i thought i'd found what i wanted, a Master i could learn from. After almost two months, i was starting to live as a real slave when he suddenly decided i wasn't right for him and made me move out. i feel like a fool and idiot now. i abandoned my friends and even my family for him and he didn't care about me at all.
the more i experience and learn the more i know this is the right thing for me. i'm not going to be someone's girlfriend or wife, but i hope i'll get to be their property or animal. i look at people around me and know they're all better than me and find myself wanting nothing more than to be groveling at their feet begging for the slightest acknowledgement and desperate to be used for their pleasure without any regard or interest in what i want.
1/18/2013 2:36:23 PM
i added a pic because really what does it matter any more. i'll add more soon