Happy 4th everyone!

Its very strange why someone would want to friend me and never send me an email saying hi... got to wonder about that.

I don't know why this site doesn't update age , seems the others I belong to do...

Life and its changes.... so many it seems lately, not bad entirely, not good entirely, just evolving... tho one change has kept me from being online a lot, I've been ill but am getting better, so if you don't see me in the chat room or on here , that is why.

Life is evolving, things are changing, and that is not a bad thing. Just new territory I haven't traveled before but I am gaining ground and hope to be a better and happier person for the journey.

Life is full of surprises , just when I think things are just going wrong I find a sweet light at the end of an otherwise dark dismal hole.... Those of you that know me , know that I am too trusting and have much to big a heart and its very tender, taken in by the wolf in Dom's clothing as it were... Needless to say I let my heart race ahead of my head and good sense and got hurt. It happens, I'm all to human in that regard, but time heals wounds as they say and I find that is very true, so the sun is shining again and I have a sweet smile gracing my lips again remembering last night... As things progress I will add more... perhaps...

Happy Valentine's Day!

Well I tried to fix the age thing again, hopefully it sticks this time. I don't often look at my own profile so didn't know it didn't update the age as we have those pesky little birthdays.... so if there are any questions I am 42 and not 38, thanks to that friend that let me know I was showing at that younger age...

Happy New Year

A treat for my friends....

 I wake to the gentle sound of water lapping against the rough planks near me, my face pressed to the wood, the smell of the salt and tar, startling me as I try to move. My limbs held behind me, tightly bound and my ankles as well, held firmly crossed and lashed together. My mouth dry and silenced by the thick wad of cloth held tightly in place. Something covers my eyes tightly tied in place, I am blind unable to see, the wood around me creaks and moans as the waves crash against them, shifting me slightly as the wood under me rolls with the motion of the waves. I dont know how I came to be here, the sounds from far off drift down to me and I hear men and shouting, then the clashing of steel..........



   Hearing the thunder of running feet above me, feeling the fear rising in me as I lay helpless in the hold of the ship. Men shouting , then the earspliting cannons firing and the splintering of wood and flesh, screams and moaning drift down to me . Struggling to rise , my skirts riding up as I struggle, the rope pulling painfully at my wrists as I realise I am teathered to something and unable to move much. I lay back and listen to the fury of the fighting above me, fearing what is to come, is it and enemy ship or one come to resque me? The thoughts of salvation are dashed as I hear the hold open , a whimpering body is thrown to the floor near me, then more are placed in the hold with me. Squirming and bound women, just as helpless as I am, what is to become of us .........the fear is spreading and the others whimper and struggle near me. Soon they will find they are helpless and the realization of the utter hopelessness of our situation will settle in their terrified minds ........... as it has mine. My heart sinks and I realise no one is coming to save us, no one knows where we all are . The ship is sure to leave no survivers, they had sunk the ship I had been on , keeping only the few women they had found on board and a few men they had locked in the lower ships hold , seperated from the women. They wore chains and were locked it the cells on the lower hold, but the women were placed higher and just bound with rope which is sufficient to hold us. I moaned and struggled futily against the bonds holding me. Fearing the approaching footsteps, landing heavily as they neared us..........



   Cringing back as I hear the footsteps stopping before me, the creak of leather and I hear the sound of metal scrapping as I am roughly grabbed and rolled to my side, the cold steel touches my arm, near the wrists, cutting me free of the tether holding me in place.  A rough voice ,deep and seductive, whispers to me" now why the hell are you down here in the hold",chuckling he pulls me to him and lifts me in strong arms. I struggle frightened of the arms locked like steel about me, unable to move or escape. I whimper , pulling away. He laughs , the sound husky and deep near my face, feeling his warm breath on me. My mind reels, thinking it would be horrid but he smells of the sea, and the I am carried up out of the hold, hearing the sounds drifting to me , muffled under the heavy cloth wrapped around my  eyes and tied tighly behind my head. Each step , his hard body presses against mine, I whimper softly. Then I feel my feet brush the doorway and He carries me into a cabin, placing me on my feet, sliding my body down his hard one, pressing me close to him. Then hands in my hair and I feel the cloth moving as he unties it, pulling it from me . The light blinds me and I blink trying to adjust to the sudden light, having been in darkness for the time in the hold. My eyes look up into the face of my captor, his raven black hair, curling and then falling rakishly across his brow, cruel chisled features in a darkly tanned face . The eyes so dark blue to seem unreal, looking down at me with desire , his hands touching my body. I whimper and pull  away, laughing he throws me to the bed .........


