9/21/2009 8:13:43 AM: hi, just thought i would right a quick blog about my holiday in spain. i got back on friday night and really enjoyed it, as was good to get away and clear my head or so i thought, but it proved very difficult with all the topless guys on the beach and omg i didnt even no that the ladies went topless on the beach hehe it felt weird being amongst them. anyway i enjoyed good sun and amazing food with plenty of drink, well not plenty of drink but more than enough for little me to be tipsy hehe and even managed to do some shopping in the beautiful shops they had although it meant sneaking off and hiding from the others anyway thats all for now feel free to message me and ask me any questions x

7/1/2009 11:18:07 PM: tough life for a sissy hello,a big hi to everyone,this is my first blog here so please have patience with me.well i have just got back in from another night out at trying to pretend im one of the guys,and to be honest its getting harder and harder to keep up the pretence that i share the same intrests as my friends,over the last year or so i think they may have started noticing things as they teasing and making fun of me seems to be more frequent,anyway i will still try and pull off that im one of the guys when im out with them,although this one guy that drinks in the pub that i do makes that near impossible,omg girls!!!!! you should see him hot!!!hot!!!!! hot!!!!! hehe cant wait to see him later today,as it will be sunday and he takes his motorbike out so he will be in hid leather trousers mmmmmm (goes all dreamy) when he comes back up the pub after.anyway a quetion to others when you are out and about carrying on with your everday life do you still have feminine thoughts and feminine feelings/desires loyal girl abbie x

7/1/2009 11:16:36 PM: sissy feelings hi well im hear today to describe how i feel and when i realised i was a sissy and how i felt about that ok well here goes and please forgive my bad spelling and puncuation i hope it doesnt ruin this to much in anyway ok well i guess i always knew i was different from a very young age from when the guys used to go out and play football or war games and climb trees i always felt it wasnt for me i used to hide away so i didnt have to get involved an used to sit there looking on with great jealousy at the girls playing there games and this has continued to this day from me not enjoying going out with the guys drinking and looking on with jealousy at the girls sitting together and seemingly have a really good time i mean omg i even get jealous when i see a girl out with her handbag or boyfriend its like yeah you so a bitch hehe does that make me bitchy oh well such is life through out life especially my teenage years i have exeprinced the usuall teasing and name calling which continues to this day you know what i mean calling me a sissy a big girl blouse a wimp etc which i of course pretend doesnt bother me and again try to fit in with the guys but as much as i try to supress these feelings i know they arent going to go away simple things like when you see a hot guy and feel that fluttering in your tummy and the excitement rush through your body and your sitting there with your friends telling yourself not to look but as much as you tell yourself its just like a hypnotic trance and you cant help it so just hope your friends dont notice or that you dont mess your panties which let me tell you is extremly hard if you have simon around or you see the guy in the bank im telling you girls wooooohoooooo hot hehe anyway i guess at somepoint there will come atime when everyone will work out just what a sissy i am as its not always easy for a sissy to concentrate and to keep up this pretence ok well a few of the things i love to do is shopping hehe well what girl doesnt i always get a sudden rush when i know tha i am off out for a day of shopping and to but myself something new makes me fel so good i love reading my girly mags and am always looking for ideas from the celebrities i also very much like looking through my boy pics when i am doing this i always feel at my sissiest i do try to fight doing this as i always have a sense of guilt at having sucum to my desire anyway this is all for now i will hopefully write more at a later ok well bye for now loyal girl abbie x