There's a good line by Eddie Murphy in Trading Places where he is pretending to be a Vietnam Vet soliciting in the park.  He yells to a woman who passed him by "once you've had a man with no legs you'll never go back!".  There's some truth to that.

I haven't always been paralyzed.  I broke my back doing something really stupid when I was 21.  The first thing I remember waking up in the hospital was "I can't feel my legs".  The second thing was "I can't feel my cock".  Yes, no more erections, no more orgasms.  The ultimate in orgasm denial.  The big mistake many people make is to think there is no more sex drive.  Quite the opposite.  That was the beginning of my journey into bdsm.  I had dabbled before but from that point on it was destiny.

I have a good relationship with a like minded woman who gives me what I need.  What is there that is lacking.  Why am I here.  The hunger still lingers.  The things that I want.  She is forever with me.  That much we know.

Some people switch at the drop of a hat.  Me, I go in cycles that may last a few days or weeks where I'm in a deep submissive space or up on a ruthless rooftop.  Today I'm in the middle.  Wanting something...