1/8/2014 8:58:54 PM: The 10 Kink Commandments: (saw these on a friend's profile and I couldn't agree more!) 1. All activity must be safe (we do not cause true harm), sane (we only engage in activity when we are clear of mind), and consensual. 2. We must always be respectful of our partner’s safe word (red/yellow/green) and their hard limits. 3. We only enter into activities after we have gained trust, education, and an open mind. 4. We must always be polite and ask questions. 5. We must not touch other people's equipment without permission. 6. We must always be clean, hygienic, and mindful of our own equipment. 7. We must always be mindful of aftercare. 8. We do not engage in humiliating and degrading scenes for solely our own amusement. 9. We always protect each others anonymity from the harsh eyes of the vanilla world. 10. Most importantly, we do not forget to have a good time. (Feel free to repost these in your profile.

10/21/2013 11:41:26 AM: WHAT I 'NEED' AND WANT IS EXTREMELY RARE! THERE IS A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN A BOTTOM, SUBMISSIVE, PET, SLUT, AND SLAVE... S&M IS A TOOL, B&D IS A TOOL... BUT IT IS D&s THAT THE RELATIONSHIP IS FOUNDED UPON AND IS SO MEANINGFUL TO ME. 'SURRENDER': WHICH MEANS ZERO HESITATION, ZERO RESISTANCE, ZERO INTOLERANCE, ZERO CONFLICT... IT IS THE ULTIMATE EXPRESSION OF NOT ONLY 'LOVE' BUT 'FREEDOM' AS WELL! I SEEK THE 'SUBMISSIVE' AS A LIFE-MATE, OR AT LEAST ONE WHOM IS OPEN TO EXPLORING THAT AVENUE FULLY AND COMPLETELY, (THEN SHE CAN DECIDE)... I AM HAPPY TO PLAY WITH SUBS AND TO OWN PETS... BUT I WISH TO HAVE A SUBMISSIVE AS MY PRIMARY PARTNER AND THAT IS WHAT I AM ACTIVELY SEEKING. THIS IS NOT FOR EVERY SUBMISSIVE LIFESTYLER... I HAVE PREFERENCES THAT PRECLUDE MOST OF THE SOLICITORS WISHING TO BE TRAINED... SO I CONTINUE TO SEEK 'THE ONE' I WILL CALL MY OWN. SEE MY JOURNAL ENTRY FOR THE 'ONE' THAT A PERSON IS 'EXPERIENCED' IS NOT NECCESSARY...  I SEEK ONE WHO WISHES TO BE TRAINED TO PLEASE 'ME', NOT SOME FANTASY RULE-BOOK OR SOCIETY GUIDELINES INVENTED BY OTHERS TO PLEASE THEMSELVES. I HAVE MY OWN METHODS AND PREFERENCES AND REQUIRE LITTLE PRE-TRAINING ELSEWHERE!THE FIRST STEP IS LEARNING TO REALLY 'LISTEN'.  REALIZE THAT 'NO-ONE' IN THE WORLD CAN TRAIN YOU TO PLEASE ME LIKE 'I' CAN TRAIN YOU TO PLEASE ME!WHAT I AM SAYING DOES NOT MEAN I WANT AN UNINTELLIGENT DOORMAT OR A DAMAGED WEAKLING... ABSOLUTELY TO THE CONTRARY, I MOST GREATLY DESIRE A VERY STRONG WOMAN WITH HER OWN MIND, INTELLIGENT AND KNOWLEDGEABLE, WITH ENERGY AND STAMINA. I SEEK SOMEONE WHO REQUIRES A MINIMUM OF SUPERVISION AND POSSESSES A HIGH DEGREE OF INITIATIVE AND RESOURCEFULNESS YET REMAINS WELL DISCIPLINED TO MY TEACHINGS!  ONLY A CUP EMPTIED MAY BE FILLED WITH MY TEA SO TO SPEAK.  A QUICK STUDY IS NOT REQUIRED, JUST THE WILLINGNESS TO LEARN AND TO WORK HARD TO DEVELOPE HERSELF EVOLVING INTO WHAT PLEASES 'ME' THUS PLEASING HERSELF!  WHETHER SHE IS A TRUE MASOCHISTIC PAIN SLUT OR A LIGHT PLAYER MAKES NO MORE DIFFERENCE TO ME THAN THE SIZE OF HER BREASTS...I CAN BE VERY PROTECTIVE, COMPASSIONATE, AND A DOTING LOVER AND AT THE SAME TIME, WICKEDLY SADISTIC AND VERY IMAGINATIVELY CREATIVE IN MY TESTS AND PLAY. THE ONE/S FOR ME WILL LEARN QUICKLY THE FUTILITY OF CONFLICT OR BEING DIFFICULT IN ANY WAY... BEING A CUTE PLAYFULL BRAT HAS IT'S TIME AND PLACE, BUT CONFLICTING BEHAVIOR DETRACTS FROM MY GOAL AND IS DELT WITH STERNLY. THERE ARE ALTERNATIVE WAYS OF EXPRESSING INDIVIDUALITY OTHER THAN CONTROL DRAMAS AND PERSONALITY CONFLICTS.  I SEEK HARMONY AND SERENITY, AND AS MUCH ECSTATIC BLISS AS I CAN GET (NOT TO BE CONFUSED WITH SEXUAL CLIMAX - ALTHOUGH THAT IS WONDERFULL). I WANT TO KNOW HER DESIRES AND NEEDS AS WELL AND PROVIDE THEM TO HER AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE, AFTERALL, WHY SHOULD SHE ENTER INTO A RELATIONSHIP WHERE HER OWN NEEDS ARE NOT MET? A HEALTHY CURIOUSITY FOR THE UNEXPERIENCED IS AN AWEFULLY GOOD WAY FOR HER TO GET HERSELF INTO SOME TROUBLE, RIGHT? ;-)  I AM ALSO HERE TO PROVIDE EDUCATION AND MENTORING, TO SHARE WHAT I HAVE AND KNOW, TO HELP OTHERS HEAL AND BE HAPPY, TO WALK THE WAY OF RIGHT RELATIONSHIPS WITH ALL THAT IS SACRED, AND TO LOVE... I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO EXPECTATIONS! I WOULD NEVER TRY TO 'CHANGE' ANYONE... I AM NOT ABOUT SEDUCING OR USING, I AM NOT A VULTURE PREYING ON THE WEAK... I DO NOT CORRUPT. I 'FULLFILL'...    

