Disclaimer:  My profiles are novels and if I write when tired I'm prone to go off into tangents and not return to the original subject.  In other words, its long.  You may want to get a snack.

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I've spent some time off and haven't yet given up on the lifestyle- mostly due to giving up on vanilla dating ages ago :)  I'm not entirely sure what I'm looking for anymore.  I am open to a wide variety of arrangements from a harshly used slave to something more romantic but for the time being I am only looking for people to get to know as friends.

I am eventually interested in a long-term relationship.  Ideally something with a real connection with someone that I could love, but I'm also open to more casual D/s or master/slave.  The thing is I don't want to be "On" all the time. I want "normal" time too.

Don't waste my time with any online only nonsense.  As my profiles in the past have said, go play make-believe in Second Life and leave the big people alone.

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I don't exactly recall how this started, but it ended as a rather detailed free-write about my personality and beliefs.  I'm surprised it went so well.  I will include a kink free-write next time.

I am old fashioned.  I have my quirks.  I am, at not even thirty, set in my ways and have been called at times a cantankerous old man lol.  I am brutally honest and believe a man is only as good as his word; thus I will speak the truth even if painful.  My humor is dry and I am sarcastic.  I am a cynic "But you're too young to be a cynic" I was told once, to which I replied "you're never to young to become a cynic" I believe education without wisdom is not intelligence but foolishness and America's colleges are turning out educated fools by the thousands.  Taking things at face value leaves you short changed.  I love playing devil's advocate, especially against thoughts and ideals I agree with (the mind, like muscles, will atrophy if not exercised).  Many cannot see the forest through the trees, I more often cannot see the trees through the forest.  My pinkie fingers do not work properly which leads to excessive typo's on my part.  I value music and literature far more than any art in a museum.  I make no claims of sanity.  I don't believe you need to be rich to be happy- I don't believe you need to be poor to be destitute.  In all I reject the reality of society and substitute my own.  I laugh at people who use silly little tests in profiles that are easily googled (such as a song lyric or movie line).  I believe more than 67 percent of all statistics are made up on the spot and that this is a bad habit I need to break.  I never say anything for certain unless it is so.  If I'm willing to make a wager, you have already lost.  I like to know a little bit about anything, and thus can spend hours using wikipedia's random article function.  I believe actions speak and words wither in silence.  I never buy the hype, and take it as a sign to lower your expectations (be they films or elected officials or anything between).  I am growing my hair out to donate to children with cancer. I am beginning to tire of this free-write.  I am introspective.  I love analogies and use them often.  I wear black purely because I like the way it looks, and find it humorous when people try to read beyond that.  I feel listening is important, not so that you hear what others are saying, but to understand what they are thinking.  I believe everyone has a freedom of will, but must face the consequences of their choices.  I believe justice is greater and more paramount than law and that they too often disagree.  I believe the foulest creation spawned by the minds of men is bureaucracy.  I can't stand people who are unwilling to learn.  I make my own path in life and reject those who demand others follow them.  I feel too much time and energy is wasted on ego.  Speaking of time, I am out of it.

Yet another update: I suppose it may help if I at least mention what I find desirable in my ideal slave/lover/friend/pet/partner (or any multiple combination of those).  First though, a bit of explanation on my part.  There are many diverse traits I find desirable although I've found over the years many are also contradictory.  Years ago I learned a word that I found describes me quite well:  'Dichotomy', basically two seemingly contradictory traits existing together.   In relationships (both vanilla and kink) it became the traits that attracted me to a woman that eventually lead to me losing interest with a happy medium never being reached.  While I've considered multiple subs and poly, I have strong doubts about that.  Now is this when I explain what I'm looking for in the perfect sub/partner/slave/yadda yadda yadda?  No.  Fact of the matter is, I have no idea.  I once said I want a woman who is a mystery that when I stare into the abyss of her soul I see an ocean of untold expanse that if given a hundred lifetimes I could still not chart. At the same time I also want the woman who is the single drop of water in the palm of my hand.