Something about the Hood You Live In.

In any good relationship involving a slave girl and her owners, there is the need to train her to recognize her place - where she is allowed, what she is allowed, who she is allowed, and to what extent she is removed from society and becomes owned as an , a thing in the hands of her owner, to be controlled and trained.

Long ago, in creatures only distantly related to the slave girl, very specialize brain cells pushed out of the head to gain a view of the world, a view in dimension, in color, in shape, in beauty or in horror, to find food or prey, and to avoid becoming such, to find a fellow, or to avoid such.

In time, as with humans, the eyes, the vision on the world, provided up to 90% of all information a slave girl needs to get by in the world, sometimes even more.

Being a slave, she must recognize the fact that, all that vision, all that information gathering, is at the pleasure of her owners, and can be denied at an instant, and for extended periods of time.

That denial can be done in any number of ways, but the most readily used - the hood, has the most impact on her from the instant it is placed over her head.

In general, hoods are made of leather or vinyl or rubber or latex, sometimes of material such as blue jean or cotton or spandex. 

It may have eye holes that can be covered or closed, a mouth hole that also can be covered or better, plugged.

And at least one small nose vent to breath though, sometimes more.  Less than one has an obvious disadvantage.

Many are laced down the back, much as a good leather boot, pulled tight to make the material conform to the slave girls face.  Some have zippers for that purpose, and a few have both.

When put on, and when being tightened, it is incumbent on the slave girl to maneuver her nose to keep the nose vents aligned with her nostrils, otherwise...

Most good hoods have a switched on leather collar, that locks tightly around the neck, and can have chains attached for any purpose the owner may desire.

For the slave girl locked inside, it is a mixture of feelings and emotions, thoughts and dreams, hopes and fears, and total resignation.

A hood can not be gotten off easily, specially when bound tight.

It is dark inside, and will remain so.

You may feel totally helpless

You may feel totally alone

You may feel total terror

You may feel total bliss

You may feel total safety and comfort.

Well, let me kick off this writing to you with this first document This one and all others may use words and describe parts of life and relationships that the uninterested my find offensive I also may often you the word you or another pronoun that has the same meaning

I am writing to your mind to read and understand me and give me significant feedback so I understand you as well

Because I am writing this more or less on the fly, the thoughts may be laid out a bit more scattered than a book, but too bad

I am writing to the submissive deep in your mind and being, the slave or the masochist that needs and desires and wants and needs more

So hang in there

You must have a very strong mind which is determined to learn things most just ignore

Let me touch on some emotions as the physical, mental and emotional state of life is so deep into all this

Most people are basically insecure That is why research has shown that up to 98 percent of people are very satisfied being followers and letting others take the responsibility of decision making and leadership

The mentality of a person that advocates she is a slave is right there

She looks first of all for safety and security and close behind that is the need to feel wanted, to be needed, to be of value

In return for that emotional reassurance she is very willing to do almost anything to please another because that is the one great thing she has the power to do

Being bound tight she nearly always tests the bondage to see if she can get away It is important to her that she cannot because it has an emotional meaning that someone took the extra time to insure that grip on her and it carries the meaning that she is wanted Almost any of strict control, humiliation and abuse is far better than being alone and unwanted

It does not need the complications of sex or to say someone loves you or that they would never want someone else one day far off

At that moment it is a simple fact they want you and that is what starts your life living

As you step into it deeper, being blindfolded or hooded restricting eyesight calms you in very deep ways Its that other one is taking responsibility for you and your needs and most of all your safety You will want to feel it, and reach out for the one controlling you that way

Being locked in a cage has at least a double meaning emotionally

You are restrained and kept and thus very limited in what you can do without someone wanting you to do it by letting you out

But there is also that gate and lock between you and the world, which can be seen as keeping all the evil things that chase you real or imagined out where they can not reach you

A strict cage not only is like your prison, but also like your base or your fortress where again you are safe, where you can indeed relax and sleep

And that collar

Like a wedding ring, it means so much to a submissive slave She has made it and her ownership and that desire to take her is on display for all to see When you can, you finger it and hold it and fidget with it, and know it is there for a real purpose

But to have all this requires that someone really does want you, be it for the better or the worst, that want and desire is real and gives you a place and purpose in life

And with that, you are never really alone In time, you may feel frighten or scared or even cry when it is taken off when for a short time

Even deeper is the matter of control, and how it reaches into your personal thoughts and life and gives you something to live up to and meet in a consistent way

Both pain and pleasure are emotions first and are often never tended well in everyday life In a stricter life, so much fluff and useless energy is removed or not allowed and something special happens

You can focus

You can see more clearly yourself and all you need to be as well as all you want to be

Yes, it takes time and training and understanding to know the reason why you feel that the slave in you must submit and submit deeply and unendingly

Those emotions of need and want are so different and so rarely understood

You can want this feeling to be like a beautiful ring to wear, and you want it a lot but you can eat and drink and breathe without it everyday of your life

A need is like the air that you breathe and that need is so powerful that a few minutes, without it you are dead A slave grows up wanting things, but at the same time she grows up needing things Control and submission show the path of making the needs a reality

You learn to focus on those things in life that are needs and those that are wants when all the fluff is removed and those distractions to your emotional thought process are removed

I am a writer, and a scientist and I can go on and on about this, and do so in the face of all those that just want their experience to be sex with a little rope

The true slave and the true owner learn that there really is so much more to this life

