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HauntedMelody
| Hetero Female, 50, Goshen, Indiana
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Goshen Indiana 5' 0"
295 lbs
50
Hetero
Caucasian
11/14/23 |
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I know most people see this as a place for a quick hookup, but thats not what Im looking for. Please pass me by if thats what youre looking for.
I am widowed, with my husband having passed in November, 2015. Id like to find a patient, Christian, Domly sort who is interested in developing a loving relationship with a large woman first, and eventually add in some Ds. Must like children, as I am a single parent.
Please feel free to message me. Although I am happy to talk, I rarely initiate conversation. I assume if you pass me by there was something in my profile that didnt suit you.
Best wishes in finding that right person for you!
melody
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3/21/2016 10:55:04 PM: I've been looking at myself, at what and who I am, about what I'm seeking, and I've reached a few conclusions. One is that it scares me to be submissive, and I need to do some personal work to be willing to let that out again. One measure I've taken is to start writing journals on a regular basis. These journals are more personal right now than what I'm feeling I can post on here and put out for the world to see. That doesn't mean I wouldn't be willing to let the right person read them, however. Another conclusion that I've reached is that I'm really looking for a Christian guy. I'm anxious about putting this out there, as I have a lot of friends that are not, and I don't want to imply anything negative in that regard. I just think that since I'm really looking for a lifetime relationship, this is something that really matters to me.
3/11/2016 7:52:40 PM: AchingMy soul is empty and broken
Filled with loss and longing
My body screams for his touch
Instead, I am alone
My emptiness feels immeasurable
My soul, hot to the touch
Aching for coolness
My tears are endless
The fount of them leaving room for nothing else
My heart is nailed to the floor of my chest
Weighted by an anvil
The air, sucked from my longs through my stomach
I hold myself, but find no comfort
Rocking myself, I find no relief
My faith has been decimated
The remains sticky and irritating
A cob web that has been walked through
Clinging for substance
Yielding only futility
Emptiness.
Meaninglessness.
Futility.
These are now my life.
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