12/7/2012 2:25:39 PM: Take a deep breath and then count slowly to ten as you exhale, an let your mind go blank and let everything in your world disappear. Then open your eyes to read the words that are on this page, telling you of a love that is yours by simply opening up your heart. When you do your soul will take flight, as your body relaxes to be at peace. In your mind now you will see love, an hear love, an know love, for the very man that has feelings for you wants you in this life. The very one that wrote you this, an he wants you in all the best ways, for you to feel everything in his heart and know this is true love. With this also, comes these passions and desires held, for you to express now how you feel and what matters most to you, to understand an need and want and love that is deeply caressed. A chance to explore all your hidden desires and fantasies, for you to serve and be apart of each other, knowing you have the man of your dreams.So now, let the real you come out and let the very one that you love, know how you feel and how in everything you are, is in his life always. Be open to the all the possibilities that love through this new life shows you, being one last breath and letting go, being the new you for all time.As I hold a chain in my hand and at the end of it swings a small pocket watch, an as you look at the timepiece swaying, back and forth and back and forth, moving to the left and then moving to right and then back to left once again, your eyes start to get tired and you slowly begin to close them as they are too heavy. You then take a deep breath as you then count slowly backwards, from ten to one, an as you exhale, you let your mind go blank and let everything else in your world disappear. You then open your eyes once again being relaxed, as you read the words that are on this very page and memorize them, opening up your heart, as you will travel back to a simpler time in life. A time, when all you wanted to do, was to please the one that you were with. Even now, all you wish for is that time back once more, where when you were most happiest, is knowing, you made someone happy. You set aside yourself for the love of another, in doing whatever necessary, to bring passion, love, needs, wants and deepest pleasure, not only to you, but the love you are with.So now, let the real you come out and let the very one that you love, be in control of your thoughts, of your body and of your mind and soul. It is your time, to let him know, what joy you bring to his life and that you want more, an to be that woman you want to be, in giving up yourself to his control.As you stare deeply into my brown eyes, you can see into my heart and soul. Your mind will be free and see that all my thoughts are what you desire. In closing your own eyes, you inhale and then exhale counting down from ten, to open your eyes and begin your new life, of what it was suppose to be and now will. You are eager to be what you always wanted too, but were too afraid to and timid. You give yourself freely without reservation, for you know its truly what you want. You will do what only I like, as you will eat what I do, an you will go to bed when I do. You will be sexually free and not chained by anything, but only by what is told. You will not wear clothes in the house at all period and will only wear what is given. You will always be happy in whatever you do, never being angry to anyone ever. You will be free to open everything you have and give it freely to the man you love. You will only be given any sexual release, when just a particular word is given and that is from your Master. You will want only him, as he is the best that life has given to you, to keep forever happy. You will do as your told and how your told and never to be told twice in your duties and chores.So now, as you have becomed owned as property and will serve as a lifetime slave, you know in yourself, that this is what is ment for you, to be apart of and live the life. You are here now to please both sexes in anyway shape or form, giving up your body and in all ways you have come full circle and realized what you are truly suppose to be. You have become entraced by a love. You have become a sexual slave.

