Good afternoon all (or at least those who read profiles and journals )... So i  must say i don't write daily as it it plain to see but just had to write today. For two reason one to share my excitement of how  my visit to Master draws so very near.  it is consuming this slaves every thought and to say this cunt  is counting the days is an understatement.  And Second  is to share  some of my  journey that has brought it to the  this place...  this slave is working so very hard to prove its  worth and value as a slave. it has been several months since this slave has had the honor of serving Master in person. slave is not complaining as it knows all to well the the reason it took so long was  because slave was a selfish cunt acting immature, bratty ,and attempting to top from the bottom. and although it may of been mostly caused from slaves in experience slave knew enough that it should have trusted Master's knowledge to know what is best and slave chose to act on insecurities that caused Master to put slave in  its place to allow it to reflect on what it  had been taught. so with much excitement slave is  so grateful  to Master who now  feels slave has once again earned the opportunity to serve Master in person. it has been a long road back to repair the damage caused  by this slave but Master has said slave has come a  long way from the shy lil newbie He meet here on CM last December and from the the selfish lil cunt it became in early spring..this slave will continue to work hard to learn from Master and all he  offers to teach this slave. this slave knows there is still so much work to be done, bad habits to be broken lessons to learn  but slave has no doubt she is a very lucky slave in deed to have been found by Master. So to all whom take the time to read this i thank you and would enjoy hearing your thoughts and would also be happy to answer any questions you may have. I wish all of those still searching or waiting to be found the best in your journeys .And finally slave wants  to tell those who have become discouraged on this site and others like it not to give up because it was  right here that Master found this lost confused broken slave whom knew she was indeed a slave but knew so very little about what it truly meant .....

                                                                                       sincerely Masters slave

So i spent all night helping a dear Friend a new submissive whom is going through what most of have when we first Begin and that is lesson the  of learning how to truly let go and let the One that  we have given ourselves to truly lead us.... In my helping this new sub this slave realized that she herself has grown much over the past 9 months under the guidance of Master. this submissive kept asking slave how do you give up all your wants and desires how do you let go of the romantic ideals we have all been force feed wit fairy tales our whole lives.... My response was that to my Master the way he uses me is no different then a vanilla kissing or cuddling  so i have chosen to see affection through the eyes of my Master.Therfore have not given up my desires  but gained so much more....

So my previous journal entry has generated quite the response Most are of 2 varieties The first of which are from Dom's apologizing for those of you whom the entry was in honor of. A BIG  thank you to those of you whom are sincere and took the time to agree with me or give me support. The second  are from those of you whom were very angry with me and felt it was a personal attack against yourself.. Honestly i am  impressed that you let go of your cocks long enough to type out your angry emails or maybe you did it one handed and  in that case im very impressed... But some food for thought if my journal entry angered you it may have struck a nerve and you should spend your time figuring out why that is and not badgering me.

has come to the SAD SAD conclusion this site is full of lil boys who like to talk to a real slave while jerking their cocks off but wouldn't know what to do with one if she fell into their laps.......