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I actually got introduced into this lifestyle at a young age. It wasn't by choice when that happen. Now its hard for me to get out of this lifestyle because all I feel the urge just to seek approval and please people. Though at times while I'm doing all of that I get hurt in the process. Though I have falling in love what happens after being used and hurt, the comforting is what I have crave. I willing to go through all of that just to feel those few minutes of love. I have seen alot in my life. If you want to collar me you should know before you put that collar around my neck and that is I do have a scars on both of my wrists and a couple on my ankle as well. Before you/y'all judge me because of those scars, just let me say this those scars prove I have walked through hell several times. Don't judge me because of my scars or my past. I am a college student who plans to return in the Spring and I also have a full time job that requires me to work late into the night. I am shy at first but once I get to know you, I will break out of my shy phase and get wild. Yea, I'm kinda random at times. As you can tell by profile that it jumps from one subject to another. I am somewhat well behaved, if I break the rules it's not on purpose. Message me if you have any questions, it may take me awhile to read the message but I will respond to you as quickly as I can.

10/18/2014 12:13:23 AM I don't know what to say. In all honestly I am freaking numb! Part of me just wants to cry. The other part wants to go back to my bad habit and just pick up the razor and don't still I have had enough or I'm covered in red which ever comes first. Suicidal no! Just tired of trying and end up screwing things up in the end. Happiness is also a joke in my world now because the little bastard gets killed every single time I get just a lil happy.

10/15/2014 4:50:27 PM I haven't posted in awhile but anyways a lot has happen. Got in engage to a beautiful woman and then she ripped my heart out on April 1st by breaking it all off completely. So I'm single and it kinda sucks at times.

9/26/2013 11:55:26 AM Seriously need some friends. Lost all the friends I use to have.

9/25/2013 11:44:25 PM Kinda sad. The people I really enjoyed talking to are gone now. ;(

9/24/2013 10:52:22 AM Sitting at the lake after being turned away for trying to go get some help. I have about lost everything thanks to this damn problem. I just wanted to get some help to stop all the bad memories. ;(

9/24/2013 10:52:20 AM Sitting at the lake after being turned away for trying to go get some help. I have about lost everything thanks to this damn problem. I just wanted to get some help to stop all the bad memories. ;(

9/14/2013 5:03:48 PM This sucks! Can't obey a order tonight. Go to the mall like I was told to take some pictures and soon as I step out, I step right on a broken beer bottle. I have been stuck in a small room with a male nurse pulling glass out of my foot. Is this funny? Hell No!! I have about screamed every curse word imaginable and the nurse still has to take my shoe off! I don't if I shoe fetish or not but I saw this pair of nice high heel shoes walk by and I thought damn! (Sorry, y'all but I'm looking every where else besides at my foot. Don't do well with seeing blood anymore. I freak out.) I wish I didn't drop my phone and crack my back and shatter my camera. Looks like I have to go to C.P.R in the morning to get it fixed. I hope that I'm not here all night.

9/13/2013 1:56:25 PM Three bottles down. My ass is on the ground!! I'm so drunk. ;(

9/8/2013 7:52:56 AM I believe I reach the point of no return in my life. So exhausted.

9/2/2013 8:39:59 AM The night at the hospital I have to say was an amazing night! It felt good. I take that back it was amazing.

8/31/2013 5:16:36 PM Some of the nurses here are hot!! Some country girls know how to mess you up bad. ;( It hurts knowing my friend rushed me here. Laying on hospital bed, bleeding. It makes it hurt even more when you have a hot nurse looking down at you an ask what happen? I finally admitted in front of my friend that I was bi! Now, I am being asked fifteen million questions and all I want to do is curl up into a ball and just cry.

8/31/2013 8:58:54 AM Funny how all it takes to country girl to do is talk and barely touch me and I'm on my knees between her legs trying to please her. Something about a country girls voice drives me crazy.

8/24/2013 8:00:49 PM It hurts more than one could possibly think it hurts. To be hurt by a family member and fail the one you practically worship everyday. It going be a long painful night. Wishs my head had hit the wall harder than it did when I was slammed against the wall. Blood stains are on the wall but it don't help make up for failing the one I worshipped. ;(

8/16/2013 3:48:26 PM I'm the girl who doesn't like what she sees in the mirror. I'm girl who cries behind closes doors but stands strong in front of others. I'm the girl who is random at times but makes life entertaining. I'm the type of person that still question their existence. I'm the girl who is struggling still with her issue! I'm the girl who usually gets her feelings hurt the most in the end. I'm the girl who wore her heart on her sleeve. I'm the type of person who has no self confidence, because it was destroyed a long time ago. I am the type of person who feels like they are a freak of nature in this world! I am the girl who tries to hide everything from friends. I am the girl who has lost faith. I am the girl who is broken.

8/10/2013 9:33:54 AM I'm not the one who is outspoken. I'm usually the one that sits in the corner with a hood pulled over covering their face. I'm the type that gets nervous and stutters when they talk to a hot girl or guy. I'm the person who has got bullied in high school. I am the girl who is afraid to fall in love after being told so many times the person will stay but the person just walks away.