I have been going through exploration and self discovery for over 25 years and pursuing some sort of peace within myself. The big question isn't nearly as difficult as the answer and while I wish it were something easy (it's not 42), it remains ever elusive. I have reached a point in life where my ambitions are not purely sexual in nature and I am discontent with giving up 90% of myself in compromises to those who are self serving and choose to cherry pick conveniences and unilateral benefits over growth and those who cannot or will not grasp the seed within the fruit.
It is about synergy, the duality of humanity, finding the counterweight to my own presence and to find felicity before the end of it all. I do not anticipate that it will be easy nor do I anticipate that it will be without pain and effort but still, I desire to grasp the light and be forged in the fires rather than burn away and let the flame flutter out.
What do I offer and what do I seek?
I am seeking counterparts who bring balance and vigor to the dynamic. If you are cash motivated I am disappointed to inform you that I have absolutely no interest in a whore. If you are an angry spiteful person, I will not be your vent. If you are a bully, I will hammer the nail flat. I am not a weak person in body or mind, I am not a vain person and I am not a shallow person. I don't have the patience, mind set, or time to pay lip service to the pretentious.
If you cannot respect yourself, it is quite likely that I will also be unable to respect you. Respect is earned rather than given and as such so is my submission. If you aren't able to invest in me and put out that degree of effort then it is all for naught and you should pass on by. I am not selfish nor are my actions completely altruistic, I seek to bring the same balance that I request of others. Vanity needn't come into play in regards to race, age, body type or any other petty insecurities. It is much less the appearance on the surface and more about the currents that run beneath.
I enjoy pleasing those who have earned my trust, respect, and adoration. I have a few chastity devices, including an Evotion Wearables, that secure with my frenum piercing as well as my Prince Albert. I love to watch flirtation all the way up to cuckolding and I truly don't desire to get off, I want to celebrate the joy and energy from a different angle than just getting laid. I've had some experience with a couple of men in the past in terms of a MFM threesome and a bit of giving oral. I can't say that I find men attractive persay but I find the thought of giving oral hot in it itself and I am extremely curious about "forced bi". I enjoy giving acts of service and affection and I am extremely eager to explore behavior modification, ritual, low protocol, and the objectification with someone who isn't reserved. I also have a huge thing for humiliation and degradation but have never had the joy of receiving them in earnest or in public with any real intent to do anything other than goof around. One of my biggest irritations is when someone wastes my time or acts disingenuous about things we've discussed. Open, honest, direct communication is key and anything else is an insult.
I am open to indulging myself and others on occasion to add a bit of flair and joy to life. Impulsive in a casual sense is the same as adventure for me, not all things must be calculated to ad nauseam. I can have an orgasm alone in a dark room, let's discuss something a bit more enticing if you seek a less committed rendezvous. To those who seek a moment of bliss you will find that my submission is tamed and I am open to switching and I have quite the skill set and experience for versatility and satisfaction.
The Analysis of My Psyche
Personality type: INTP
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
- 100% Degradee
- 92% Submissive
- 91% Masochist
- 86% Experimentalist
- 78% Slave
- 76% Rope bunny
- 66% Brat
- 64% Non-monogamist
- 60% Sadist
- 60% Degrader
- 57% Voyeur
- 56% Pet
- 51% Rigger
- 50% Exhibitionist
- 45% Primal (Hunter)
- 38% Brat tamer
- 35% Primal (Prey)
- 34% Switch
- 33% Dominant
- 26% Master/Mistress
- 21% Daddy/Mommy
- 18% Owner
- 11% Ageplayer
- 2% Vanilla
