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I am feeling like Goldie Locks… not good enough for any man… One Master released me because I was not old enough… One Master released me because I was too old… One denied me because I was too fat… One released me because I was not big enough for him.. One liked fake breast; which I do not have … One liked tattoos; which I do not have…One said I was too pretty… One said I was not pretty enough.. One didn’t like a slave with a mind; which I do have… I thought I found just the perfect man for me… I moved my children to be with him, I gave up everything for him, I think of him every second of every day… How can I please him? What can I do for him? How can I make him happy? For him to deny me.. He lied!.. He portrayed himself to be something he is not!....I have been abandoned again.. all alone and feeling though I will never be enough for any man..Why did this happen to me? What did I do? Was I bad in bed? Did I not please him? Why could I not be enough for him? Why… I am just here view the message boards. I have realized that some females are just distended to walk the earth alone. No I will not post a picture nor send you one. I have another profile on here.. things as usual….right. No one will know the truth right? And He is here still searching. Who am I kidding he never stopped…. I gave him everything and he gave me nothing… I have been the worse kind of fool… I have been used and I say no more. I will never open myself up again. NEVER!!

2/19/2009 5:42:35 PM

 I want to thank everyone for their letters of encouragement. For the most part people have been very supportive. There have been a few messages from couples and men wanting to hook up. I am just not looking for that. I just feel so broken, it isn’t just that he lied to me and mislead me but that I allowed myself to believe him and to trust him without question. It is really not an issue of loving again but the fact that I can not trust myself. I am always the one that cares too much in every relationship. I do not know what else to do but to give up.

gothicraven
 
 Age: 24
 Branford, Florida