ok this is not a game or play its life liberty and the pursuit of service.If you want a 247 submissive slave I am it but online doesnt work for me I needs hands on skin. hot breath on my skinand the smell and feel of a man taking whathe wants. The joy of kneeling just inside the door as I wait for his return. Going in public kneeling at his side not caring what anyone thought or said because his happiness is what matters. proudly wearing his collar and when people ask I just sayMaster requires it. Knowing that he will always protect me teach me and help me grow never to damage me or tear me down without building me back up better than I was.
I am a lost and broken submissive. looking for structure and guidance Not always about sex. Dont get me wrong i enjoy sex a lot but it cant be the only thing. I have been people that calls themselves Dom but wont take the time to get to know me they just want sex and that it. Or the want me to switch. That is something i can not do. I am not wired that way. I am submissive always without fail. I have played with others that we have a great time. But i never see them again and they never tell me why. I need someone that interested in me. Wants me and desires me. Someone that i finally trust not to hurt me or just one day throw me away. If you truly want to know more just ask.
I have stage 5 kidney failure not from drugs or the like just my genes. I am on dialysis 3 days a week.
Looking for a TPE relationship. 247 full time a part time arrangement will not work I need my Masters hands on me. Will relocate for my Alpha. I am not a fantasy chaser I know what i need and want. And yes there is a difference between need and want.
Maybe I am seeking something that does not exist maybe he is out there. Unsure about me. Take the time to talk to me. I will surprise you. If you look at my full profileand are interested say something I cant read minds and intentions.
I just need my Alpha I dont really care about a lot of stuff. just that I belong to him and he lays his hands everyday on my skin. that I get to crawl to his feet and be of service anyway he choses.Granted I like sex but the act of being taken sometimes even forced to obey is needed too.
11/12/2017 5:27:58 PM: Well it seems that no one wants this broken slave so i guess i will fade away bye
6/6/2017 6:06:57 AM: took this test today
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
89% Rope bunny
88% Slave
70% Boy/Girl
70% Exhibitionist
68% Degradee
67% Non-monogamist
67% Voyeur
66% Experimentalist
61% Primal (Prey)
59% Ageplayer
58% Masochist
54% Submissive
46% Pet
43% Vanilla
37% Brat
0% Switch
5/19/2017 9:42:49 PM: Very tired of all this. Everyone of any value is soo far away. I don't even know why i even try anymore. No one reads this anyway or if they do i am damaged goods and worth just as much.They don't want me or anything to do with me. I should just give up and walk away into the darkness. no one really cares anyway. Unless you can fix this and willing to have a broken submissive. Willing to put her back together again. Then just walk away and let her fade into the darkness. I will no longer chase a Dominant. If he wants me then he has to chase or find me, take me and make me his. Anything less is not exceptionable. Some will be offended by this and i can do nothing to fix that. Its what is on this broken submissive mind she is in many pieces since he Master passed. He took the glue that held her together. Now all she knows is pain and being lost. One man thinks i am worth something but he is over 300 miles away and in a bad problem too. He lost his home and most of what he owns. I am not sure if he can help me. He makes excuses and forgets to call when he says he will. his word is not absolute. Haven't had my hands on his skin and may never have but with it is the only way i will know the next few days will tell. I don't know what to do next I am lost I hope he or someone like him can find me before i walk into the darkness alone.
1/18/2017 3:07:59 AM: I see so very few people value someone for their mind rather than their ass. I am so tired of the people that don't understand that. You submit with your mind well before your body.
9/25/2016 3:10:23 PM: At 3:17 this pm Master Mac passed away. I will be away for awhile i might never come back only time will tell