8/23/2011 7:37:46 AM: I had an amazing weekend, plus.. not only was the company enjoyable and respectful but turned out to be a very good friend for life.. nothing like good people in your life.. I cant remember ever being treated with more respect or catered to in such a way.  Then the next thing that happened, impressed Me. I am in hopes things work out well in that direction. only time will tell... smiles..

8/2/2011 5:27:57 AM: someone had mentioned to Me they thought I had found the right one...  I wrote him and said I dont limit Myself to one or two sub/slaves. they/you all serve a differant purpuse.. One day, I hope to get that one that stands out above them all. I was in hopes to have that.. everything happens for a reason. I will say I am very glad I met him. I do wish for the best in the future and hope he finds what it is he is looking for.   other then that today is pretty uneventful. but that sometimes is a blessing. smies....

8/1/2011 7:07:54 AM: it appears My last entry didnt show up about not goin to tom's on sunday... oh well.. LOL thursday night at Tom's was amazing at the time. since that night things have changed tremendously... I'm not perfect, hard to believe I'm sure. LOL I have reevalluating the way I do things. Well to be honest, Mastakes compounded by Mastakes can snowball for sure. Some things are better thought thru, very difficult to explain. Yes this is all rather confusing because of the vague wording. I feel the need to write but not to much.  I have found even if I dont write all of what I am thinking it does help Me figure things out. It makes it rather difficult for others reading My journal I'm sure. LOL  Just on chance if he does come to read this, I felt and feel a special bond because of the friendship base we started with. that is what makes things more complicated.. A person cant truely be owned or had unless they want to give themself. If there is question in this, then it just isnt the right time. It has to be a natural feeling or it is just the chasing desire to fullfill fantasies. Not that there is anything wrong with that ofcoarse. so in closing.. good luck to you and I do hope to continue the friendship in the future... take care  closing now.. have a wonderful day all.....

7/30/2011 3:25:31 PM: I am headed to Tom's in Oxford, Maine with My new T-gf char.... Not only tonight, but tomorrow evening as well... with an addition of My 'slutpup'.... He is new and in training. evil grins... he is eager to learn My way... As I am eager for him to.. wink wink!!!

7/25/2011 11:16:17 AM:   First of all I want to say what an other amazing time I had Sunday morning after goin back over to the Hive. I have to say I have a little crush on My newest friend. Dont tell Mainefarmer though. his collared subby and I had a little fun caught in pics. she is one full flavored lady.. wink wink.. now that is a butt and half to flog for sure.. All I have to say to that sexy DJ is back that ass up baby..   Now not such happy news.. I had been prepairing to take a unnamed in as Mine. Unfortunately I allowed Myself to not look closely enough to the track record. If an alpha male tells you he has only met wantabee Dommes that dont move fast enough.. I shouldnt have been so vain to think I would be the one to allow him to let his guards down. First rule of thumb... new alphas with big dreams and short on patients.. not a good combo... The dont understand it is them with the trust issues. I do hope for some reason he reads this. If not I hope another might get something from this if you are just coming into this. Someone cant take you... You have to be willing trust enough to give to them yourself and allow it to grow from there... Ashamed but I do wish him well.  It is ovious he longs for something...   We all wear many hats. Only we know who we are, but often it takes a long hard look, many times to get even just a parshal picture...