I am glad that you understand it from a more personal level rather than just a bunch of words

There are then to myriad branches that are the individual needs and wants from this life that include S M

Pain is an interesting feeling The mind can not reproduce it or dream it or make it happen all over again

It must always be reapplied

And pain can be so forceful and powerful an agent to achieve a state you want to be in

Some need pain in an attempt to satisfy some deep emotional need

Some see pain as a necessary punishment

Some see pain as a meaningful gift to the sadist

Some see pain as a driver to orgasm greater than any pleasure

Some need the after affects like the marks and bruise and show them off or feel them with their fingertips when alone remembering

But pain drives and often drives harshly at pushing stressful feelings out of your being for a while As one woman said, it is so wonderful to have someone else do all the driving for a change

Stress is every where in your life and often unseen or not noticed due to all the other fluff and distractions going on

You wonder why you feel so bad It is often due to stress and yes you could smoke or drink or do drugs or go to a gangbang at a truckstop parking lot and find some relief

All are painful in their own way

ANd perhaps for a while the stress is removed

But none answer the need to please another that is important to you so you should be like the little frog and look before you leap

Your thoughts are indeed right on the money

You do need to be owned and that is a mouthful of sweeping conditions

Being loved and being cared for and kept safe and looked after and having emotional and physical needs satisfied are not always the same thing

A slave is often not loved as a lover else she is just not a slave

A slave can really deeply love her owner if that owner always answer her needs and controls her wild wants so she knows her place

I can be strict and at times very abusive and I can read you the riot act and enforce it physically and emotionally until you learn where the lines in the road are and you stay in them

But

As an owner I would care for you as I would a loyal pet which is consistently trained and not kicked around just for hatreds sake

So many people can care for a pet so much more deeply for years than they can for a person that does not know their place

And the reason is simple

Most pets will not challenge the authority that owns them and always submits to it because

They need it

And so do you

An insight for a slave downunder to understand the sadist side of me.

I found along the way somethings very interesting.

Pain

Pleasure

Intense pain

Intense pleasure.

An hour later, while marks remain, you can not remember how either felt so it must be performed again

And again

And again.

Endorphins

The little body chemicals that respond to pain over time, and not just mask it, but make it feel pleasurable.  

For example, if you ever hit your shin very hard on something, it really really hurts... but if you pay attention, your body may well begin to feel better, 'good', 'happy'. 

These are those endorphins taking hold just as they do during a serious orgasm.

It is setup with very strict escape proof bondage.  Whispers in the ear of the hopelessness she is in, the pain and abuse that is coming, she is softly petted before the sudden abuse envelopes her, and she will wiggle and moan and scream and plead but nothing will relent.  Nothing will hold back the pain she will feel

Nothing.

And she is reminded of this verbally, which often primes her mind for the direction will will take, and since she has no control, she is told to release it all without holding anything back.

The mind begins, anticipate and then demand such as it goes along, thus you have slave screaming 'harder' and 'more'  and dont stop.  Do not ever stop.

It is a semi-conscious state many call subspace but it is just the effect of endorphins.  The more the better as they say

Thus you have the state where the sadist feeds off the slaves love of and need for pain and she encounters pleasure in abundance that she is not allowed in any other way.

I have whipped women long and often and very hard to achieve the end result.  While they are passed out I watch them to make sure they are breathing ok and such.

When they come out of it, I teach them to parade in front of me after I release them.  Show off their marks, their colors, which ones hurt the most and inspired the deepest reaction.  Then to kneel and forehead on my right boot to thank me and then forehead on my left boot to beg to do it again.

And I hold them for a while and let them recover more whispering how the next one will feel and how long it will last.

Then they can go about their daily slave duties with purpose.

They will fell totally secure and safe in their purpose.

Its a very nice place to be.

Well, this is working again....

Our move to North Carolina continues.

THe first big van of belongings got there and Amy has disperse it though the house.

The new Koi pond has been dug out and we have ordered the liner for it so we can start moving our fish from the old house.

The room to keep and train the slave is waiting for me to arive to set things up.

I would share with you a factoid or two...

Most men, are more loving than sadistic... most are more submissive in nature despite being one that preaches dominance.

A man that is a sadistic, naturally born, well practiced, and r core being , you are not a lover.  I repeat...  you are not a lover. 

You are a masochist, where the unknown of pain is what makes your life complete.  Looking for a dom, will not work very well at all.

You need to look for a sadist that is also a dominant - yes there are some that have differences.

A sadistic dom will know how to keep you, in just a few minutes, in total helplessness, with no way out, no reprieve, no rescue.

He will enjoy you that way more than even having sex.  He will enjoy your fear, your tears, your begging, pleading, until you are exhausted and then he will begin to really hurt you..

Mark you

Own you

When you consider it, sex is over in some minutes, but pain and fear and total control last hours - days - weeks , and if lucky, most of your lifetime.

The fact is he will NEVER love you, but you will make him happy and in your soul you will love him in that dark space where your pain is his control.

 the only way ever to feel an organism is when  you have been beaten, whipped, cut, lashed, tortured, with all your crys and pleading ignored.

You would live helpless, in a cage, in an armbinder, in a hood, in a tight gag deep into the mouth, your body marked and red and in places throbbing in disbelief that it is you here, and he owns you.

I should hope this makes sense...........  that it appears to that dark need of yours, and nothing to logic.

And yes, I have been that kind of lifetime sadist as has Amy, and to us this is the 'normal' life.