In a misguided moment, I was taken and upon the death of a loved one, he dismissed me. I will never know if my mistake with him caused his action or if it truly is his family. Grief can be as deep with the living as it is when someone passes. It causes true sadness. Such grief has hit me and I am unsure of the time it will take to heal. 

      I believe in getting back on the horse and riding again as it goes and I try and so far I have failed. 

      Maybe on day I will be whole again with the right Dom or Master how can take me, be kind we can go slow and develop something for both of us to share.