10/14/2009 4:03:54 PM: I found this and had to post it..... Question is does this woman exsist? And if she does to what extent of what is written below? Feelings rise from within me, new, yet somehow familiar, frustration, sadness, depression, as parts of my ever-growing need to serve emerge and seem to overwhelm me. Each day it seems harder and harder to fight them back. i must or i might find myself willingly settling for what seems only available to me. It seems an almost endless wait for what is to be. A fear of what may never be lies beneath them all waiting to encircle me. It is hard to keep faith when the road before me seems so desolate and empty of anything remotely resembling all those dreams and desires, on this private journey i have begun. In my heart i know, beyond any doubt or question, that to just settle is a mortal sin against myself, i will not lend this fuel to the fires of failure to rise against any bond between two spirits. Instead, each day, my thoughts reflect my needs, my desires, my dreams and hopes from within the realm of this life and the spirit i have freed to discover them. Sometimes i wonder what i might gain and what i will receive from such total and absolute submission to One. Words pale compared to who i am and what my submission is about. It is not so much a matter of `what i will get`, as it is a sense of what i know i need. It is quite simply who i truly am. i, in no, way wish to generalize my needs. They are as unique to me alone as the experiences of my life. In the end it would merely all lead back to the center of what completes me as a submissive. Thoughts of Master surge through my mind. Not any Master. MY Master. Whose ideals, wants, desires, needs, and emotions, mate with mine in such perfect harmony that one would be hard pressed to detect when His footsteps end and mine begin. What would my submission to such a Master bring to my life? It is a world where each day, he shows me by actions and words, the fact that my faith, trust, and respect in Him, was not only inevitable, but also justly given, felt and cherished. Within His ownership of me, i would receive His strength, His honesty, and His firm, strict ruling, as well as, His compassion, His love, His affection. i would receive a Master who will be patient as i am learning, encouraging as i am stumbling, guiding as i follow the path of his pleasure. Within my submission to His ownership of me, what do i hope to gain? i hope to gain a Master with the true essence of one who is in control of Himself totally, thus able to control me with a fairness and compassion that is unique. Rare and comforting, allowing me to be as i am, yet growing better, to be who He wants me to be. His pleasure grows from teaching me, leading me, and guiding me to the fulfillment of knowledge of how to truly and totally serve Him. His needs, His wants, His pleasures would become my purpose in His life. i would gain a best friend, protector, a disciplinarian when needed, to set me back on track, should i stumble. i would gain a sense of purpose, a sense of reasoning to my inner feelings and desires. He would instill in me, a sense of pride, not merely self-pride, but rather, a pride joined together in who He is and who i am, as His property. i would gain a calming of the soul, and a removal of my inhibitions. i would gain a completion to who i am, still dynamic, changing, learning, growing and always moving forward. My submission is not a means to an end to revel in my own gains, but rather the essence of who i am and will be, given with great value to Him. My submission is not a gift to Him, but rather the piece that fits within His Dominance to complete each other. The one who will own me will receive my complete submission. My trust and trustworthiness, my respect and my pride in who He is and my belonging to Him. He would receive my hopes, my fears, my needs, and my fantasies for Him to use, to cast away, and to feed upon, for His enjoyment, His pleasure, His desires. He will receive a servant content to live a daily existence of tending to His pleasure. A slut who would be open, vulnerable, wet, and ready at all times for His use. He would receive my humility, my self-pride, my love, devotion, loyalty, my flesh, my mind, and my soul. The essence of who i am, totally joined to His own. To Him, i would give of myself so completely that there would be no part of my flesh, my mind, and my soul that has not been touched and used by Him. He would receive all my secrets, all my mistakes, and all my achievements, all of myself and who i am. He would receive the first breath i breathe when waking and the last sigh i breathe as i fall asleep, everything in between, everything conscience, and everything unconscious. i would live safely, in a world of His pleasures, immersed in total contentment and love.Question still remains.....does this woman exsist for me? 

7/13/2009 12:34:18 PM: “My goal is to enslave a woman not make a slave out of her. There is a distinct line between the two.”    Internal slavery is the development over time of an attachment to one’s owner, who has a hold over the slave and is able to control her so that she obeys not by choice, but by His will.  Meaning one who is truly enslaved does not choose  to obey, but has internalized her owner’s will to the point that she is compelled to do as he wishes.  Neither does she necessarily even choose to be mastered.  Indeed she may even fight it, but she will still be mastered.  People often say if it’s not consensual than you must be doing something illegal.  I think they think one must be bound in chains to be a slave without having consented to it.  But the truth is that people can be enslaved without wanting to be.  It happens as a reaction to the Master and can no more be controlled than other feelings that are a reaction to a person, such as falling in love.   She becomes His and cannot leave.  His hold on her is such, that even though the door is there, it is not a door she could bring herself to use.  At the point at which she can, it would be that He had lost His hold and mastery over her, for if He had not, she would not go.  So to be enslaved, is to be unable to leave.  If she can leave, she has already become unenslaved at that point.  I liken it to someone like an Orthodox Jew, who follows all sorts of religious rules.  Just because he has the option to say 'to heck with this I'm eating bacon'  any time he wants, doesn’t mean he will as it would mean turning his back on all his beliefs, culture, and everything he holds dear.  To say that a slave can walk out on slavery, is saying she can throw out all her ideals and her very identity.  To someone who is not enslaved in the manner I am talking about, but has chosen it, that might be easier, but to someone who is internally enslaved it is not.