I have to be honest...I am a bit overwhelmed with all the new rules and changes that my life will undergo, but I am excited as well.  Though I am not alowed to touch myself, I can feel my pussy juices accumulating as I wrote my rules for my new life.  I struggled today when Master told me to beg for my orgasm.  I struggles to find the right words and not sound cliche.  I also realized tonight that I have alot of work to do.  I understand in my head what I have just gotten myself into but my mind nad body do not seem to understand.  My mind still thinks that I know best though my pussy, as Master said today, belongs to him.  What does that even mean or entail?  How should I respond when He askes me if I want to play with my pussy?  Do I say yes to please Him or becasue I really want it?  What will happen if I don't obey the rules?  I wonder how Master will punish me or if he will just threaten it.  I fear that if I am simply let go I will repeat them again as a toddler does when he/she is not properly chided.  I fear not pleasing Master enough or being my of a hassle to him than anything.  I fear dissappointing him or making him think that I am something that I am not.  I have read enough BDSM novels to know the right responses but I do not want to simply repeat what i think will sould best.  I wish for the words that come out of my mouth to be ones that please my Master.  Ones that will make him want me around. 

 

I have work in the morning so I guess I will be signing off.