4/16/2024 9:22:53 AM: I get an email every day to let me know what free book titles are available. Usually the books aren't great, but I signed up as Princess (insert first name). Guaranteed smile every day.  How is it only Tuesday? It feels like a handful of Mondays. 

4/14/2024 6:59:49 PM: I've been thinking a lot lately about the American Dream. Growing up, I wanted what I assume most middle class people wanted. It never occured to me that there was something else to want. You get married. You buy a nice house with a garage and a dog, have a few kids, keep your yard neat, and work 9 to 5 basically forever.  It's not what I want these days. I love my house, but I don't need it like I used to. All of the things are suddenly just things. Well yes, okay, I have intense feelings for some of my clothes. Mostly though, I think I could take my dog and drive away. Shouldn't I want this more? Want more more?  I'm at a crossroads in my career, in that I don't want to be doing this anymore, but I don't know what it is I want to be doing. I am not independently wealthy and I never did nab that husband, so a job it is. I would like to work remotely so I can hang out with my dog, or work somewhere she is welcome. I'm not sure what's out there and what will pay the bills. Part of me wants to sell everything and move somewhere to lead a less compicated life. I'm not sure I'm at the point where that would be enough. Then again, I weeded and put down mulch the other day. Who is this person? 

4/11/2024 5:57:57 PM: My Facebook feed is full of eyelash extension videos. I don't wear eyelash extensions, I don't search for them, I don't talk about them. Have you seen a video? Some sort of rubber is put over your eyelid and then your lashes are unnaturally pulled up and stuck on this thing. That's as far as I've made it through the video. It creeps me the fuck out. 

3/25/2024 1:05:27 PM: I just realized that I am giving my dog all of the things I want... Unlimited hugs, kisses, snuggles. Tell her she's a good girl. Speak softly and sweetly. Calm her nerves. Provide attention. Teach her. Offer comfort and stability. Try to maintain her schedule. Put effort into making a better life for her. Holy fucking schniekies. 

3/25/2024 1:04:48 PM: I didn't know there was such a thing as a praise kink until maybe a year ago. I just knew that there are certain words and phrases that I want to hear more than just about anything. I wasn't hearing about it or seeing it anywhere. I felt it. What I see all the time are words like slut, whore, and bitch. Very much a your kink is not my kink and that's okay situation. If I'm honest, it repulses me to be called a whore in any capacity. A good little whore? No, thank you. But that's all I would see, besides the occasional good girl. Granted, I'm no Magellan, but I read. That simple good girl has been the carrot dangling for so damn long.  There's a very specific empty spot in my brain reserved for something wonderful that opens with good girl. I didn't even know there was more. I'd walk through fire for that.