   I froze in fear as my body hit the bed, my arms aching in the tight ropes I lay helpless. At his mercy, but he had none. Rough hands pulled the clothes from my trembling , struggling body. Screaming silently for the gag did its job only too well, tears streamed from my eyes, pleading for him to stop, not untill I was stripped before his hungry eyes did he. I pressed myself back into the bed away from him, shaking my head and crying. He laughed at my fear, touching and teasing me, then lashing  a rope around my neck, tethered me to the bed post. Looking down at me , smiling, he left me to my own fears. I looked at the door and heard the key as it was locked behind him. I heard him talking to a man posted near the door, they laughed , then silence. I was left to wait, my terror mounting ever higher as the moments turned to hours. My aching limbs, tight , held perfectly no matter how much I struggled. I was helpless and would remain so till I was released from the cruel ropes binding my body....



    I tried to move, something was wrong, my arms wouldn't obey me. Suddenly my eyes flew open and I screamed, but no sound came forth. The gag held me in silence , the events flashed back to me and I horrified, remembering what had happened to me. I tried to rise from the soft bed, the silken cover thrown lightly over my naked body some time in the night slipped down , theatening to fall from my breast. Fearing I would lose what little covering I had been given, I laid back and was still. Looking around the cabin, I was alone . My mouth was dry and I wretched , sick and aching, tears spilling down my face, I trembled and waited. Nothing could I do to free myself, the ropes had been well tied and I struggled to no avail. But the more I struggled the tighter they seemed to dig into my soft skin. I heard a noise outside the door, I froze  hearing footsteps approaching and then voices . A key turning in the lock and the door was thrust open , he stood in the doorway, lighting a small lamp by the door and placed it back on the shelf. Turning , he looked upon me. I shrank back and whimpered as he approached me, struggling maddly but fear drove me to pull at my now numb arms. He strode over and pulled me toward him, rolling me on my stomach , inspecting my cold , numb arms. He frowned and then  cold steel was touching me, I whimpered frightened, but he only cut the ropes binding my arms. Rubbing and stroking them, bringing them painfully back to feeling. His hands were in my hair, long dark tresses, falling over my face and down my back, gently he brushed the hair from my face. I felt the gag losen and then pulled gently from my aching jaws. He leaned down and touched my mouth, feeling my soft swollen lips. He smiled and then untied the rope from my neck, pulling me to sit before him. I gasped as the soft silk sheet fell and exposed my full breasts to him, grabbing at it and cluching it to me. Eyes wide with fear, I tried to speak but no sound came out. His fingers pressed to my lips , telling me to be silent. Rising, he went to the small desk and taking the glass poured water in to it from the metal pitcher then bringing it to me , urging me to drink. I drank , looking at him , watching over the rim of the glass. His fingers trailed on my arm, cluching the sheet to me, I shuttered and pulled away. Laughing he took the glass from me and pulled me into his arms, I struggled and screamed trying to push him away. Pushing me back  down into the bed, pulling my arms up over my head, lashing them tight to the rope on the bedpost, helplessly  struggling he tied me again. I opened my mouth to scream and his mouth crushed down on to mine, a brutal harsh kiss filled with desire , stealing my breath and making my head reel. I tasted blood, the brutal savage kiss, brusing and harsh. I longed to kick and struggle but bound I was helpless again. His rough hands caressed my soft skin, exploring my struggling body, I whimpered as he did what he pleased with me................

I am reflecting and letting the experiences I find here take me where they will, I have met some good friends and it matters not that they live so far away, a bond is a bond no matter the distance that divides friends, they are so cherished , and this past few days have been some of the hardest Ive ever been through but those friends have been there to support and make me whole again... so to my friends.. thank Y/you all, Y/you know who Y/you are and why I love Y/you all so very much... Kat~