2/20/2018 1:00:26 PM: It had been a little over 3 years since i last had an orgasm. Things were going pretty good now. There were some rough times at the beginning, but we got through them and my worship of my Goddess had never been more focused. After a few years had gone by i had learned to channel my frustration and use that energy in service to Her. i was more focused on my chores and duties. i was less needy and more attentive to Her needs and wants and feelings. i was happy. She was happy. Things were going pretty good, until i made a big mistake.... i don't know why, just lately the frustration had started to get the better of me. My penis was constantly straining against the chastity tube, sometimes painfully so. Every time i saw or even thought of my Goddess i swelled against the cage. i would leak streams of pre-cum. i had gotten used to the dripping before and had even gone as far as wearing a sanitary napkin to keep from making a mess, but this time it was different, it was constant - whether she was there or not, whether i was trying to get hard or not. The horniness was always there and i dripped. i thought of Goddess constantly. i don't know why it had come back like this, but it had come back with a vengeance. i tried to refocus and for a while i did. i was well behaved, obedient, and did all my chores without complaint. In fact it showed me that i had not been trying hard enough and should have been serving Her better. i was more attentive and supportive. Again it was going good, and i so wanted to leave it alone but like the worst kind of itch it was constantly there. At times i would drift off mentally and feel like i was right on the edge of cumming, like right on the edge, but then like a hammer reality would come crashing down and i'd find myself straining against the cage, another drop of pre-cum dripping out. One night, we were lying together in Her bed. It was just an average night. i was spooning her while she relaxed after my nightly duties (and privilege) between Her beautiful legs. i had spent the better part of the last hour participating in and witnessing the most amazing orgasms. Real orgasms. Not to brag, but i had learned Her so well. i mean, don't get me wrong i still have soo much to learn, but compared to just a few years ago... i digress. Anyway, She was coming down now, Her breathing more even and She noticed my chastity tube was pressing really hard against Her. She smiled at me as She wiped of a little pre-cum off Her leg. 'What's gotten into you?' She asked. i explained to Her how i'd been feeling lately and She smiled and nodded as i told her how frustrating it had gotten. i told Her that i had noticed and appreciated my own improved behavior and She nodded at that as well. That's when i made a mistake i will not forget. i swallowed hard and i begged Her 'Please. Please my Goddess. my Everything. i'm so horny. May i please have one, just one orgasm. i wouldn't ever ask, but please, i just need one.' Her expression changed immediately, at first it was confusion. 'You just had three of them,' She said and smiled as squeezed her legs together a little to the memory. 'i meant a male orgasm Goddess, one of mine,' i said looking down at Her feet. Her expression changed drastically, the smile completely gone replaced by a combination of incredulity and pure anger. 'I can't believe you would ask me that! After all this time!' i immediately regretted it. i wanted to take it back. What was i thinking?. 'I thought we were done with those. I thought we had weaned you off years ago. I thought we had matured to the point were you were finally focused 100% on Me but now i see that you are still just thinking of your next squirt.' She was furious. i promised her that it wasn't like that. That i was focused only on Her. That this had just been a thing and that i didn't mean it. She didn't believe me and why would She? i had let her down. She kicked me out of Her room and i went to the cot in the laundry room to sleep that night. The next day Goddess wouldn't let me near Her all morning. She wouldn't let me go down on Her. After drawing Her bath She didn't let me scrub Her back or shampoo Her hair. i just stood in silence. i was not allowed to have breakfast and after clearing the table She told me to get in the car and that we were going to Her Mother's house. i was confused at that point but dared not make a single comment. Her Mother holds the keys to my chastity. After last night, why would we need to go there? I guess Goddess had spoken to my Mother-in-law the night before because She was expecting us. She had the sternest looking face i had ever seen. Once in the house i was told to strip, which i did immediately. i was confused and nervous at the same time. Goddess cuffed my hands behind my back and tied them to the hall closet door knob. While my Mother-in-law unlocked and removed my chastity, Goddess went into another room and came back with a wooden spoon. Out of my chastity for the first time in a long time i started to get hard which was immediately met with scorn by both Women. 'Get that thing down!' Goddess said as she hit my penis 3 times hard with the spoon. i flinched and pulled back from the pain. 'Hold your penis out.' She said. i did and immediately received another stroke. 