Collarspace

New(ish) to Ohio. With a man who likes to share and supports my exploring different experiences and people. So having the ability (or better yet, the desire) to share is a must. I enjoy both men and women.

Ive been here for a very long time but finding someone who has truly really grabbed my sincere interest has been a rarity. In fact, it only happened once. I also prefer something that is tangible, and that tends to greatly limit the number of people who may possibly be good matches.

I am not naturally or effortlessly submissive. I struggle a great deal with handing over the reins. Im not sure if this is due to a lack of trust being well established, my being very out of my realm and therefore feeling insecure and unsure of myself and abilities as a result or what the core reason is. Its likely a mixture of many things. I do, however, very much admire those who are submissive and ownership, in some , has always been intriguing and something that I desired for myself.

As for where I fall on the BDSM or Kink spectrum, I would say its probably more on the vanilla end vs the extreme end. Though I believe a lot of the reasoning for that is not necessarily a lack of interest or even willingness, but moreso not having partners who provided an opportunity to take me places I had never been (figuratively) or to push me to explore things I hadnt or try things I didnt think I would enjoy just for the sake of exploring and pushing boundaries.

I think at this point in my search I have become a bit jaded. Despite that, I still love the idea of somehow, somewhere, in some way, crossing paths with the one who will make this long, grueling search all worth it. I think I require someone with a lot of patience, therefore, I have been very patient in finding him.

Someday.