before completely walking away, dismissing it as a "phase" in my life.  It was in being away that i have my epiphany that i DO have an innate need to serve and please. Submissive is not WHAT i do...it's WHO i am.
What i am seeking: I hope to one day be led by a Dom (whom i can eventually call Master) would like to continue to help me live a lifestyle that i cannot deny myself any longer. i seek a long term relationship with a caring, Dom, Master, leader or Owner who will mold me into the slave He wants me to be...to share all areas of life...both the vanilla and Ds.  i wish to find someone who can help fulfill my desire and need to serve. I crave a man who NEEDS a deep emotional and mental connection with His slave--a man who's not afraid of wearing the pants in the relationship...One who knows just how much time and energy it takes to take complete control of another life.  A man who will listen to what i have to say ... take that into His account (really weighing my thoughts, feelings and well-being --  my spiritually, mental, physically and emotional) before making a decision about a situation and yet in the end He will make the that final decision and be Man enough be responsible for all that comes from it.  I understand that there might be times i will disagree with those decisions and be unhappy ... but if my trust with You has grown implicitly, then despite my disagreement, i will follow the directive . . . it's just who i am).       Perhaps the best way to express it is to say that I seek a DD & D/s core in a well-rounded relationship based on trust, love, affection and total power exchange.  i know what i have to offer...i will serve fiercely...but only to the right Man.
A bit more about this brown eyed auburn brown haired BBW from the eastern suburbs of Cleveland: Though I look forward to adopting the interests of the one who eventually will own me i currently like all kinds of music (everything from Bach to blues) i play cello, guitar and string bass, none well, although i enjoy them immensely, especially the cello. i like karaoke, coffee shops, antiquing, renaissance faires, traveling. i especially love the summertime: camping, boating, fishing and swimming...put me by the water and i find tranquility. 
i am  a very positive, upbeat, independent woman, have a great career, cherish the greatest gift of being a mom, and love to be a free spirit and enjoy whatever my free time has to offer.  i am currently active in the local scene and i have many friends and acquaintances.  However, with my apologies I do not wish to consider offers for sessioning or quick "hook-ups."  While I appreciate the compliment that these offers hold, I prefer to wait for the opportunity to serve the man who will own me for life one day.
Thank you to all that have taken the time to get to know me and allowed me to get to know H/him/H/her have taught me a lot about myself as a sub and as a woman.  Thank Y/you to those who have come into my life in whatever means Y/you may have.  However, having my friends it is NOT the same as serving in a 24/7 TPE.  Ultimately, i seek a real time, local, 24/7 monogamous TPE. And while i know it is difficult to find, i am determined He IS out here (some where).  Perhaps on this site?
i thank You for taking the time to read my profile and if you are interested please email me.