9/12/2017 9:38:59 PM: Day 4 Training slave x  (not posting the photo's here, can't figure out how)I texted him earlier in the day with his chore list....sweet the patios for me, mow the back lawn. I'd also asked him to pack a pair of shorts to wear in my backyard, but he'd already left home, so I gave him directions to a store near me where he could pick some up. He did. He's such a good boy. When I know he's coming over to serve, he's in my head all day at work, which is a hazard because I'm trying to maintain a zero percent error and I need my entire brain to be focused on the task at hand. He kept popping in....I text'd him and told him to stop it. He wasn't very compliant. LOLWhen I got home, and pulled into the driveway, I was already grinning. I knew what I was going to see when I opened the door and I was already happy. He did not disappoint, there he was, kneeling, naked with his tray with the collar and my glass of wine. I put my things down and had to say hello to my dog or she would have been a tremendous pest. Slave x was very understanding. He'd spent the afternoon with her, he knew how needy she was.Then I walked over to him and I'd missed him so much that I planted a kiss on his lips and hugged him. He was still wet from the shower I'd instructed him to take when he was done in the yard. I then helped him took my drink and helped him up, and we went into the kitchen where I instructed him to pour himself a glass of wine too so we could go downstairs and relax for a bit and catch up. I hadn't seen him in a couple of weeks, it felt like months.We got caught up and finished our wine and then I took him back up to the upstairs living room area, remember it's a Tri Level home....and had him kneel. I then put his collar on him and reminded him that it was time to call me Mistress now. Then I left him kneeling there and went upstairs to get my purple rope! I was a bit out of practice, so it took a bit for me to find a tie I was happy with, here is one of them....I really hate that they load sideways, does anyone know how to fix that??I then took the extra rope and tied it to his collar so that his cock wasn't flopping around while he mopped my kitchen floors.....Here is a pic of him in my Kitchen mopping while tied....I will learn to manipulate these photo's later...Anyway, I enjoyed watching him mop while I filed my nails and talked a bit with him.After a bit the head of his cock was swollen and purple and he was concerned. I removed the rope and let him know that rope can stay on a cock for about thirty to forty minutes, so he was fine, but I didn't want him to stress the first time he was tied. He will learn to trust me over time, but it's all new to him right now. I took him upstairs to show him the room I'd cleaned out over the weekend. I'm fluxuating between turning it into a home dungeon room, or a crafting room...hmmmmmmmmmmm......what to do......More on that later.Then we went back downstairs and I sat on the couch and he sat on his pillow on the floor and did some amazing and sensual oral foot worship on my mouth, Whichever foot was not in his mouth, was gently rubbing against his soft chest hair....or his cock....or his nipples.....pretty much everywhere. As we did that I told him the story of how my oral fixation got started. I'm not sure if it's a story I can share on alt, as I was grossly underage, but I found myself sharing it with him. We had a really good conversation about that. He's so easy to talk to.....I really enjoy his company and having him serve me.I keep finding myself kissing him. I try not to do that too early in training....sometimes never, but with him, I keep wanting to kiss him and so I've decided to allow myself that. We are beginning to share intimacy and that is needed if we are ever going to get where I see this going. I want him in my intimate space. I want him in my intimate space when I'm with someone else....I want him there when it's just he and I.....I just picture him there, serving in whatever way I see fit.Eventually the kissing led to more touching and kissing and then I told him it was time to go. It is always hard to send him out the door.....but everything in time. The timing of every step, has to be perfect and make sense. Thank you my pet.........you are doing beautifully......

9/10/2017 1:59:25 PM: Recently I received yet another offer to won a true 'Financial Slave', or money slave. I have never understood that fetish. Why don't they just get married and have a family....you are a true financial slave from then on, right???? When I worked at the Pro Dungeon (I was a manager there, not a Pro Domme). I actually saw a couple of instances where it was real. There were a couple of the Pro's who had packages sent to them almost daily. One of them had a huge Amazon list and one of her financial slaves made it his goal to buy here EVERYTHING on her list. It seemed to feed her ego tremendously. I guess it would, right? I have an Amazon list......I have had ONE thing bought for me, and I'm fine with that. I was completely caught by surprise and it never happened again, but it was really sweet. I have to be honest, I have replied to those pleas for being my 'Financial Slave', in the past. It never really works. It was yet another in the hundreds of different ways in which a slave cleverly gets Dominants to dance to his tune. I caught on to that quickly, as I am not easily maneuvered. Eventually, I'd just respond by sending my Amazon link and say 'Buy me three things off my list and THEN we will talk about how serious you are about this'. It NEVER happened, not once. (the one purchase was from a random slave who got my list off of Fet Life). It's laughable to me. I try REALLY really hard to not laugh at a persons fetish no matter how ridiculous it may seem to me, but that one....the money pit, it's laughable to me. Thoughts? Want to be my money slave????? Cmooooon, you know you DO!

