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In limbo. The profile below is 8 years old. Read it with a grain of salt. Original profile below. Please read the whole profile before messaging or dismissing me. You might be surprised at what you find. For purposes of discretion, I cannot upload a photo to my profile at this time. This does not mean that I wont be willing to share some in private messages.Who am I?You can call me squeak, for now. To say that I am quirky would be an understatement. I am a 25-year-old female, in all senses of the word. I have a submissive personality in day to day life, but within a relationship I would be a slave. In play, I am a bottom, and usually a fairly heavy one, although I do have a service top side that comes out on very rare occasions (very rare). I am definitely a masochist, as well as a service-oriented being. I am kind, caring, compassionate and fiercely loyal, to friends and lovers, and sometimes even complete strangers. I have discovered that I seem to have an innate ability to almost always see the good in others. You can call it a blessing or a curse, depending upon the situation. I am literate and intelligent, although sometimes Im not all there. I love all genres of music (though some more than others), I immensely enjoy reading (mainly science-fiction, fantasy, and yes, young adult novels - guilty pleasure), and I have recently started to enjoy hiking, though I am a beginner for sure. I am the homebody type I like to cook and clean, take care of my home, my mate and my child(ren). I am wanting to go back to school. In an ideal world, I would be the good little housewife. I consider myself fairly seasoned, at least for my age, though I am the eternal student in all things. I take this stuff pretty seriously, in that its not a game to be played, its not a joke to me, its not a fad, it is life, and who I am. That is not to say Im a serious person. I have my playful tendencies and a sense of humor. Im not small, by any means. It is something I am working on (Ive lost 50 pounds in the past year), however, I will never want to be tiny, so if you are looking for a stick, or have a problem with larger girls, pass me by. If you are a chubby chaser, you will probably want to pass me by as well. I will always be thick, even if I get down to my goal weight, but I dont want to worry about losing your love if I lose weight. Anyway, enough about me. Im horrible at talking about myself anyway. If you want to know more, feel free to ask any question youd like.What am I looking for in a potential mate?A dominant male, or switch who can be dominant with me a majority of the time, who is older than me, but not by too much. Id say within the 25-42 age range is probably ideal, likely somewhere in the middle of that would be best. Someone with a fair amount of knowledge, wisdom, and experience of Ds, Ms, SM, discipline, and the like. Someone who has at least some sadistic tendencies. As I have said before, I am a masochist and I need my fix, so someone who isnt sadistic at all is probably not for me. On the other end of the spectrum, a very heavy sadist may not be for me either, as my pain tolerance varies widely from day-to-day. Ive had a lot of people ask me how this works, so I guess I should explain. I believe very much in energy flow in all things. If the energy between myself and my playmate is good, and we click, and Im in the right headspace, I can take quite a bit of pain. On the opposite end of the spectrum, if the energy is all wrong, we dont click, or Im in a horrible, rotten mood, I cant take anything at all. Hopefully this helps explain that. I need to be tied up, beaten, and even used and abused on a regular basis. I also need someone who can be tender, a cuddle slut, and romantic and spontaneous.I would prefer someone who is single, and looking for a monogamous, long-term relationship. Id love to get married one day. And I want to be in a romantic relationship with my dominant as well. I am not seeking a couple, and I do not submit to women. I am not a beta, so if you are a couple looking for your unicorn, its not me. I want to get married one day, and have a family. If the mere thought of marriage andor commitment scares you, then you should probably pass me by. I have my insecurities, and a good relationship with my one needs to be very well-established before anyone else can be brought in.As far as looks, Im not into men who are extremely defined, muscularly. Im into slender men, who are strong, even if not defined. If that makes sense. Long hair looks good on some guys, and I like it when it looks good. But sometimes short hair looks good, too. Especially on soldiers. I am the only one that can say what I am attracted to, and its not that easy to explain, so even if you dont think you fit the mold, so to speak, as far as your looks, but you fit the rest of my profile pretty well, then it cant hurt to message me. Its hard to describe physical attraction preferences to begin with, especially when you sometimes find yourself surprisingly attracted to certain people. Hygiene is a must, though.A military man would be a huge plus, especially a soldier in the Army. I have a thing for fit men in unis. Being Irish or Scottish would also be a big plus, as would having a love for all things Celtic. You also get big points if you can rock a kilt. Accents are nice, too. None of these are requirements, just earn you bonus points.