10/21/2021 5:57:51 AM: ...this works again? Aweseom and thank You.

10/15/2017 8:16:06 AM: I've often wondered if these submissive desires of mine are best thought of more as a sexual orientation than a fetish and then today I found this article: Dominance And Submission Are Forms of Sexual Orientation (Really!) From the article: “Sexual orientation is an enduring pattern of sexual and affectional attraction. People are increasingly using a wider variety of labels to describe their own orientation, sexual orientation need not contain only one label (heterosexual for example). I describe sexual orientation across three dimensions: 1. From heterosexual to bisexual to homosexual (i.e., which gender(s) are you attracted to). 2. From Dominant to submissive. 3. From highly sexual to asexual.   (Remember that I am talking about orientation rather than gender identity. Gender is how I see and experience myself and does not necessarily apply to how I relate to or with others.) “ Expanding her 3 dimensions to include the notion of romantic orientation  I think I might today best be described as a highly sexual submissive bisexual heteroromantic. But...what to do with this knowledge?  Though it is oddly comforting to have myself described this way it does little to ‘take the edge of’...

10/14/2017 8:22:01 AM: jumbled thoughts today as I once more, inevitably, tire of fighting these desires.... ...wondering today if its possible that i'll ever be able to either truly accept or deny this part of my self. is it just that i'm lonely?  at times I fear i might just be hungering for someone, anyone, to give pleasure to, to be of use to, to be seen...  this desire of mine, to be the object, to surrender to another, is not at all what I've been taught it is to be a man and it is very much at war I think with my not-yet-totally abandoned hope to be loved...how do others reconcile these things?  do they?  where does this end for me?  am I doomed to always be alone - trapped in this cycle of denial?b

2/11/2017 9:21:12 AM: I realized the other day that, with the holidays and a terribly busy work schedule, I've not posted in quite some time so here goes...Its been much too long since I indulged myself so today I'm planning on spending the day nude but in chastity, imagining someone here, watching me, as I go about the normal routine of housecleaning and laundry....

11/8/2016 4:20:14 AM: So... in case you were wondering, in the unlikely event someone is reading these things...I did shave everything the other day and I was right.  This feels ever so much better. My whole body seems somehow more open, more alive.  And I love having this naughty secret beneath my clothes....😈