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So...that leads this girl to believe my Master is causing me to seek Him just as He is seeking me.
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This girls name came to me while?I was doing some soul searching. I had come upon a story of how a pearl is formed and it interested me to say the least. It made so much sense to me esp. in how it can relate to a Master and slave dynamic. A pearl begins its life inside an oyster's shell as an intruder such as a grain of sand or bit of floating food, the pearl slips in between one of the two shells of the oyster and the protective layer that covers the mollusk's organs, called the mantle. This is very irritating to the oyster (Master) and in order to protect itself from irritation, the oyster will quickly begin covering the un invited visitor with layers of nacre ? the mineral substance that fashions the mollusk's shells. Layer upon layer of nacre, also known as mother-of-pearl, coat the grain of sand until the iridescent gem is formed.
Growing up I had a shy and submissive nature but submissive behavior was considered to be weak and not acceptable esp. in a society that strongly supports women's liberation and gender equality etc.. Therefore, as I grew I hid my true nature deep within my core being. Many masks were created to protect the so called weak and vulnerable parts of myself. Needless to say, I wasn't a happy person at all. Rarely did I allow these vulnerable parts of myself to come out of hiding. At first, I used hiddenpearl as my nick name because truly I had hidden for so long that even I didn't fully know who I was. Thus, there has been a process in uncovering the layers and masks used to hide. Many experienced Mentors and Masters and slaves have helped guide me in this process.
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This girl is seeking her Oyster so to speak and isn't looking for just?a moment nor a velcro collar. Also,? I've discovered that i am not one that takes well to just idle play. I find it leaves me empty and feeling alone. I perfer the depth that two can share once those walls come down and you truly begin to develop depth and trust needed for the intensity of a relationship in this lifestyle.?
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