i recently allowed myself to fully give in to my submissive nature.  It was frightening and liberating to be who i know i am.  i've always known that deep down, the most real part of me is submissive.  i've always believed, deep down, that Women are superior, and that my proper status is beneath them.  to get by in the world i've had to behave differently. 

i've also had a hard time reconciling a philosophical belief in equality of dignity and respect for all human beings, and this feeling within me that others are superior to me, and a personal need to be in my proper place relative to those of superior status.

i have, in the past, met and found some profound connections with dominant Women who have given me a sense of "rightness" even as They make me feel simultaneously weak, powerless and inferior, while at the same time accepted, and cherished for my submission.  finding Women so worthy of my submission makes my desire to submit stronger, and comfort in being who i am greater.   i've never been closer to feeling so right with my submission when with others who see me - to be, for lack of better terms "lovingly humiliated" and "lovingly dominated."

i'm still learning how to balance this with "real life" but i'm enjoying the journey.