9/10/2017 12:36:53 AM: Somebody sent me an email, which seemed to be some sort of a slave contract. It was out of the blue, no previous contact, no introduction of any kind, no other type of conversations or contacts. It was quite long and detailed. I feel sad for people when they do that. I've been around this Lifestyle for a long time and it is such a rookie move. I get it, people get all excited and caught up in the 'Slave Market' series mentality. (I loved those books by the way, not knocking them!). But that is fantasy people. It isn't in ANY sense reality to be in a contracted slave position WITH A TOTAL STRANGER. When someone sends me something like that, I immediately feel exhausted. Subs that need that sort of attention and 'clarity', are too needy. I've had them.....they want the Top to tell them what to put in their mouths at the dinner table, what to wear, what time to go to the bathroom, to ask for permission to go to the bathroom......when to breath. It's topping from the bottom with the shield of 'submissive' in the contract. They are in sense saying 'Do this for me in exactly this way'. Ugh. No thank you. New Dominants who fall into this trap (and yes I was one of them!!), soon learn that it is very tiring and that you have lost all power. They will struggle to 'fulfill' the needs of their submissive, only to end up feeling drained themselves and not getting anything out of the 'exchange'. Over time, a new Dominant learns what they truly need from the whole experience and they become more discerning in choosing who to spend their D/s time with. It took me about 3 years of floundering about in my Dominance, to finally start to figure out what I wanted and needed from the experience. I had been going only to a mainly male Dominant club, and suddenly found myself working at a Dungeon filled with Female Dominants. It was VERY eye opening. I learned that Female Dominance is quite different than male Dominance. Once I was immersed in the female Dominance culture, I finally began to come into my own as a Dominant. I learned to call my own shots and only then can ANY Dominant really Dominate. So no......don't send me your 'contract' of what you will and won't do. When I choose someone, it's based on what I will and won't do. And I won't do that.

9/8/2017 10:58:23 PM: (remember this is copied and pasted from another site I blog on)Okay, so I have to say that I am really kind of grossed out by the 'flash' films they show on the right, when I'm on the main pages. UGH, guys with HUGE cocks slamming them into tiny girls who weigh about 80 pounds. It's not something I want to see and makes me want to run every time I am forced to see it when I log in here. They must make money off it, or it wouldn't be here, but EEEWWWwww.I watch some weird porn too, but to me, that crosses the line of underage people being brutally abused. It's like barely legal stuff. I get it, many men are into that....yada yada yada, but I really resent it being forced on ME visually. Oh well, you hang out on adult 'porn' sites, you are going to see porn and you aren't going to like some of it. On the other hand, if they chase the women out of here.....then it turns into something else here, doesn't it?Okay, rant over. *shudders*I tried to go out tonight. I was bored, and it's Friday night and I work hard all week. I wanted to do something.......but the person I wanted to go out with, is home sick, so I just drove around, listening to music and cursing this town I live in, for it's lack of culture and good music and places to go that are not just crowded bars. This town rolls over and goes to sleep by 10pm most nights, including the weekends. Well, maybe 11 on the weekends. Ugh. I ended up going through Del Taco for a quick bite. Their 'fast food' took 40 minutes in the drive through. I was watching the poor young mom in the care behind me, trying to manage her young kids trapped and hungry in the car, everyone was fighting, grouchy....she was yelling, and it sounded like, at the end of her rope.As I paid for my dinner, I asked the cashier how much the bill was for in the car behind me. It wasn't really that much for a car filled with people....I paid it. I remember someone 'Paying it Forward' for me once and it meant a lot to me. I was a young mother and was at McDonalds drive through with my kids, pretty much in the same situation....and it was the monthly night that we even had fast food, because I couldn't afford to take my 3 small kids out, with a single Moms salary. I had to watch every penny. A guy in the car in front of me, paid my bill....I cried. I wondered if he had ANY idea how much that helped me and touched me and helped me remember that there were kind people left in the world. Kind men.......I'd had enough of men who were unkind, to be sure. That man made my DAY. It felt good to do it for someone else and know what a difference it would make in the car behind me. The Mom would be shocked like I was....very touched, and the kids would see an example of human kindness that touched their mothers heart. I bet the fighting stopped. It did in my car when it happened for me.Please do that some day.....look into the car behind you and think about how it might change that persons day if you did a kind thing like that. It makes your heart feel SO full, trust me. I was having a pretty crappy night and I came home feeling pretty great. Lets do more of that in the world please.Now I am pretty tired and going to get an early night. I'll probably write tomorrow. I hope YOU went out and did something fun tonight! 

9/7/2017 10:02:48 PM: I am SO tired. I hope I am not getting sick. I am just SUPER tired today. I worked in my yard when I got home, swept all the porches and thought about how slave x should be here doing all that......but he will be here soon. He gets back to the US on Sunday, and we are going to see each other on Tuesday. We are both missing each other, so it's going to be super nice. I am worried sick about this hurricane heading strait for Southern Florida where my oldest son lives with his wife. He can't evac because he is Military and has to be there for the aftermath. He served in the Air Force, then got out, finished school and worked a few years and then decided to join the Air National Guard, so now he is gettin ready to be part of the force that helps put Florida back together after this disaster. I worry....I'm a Mom, can't help it. Maybe it's the stress from worrying about that.........I am just so wiped out. I'm off to bed now, I hope I fall asleep early! And I hope my dog doesnt' wake me up, she was acting weird last night. I was worried we were going to have an earthquake -- you know how sometimes people say that their pets act all weird right before one? Well with the natural disasters happening all around us, this would be the perfect time, wouldn't it?? Ugh........I really need to get out of my over active imagination! Stop laughing at me. No really.....stop it.