Recently lost my Domboyfriend, love of my life. We met on this website just shy of 3 years ago. He absolutely refused to be called Daddy, but he was a Daddy Dom none the less. At this point even holding a conversation is a struggle... breathing is as well. Obviously I am a mess and would value any insight dealing with my current situation. In many ways this feels like a betrayal, but there is an element of catharsis as well. Not looking for romance, heart is shattered, and it will be a while before anything physical is appealing. The only certainty is that life is too short, and can be gone in a blink.
Please, if you are just looking for someone to use or jerk around... leave me alone.
10162020 addendum Important note Earlier this year I was diagnosed with CLL, Chronic Lymphocytic Leukemia. Am guessing I have 5-10 years, tops. I would like to fill my remaining time with affection and joy, as there can never be too much of those, and my life has lacked them in great quantities.