'I can't believe you, ' She said. 'We're going to put an end to this RIGHT NOW!' She hit my penis several more times. i pulled away again and as soon as i did Her Mother swatted my ass with a crop - 'Hold your penis out She said.' i held out my penis and started crying. At this point i was as soft as i'd ever been and Goddess just grabbed my penis by the base and proceeded to just hit me with the spoon. 'i'm so disappointed with you.' She said and i could tell She meant it. i started to apologize. 'It will never happen again,' i promised and i was serious. 'What will never happen again?!' She said. 'i will never ever ever have another male orgasm and i will never bring it up again.' 'i'm done Goddess, never again.' i cried. She was so disappointed in me. She continued to punish me with several really hard hits until She finally started to calm down. 'i want to believe you,' She said. i promised and i knew from the bottom of my being that it would never happen again, it would be out of our lives forever. 'i will not cum. EVER AGAIN.' i cried. 'HOLD YOUR PENIS OUT,' said my Mother-in-law as She swapped me hard, this time my balls which were completely unprotected at this point. Goddess hit me again with the spoon - 'Repeat.' 'i will not cum, EVER AGAIN!' She hit me again - 'Repeat.' 'i will not cum, EVER AGAIN.' Again She hit me, hard - 'Repeat.' 'i WILL NOT CUM, EVER AGAIN.' Finally, She put the spoon down. She looked at me. 'i hope this will be the last of this.' 'It is Goddess i swear. i was so wrong. i will never, ever cum or request or even hint about cumming, ever again. i promise you Goddess i am 100% in every way focused on you now. That's all i want. Your happiness is all that matters to me.' i said and i meant it. i was not cumming again. i accept that now. She gently applied some ointment to my very bruised, welted and in some places even cut penis. It was soothing and Her touch was electric and i immediately sensed the twitch of an erection. i hurt so bad though that i was able to hold it back as She put my chastity back on and locked it securely in place. 'Go ahead and get dressed and lets put this behind us and head back home,' She said. It was then that i looked up and saw my Mother-in-law with a very smug look on Her face. i saw something else too, or rather someone. My Goddess' Sister was there, just sitting on the couch. i don't know when She got there or how much She saw. She looked at me and Her mouth turned into a little smile and i immediately turned my head down in shame as i pulled my pants up very gently over my bruised 'manhood.' Goddess handed her Mother the key to my chastity and told me to get in the car. She stayed behind to talk to Her Mother and Sister for a while, out of my listening range. Finally She came out to the car and we drove home without a word. When we got home that night it was late. i told Her again how sorry and ashamed i was and asked if i was still allowed to worship Her that night. i told Her that it was really over. That phase of my life was done. i live for Her and i meant it. She did let me worship her that night and after we again snuggled up to sleep in our usual spooning position, my cage snuggled tightly against her butt. Despite the punishment i had just received i got hard against my cage. This was my normal. i meant every word i said. As i drifted off to sleep i felt a deep gratitude for the privilege of serving my Goddess and let it sink in - that little ruined orgasm ,now over 3 years ago, really was my last cum ever. Period. 'i will not cum, ever again.' 'i WILL NOT CUM, EVER AGAIN.' And i won't.

3/8/2015 8:56:25 PM: i'm not a pushover or a sissy. i'm a manly enough man and don't necessarily need to be told everything i need to be doing and can be a good and productive mate or husband for Her, but i still need Female authority. When She says 'this is what we're ordering for dinner' or 'this is what you'll wear tonight' Her decisions are Her decisions and must be followed. When She says 'your outing with your friends is cancelled because I want you to _fill in the blank_ instead' then the outing is cancelled, period, end of story. When She says 'down on the floor' then i get down immediately regardless of where we are or who is there. When She says to do something, i do it no questions.  We might talk about it later, but right then i obey without question, immediately, period, again regardless of where we are or who is there.  When She says 'No' the answer is NO. Her decisions are final, no further discussions.She must be obeyed or i will be punished - and punishment doesn't always mean brandishing a whip. Yes punishment can be corporal but it can take other forms such as corner-time or revoked privileges, or losing the opportunity for this year's release, etc. Don't underestimate the power of these types of punishments. They can be very effective on a man, especially if you have to reprimand him in front of others, but Her authority is paramount and She should do anything that makes sure She is obeyed and that our lives are lived on HER terms.

3/8/2015 8:55:55 PM: The beginning of a Female Led Relationship:http://www.imagefap.com/pictures/4783570/The-Beginning-of-a-Femdom-Relationshipi loved this. It's a bit of erotica, yes, but She has the right idea.