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MY SLAVES POST Ive never been an owned slave, nor have I ever wanted to be. Ive been submissive my entire life and I was content with that. I always retained some independence and it was a nice balance. Then came Sir. His quiet and polite demeanor intrigued me. His intelligence attracted me. His sense of humor pulled me right in. His drive and determination to carefully circumvent my walls brought him closer than I ever imagined. I found myself with an intense need to be his . There was a strong yearning to please him and obey his every command. It has only gotten stronger. For the first time in my life I wanted to belong to him, completely. I wanted him to know every single part of me. I wanted him to get inside my mind and see who I am. I wanted to be completely open to him and give him access to all of who I am. He didnt disappoint in that regard. He delved in with his deliberate and measured control. At the beginning I expressed self-doubt. It may have been the inability to do something or a fear that I wouldnt do it to his standards. He firmly told me I will never let you fail. It may have been a simple statement to him. Perhaps it was a natural response for him because hes accustomed to making sure his requests are met. . .but to me it was everything. It became a mantra in my head. Any time I attempted to do something that I thought impossible or too difficult I remembered his words and his voice telling me that hell never let me fail and they push me and comfort me and remind me that if he says I can do it and he believes I can do it then I absolutely can. Ive learned to quiet my inner self and listen to him instead. To me, thats what ownership is about. Never in my life have I quieted myself to listen to another. Ive always prided myself on my instincts and intuition. I have always trusted them and listened to them. With him, I can turn them down and focus on him and his words. I know he will never put me in harms way and I trust that he is always working to make me a better and stronger person. Hes molding me to be the perfect slave for him and I am grateful for his diligence in doing so. I love every part of him and crave his control and power always. He has asked difficult things of me. He has asked me to do things that he knows I have had trouble with in the past or refused to do at one time. He does this to help me realize the strength I have inside and to grow it. He is immensely proud of me when I accomplish a task that I once thought impossible. His pride in me makes me giddy and very proud of myself. He has found ways to tell me and show me daily how happy I make him, how proud he is of me and how much he appreciates me and my service to him. I have never felt so safe, protected, loved, needed, beautiful, sexy or completely owned as I do with him. I feel utterly powerless with him and its amazing that I love the feeling. I crave it. I need it. His control over my mind and body has become essential to me. He is the definition of a Master. The definition I have always held as the standard. I refused to ever completely give myself to anybody unless they possessed every single quality I find to be a requirement. I knew it was improbable that he even existed so I was justified in never giving up all of my power. He came into my life unobtrusively and took his time learning how to most effectively earn my trust while showing me that trusting him would result in a freedom Ive never known. He knew I would be his long before I did. My Master loves me and cares for me. He pushes me and protects me and values me. He cherishes me and makes me understand how very special and wonderful I am every single day. In everything we do I have never doubted that he is grateful for my submission and my willingness to follow him without question. I have never doubted his devotion to leading me. He takes his role as my owner and Master very seriously and I know without a doubt that I will flourish daily under his guidance and strength. He told me once that he would never let me fail and he has proven that time and again. He is the Master I have been seeking for the past 18 years and I will spend each day making sure he knows how grateful I am for his Dominance, guidance and teaching, but mostly for his need for me and his love acceptance of every part of me.