In the vanilla world I am alpha in every respect but behind closed doors I prefer if she takes control.
I have an extremely strong sense of self which makes me successful in every aspect of my vanilla life but this strong sense of self was brought about by trauma and neglect. I believe part of me resents that Ihad to become so strong so early in life.
I suppose what I seek in a dominant woman is the idea that she would see me as the person I was before I had to become so strong.
