When I created this account I wasn't sure exactly what to write and I'm still not. But I guess I should update this so I'll include some of the things I'm frequently asked about. I'll include more in the journal area. A big thing is experience. No, I've never done this full time before. I've only done some scenes. So the longest I've ever been a slave to someone was a weekend. I guess it was more what people would call play. I did get to try bondage with some different things, they used a lot of different toys for both pain and pleasure. Another big one is what am I looking for. I'm not sure. I'm still trying to figure this out and now to say it right. I do know I want something long term and more than just casual. I've always had fantasies where I'm held captive or prisoner and have things done to me. While it can be so many different things, the biggest thing in common is that I can't get away. Am I really bi? I know it sounds stupid but it might depend on your definition. Am I attracted to guys? Not really. I don't feel the same towards men as I do women. Will I submit to and have sex with a man? Yes. So guys have been upset with me that I checked that I was bi when I wouldn't be sexually attracted to them, but I've played with men before and when I made this profile, whole first checked straight, I wanted it known I'd be open to men too. Why did I pick that screen name? Because that's how I feel about my life. I've never really succeeded at anything. It didn't matter if it was sports, school or relationships. I never really had the drive to do those things. Mostly it was my parents who pushed me to do those things, like college. I dropped out at the start of my third year, my parents found out about my kinky stuff and don't want anything to do with me, and now I'm working in a factory and living in a crappy apartment. I've just failed at life.