Any time i feel myself slipping, i look at a few profiles on here and i am highly motivated. my doctor said i needed to find motivation toward better health—if She only knew! This time next year, i plan to be physically and mentally strong. i will be ready to crawl before a Mistress, begging to serve in the way i should.

i have been more dedicated to improving myself in the past week. i hope to become a better submissive.

In light of my current path, i am still trying to decide whether self pleasuring or over eating was the more grievous offense.

i started to slip today, but focusing on my desire to prove myself worthy to serve gave me direction. Just being better for a few days—exercise, eating, meditating on serving a Goddess, focusing on work—is but a start, i know.

Thanks to those of You who have written with words of motivation. i seek both encouragement and scorn to this end.

Changing my habits requires discipline. It is my hope this burgeoning self-discipline will lead to a more evolved submission.