Last week i had a Doctor’s appointment. i fully intended in going locked up, but then thought better of it and cut the lock off.  i have a new lock, but i am contemplating whether i will self-chastise myself again. 

i have been locked away for over 14 weeks now and it is interesting on how this has affected my mental state.   i am overwhelmed with the need to remove any possibility of removing this device, to throw away the key and damage the lock so that it will be permanently part of me.  So, for Christmas i will be doing just that, as a present for myself. 

Maybe a tattoo or piercing for my birthday.  Any ideas?

i have been locked up and without any relief for 10 weeks and i feel a complete change within.  i have lost interest in any self gratification and the need to unconditionally give myself has begun to increase in intensity. 

The thoughts of non-consensual slavery have been heavy on the mind of this slave.

July 21, 2013 i started my chastity.  

i have tried to stay locked up, but the rubbing wears raw spots into my flesh.  

Thank goodness i still had the key.  The raw area is mostly under my testicle sack, is there anything i can do that will stop this from happening?

Thank everyone for their words of advice.

i do realize that having the key does defeat the purpose of chastity, but i never carry it with me and have only removed it because of the fitting issue.

i am compelled to get this fitting corrected so that i may stay locked away until which time i am able to hand the key to another and once again serve.

Toying with the idea of self chastity.  Any thoughts or advice would be helpful and appreciated.