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| I am missing the D/s dynamic in my life. Living a vanilla life. I am relatively happy but I understand now that I am submissive down to my bone. I go to sleep every night not 100% satisfied as I haven't been blessed with the opportunity to be able to fully submit.
I have had the pleasure of being able to learn some of the expectations of being a submissive/slave. I still have much to learn and I admit I am shy and I get nervous. I love to please in all aspects. Just knowing I made someone happy by following through on a simple request brings me joy.
I crave being dominated. My selfish side needs it for my own pleasure.
I have been on this site in the past. I have been made a fool a few times. I am not eager to go through that again.
I am not searching to go meet up and be punished. Yes, I look forward to the day my Dom slaps my face and brings all my attention to the moment we are sharing. I am eager for his hands to be wrapped around my throat. It doesn't take much for me to beg for my ass to be spanked...hard.
But... I can't bring myself to submit to someone until I have a connection. I would hope that my future Dom would want the same of his submissive. By no means am I intending to be bossy. I have just learned that honesty is very important.
I do have photos. I thank you for your understanding on why I don't not have them posted publicly. Once I get to know you a bit to feel comfortable sharing, I am happy to send.
I have been told I am pretty. I have long dark hair. Hazel eyes. Average body type. I am becoming comfortable at the gym again. I will be more satisfied with my appearance in about 10-15 lbs. I am a sucker for lattes though and they are coming in between by goals and me :) I am reward driven so I am working on a goal to push towards to get my butt in gear a bit more.
I am in a vanilla dating relationship. I am happy with the relationship except for the lack of the D/s power exchange. I have brought up my desire for it and it has been brushed aside each time. I am not looking to end this relationship. I have never cheated while in a committed relationship so this is a big step... yet difficult for me. My guilt it getting at me a bit but at the same time, I feel the need to be in a D/s relationship so deeply that I don't feel completely bad about having these needs met elsewhere. It is an internal struggle I deal with and likely always will. Discretion is important to me. I am not eager for negativity or chaos in my life or to cause it in yours.
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