So a quick update in my journey of self-discovery. I had a pretty big realization last night. Entering this lifestyle is really about finding myself and then finding ways to define or describe who we are so that we can communicate our truth succinctly and in ways that others understand.
I'm not willing to be "on" as a sub all the time. I'm a nice guy that enjoys intimacy in all flavors.
Maybe I'm simply reacting to some of the hardcore people I've met who expect total obedience from minute 1, day 1. Perhaps, with trust and time, I could become a slave or a true submissive to someone that earns it.
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