Collarspace

controlling Sadist

sadistic Control Freak

Thats me in a nutshell. You can go now.

If youre still here, Im really just a normal guy. If youve been looking for wanky text you can really fuck off now.

If youre still here and you dont find the above mutually exclusive, you may stick around. For a bit.

The above actually can go hand-in-hand. So heres me. The real unadulterated me. For what its worth.

If I had to summarise myself in one sentence it would be this

Control is my World

In order to feel comfortable, in my comfort zone, I need to be in control of my surroundings, especially the female surrounding me.

In order to be sexually aroused, I need to experience the reflection of pain andor humiliation of a woman under my control.

Those are by far the two most prominent aspects of my character.

Aside from that, Im quite normal.

My history is a bit less normal though. Now if youre still here, for reasons I cant fathom, I guess I can open up a little.

Are you familiar with the Chinese curse may you live in interesting times ? Well, sometime in my past I really must have pissed off one of them for my life has been a real roller coaster from caviar and truffles to a real shit sandwich.

Im still somewhat in the shit sandwich stage, but its turning around. Hence me being here and trying to get back on the proverbial horse so to speak. Or rather, on top of a submissive masochistic woman.

I am not going into the sordid details of my sordid past, they are not exactly relevant and they attract the wrong sorts of people.

But there is a fantastic amount of sordidness which actually is completely and directly relevant.

Which I will write about in this journal diary thing at some point.

Since this is the main page of my profile, naturally Ill need to put in what Im looking for.

A female who needs a lot of attention.

A female who needs to be imposed on.

A female who needs to do things for someone else.

A female who needs to be kept tabs on.

A female who needs someone to make decisions for her.

A female who needs her sexuality to be controlled.

A female who will suffer for someone elses pleasure.

in essence

A female submissive masochist.

A female masochistic submissive.

If thats you I bet you can barely hardly contain yourself with excitement.

If thats you, get in touch.

If thats not you yet, get in touch.

If thats not you and will never be you, good bye.

Ill expand on this as time goes on. I am planning on writing some pieces on my BDSM journey here in the UK, my perspectives on various subject matters related to BDSM and Ill put on some biographical entries of previous partners, play, powerexchange or otherwise.

Pictures will either be taken by me or of me. Protagonists will be red out.

Picture 1 is me wearing a t-shirt.

Picture 2 is me wearing a t-shirt (gift by a kinky friend)

Picture 3 is me wearing a t-shirt (first profile pic here)

The autogenerated thumbnails are pretty disappointing.

Im in the process of collating some of the many pervy pictures Ive taken in the last decade to set myself apart. For now Id only share some individually to discrete individuals.

Some thoughts which make their way into journal entries eventually.

Why do I include dominant women, submissive couples,submissive trans in the list? Because I can see myself part of a kinky household as long as my control and sadism needs are being met. Have to say though, my sexual sadism isnt triggered if the person isnt female enough. Just the way it is.

Why dont I have any pictures if I have experience? I do have them but I dont have a licence for Photoshop which is what Im comfortable with and I need to find a decent editing suite which is free, has layers, transparency and has some distortion effects.

How long have I been controlling?

I have had a desire to exert influence over others my entire life and often found myself frustrated. An emotionally upheaving event 15 years or so ago pushed that to excessive proportions which ultimately doomed any more normal relationship and started my journey into BDSM power exchanges.

How long have I been a sadist?

I didnt torture animals growing up if thats the question. I might always have had a mean streak, but it was always kept tightly under wraps until the aforementioned event. Subsequent experimentation with consenting females eventually revealed to me the full extent of my sadism, which is still consensual and doesnt leave permanent damages.

Why are you on Collarspace?

Ill be here only as long until i found the right property. Ive been on here before with varying degrees of success. While there are many people here who only think with their genitals, theres also less need for the introductory vanilla song and dance which you have at munches and kinky socials.

I am alright with chatting here initially, but prefer to move on to Skype, YIM, Kik, phone and the like as soon as. Im not interested in text-based wank games, they can be for some, but Ive outgrown that stage 25 years ago. I want to talk to real people about real topics.

Oh one more thing. I want someone who will delete or hide their profile and give me their undivided attention. Naturally Id do the same.