I wrote this a while ago and now feel strong enough to share. This website messes up all the formatting, sorry.

A Token Of Things To Come

Heart spoken feelings tumble softly from me,

What do I say, you broke me, made me me, made me whole.

I refrain from spilling my heart for fear of fear, let alone the loathing of hoping for something which cannot be.

So what are we?

Are we one? Are we apart? Are we two pieces that fit together seperately but together?

Unknowingly you have ripped me to shreds to build me up again to someone that I recognise,

But at the same time I do not;

A confidence has broken through the confidence façade and my eyes shine with something strange,

An alien content, a foreign feeling of fulfilment.

Though we have not yet met.

Do I allow my heart to fall headlong into an untouching dedication to something uncertain? A heart felt dedication to something untangible and potentially desolate?

Yes, so far.

Yes, with all my heart, all my mind and all my trepidations.

So help me, for my sins, I have stumbled into a lust verging on love from which I cannot walk away.

Unspoken, broken, a token of things to come?

Oooh! This is fun!

Apparently my photo is a piss poor attempt at photoshopping my username onto a screen shot of Eve Myles in Torchwood.

Hmm. That's fine by me; Eve Myles is HOT! :D

Verification photo now up.

I have a major bee in my bonnet and I feel I need to clear a few things up as I'm worried that a certain other CMe user is about to spread rumours about me.

Living in very rural Wales I have difficulty getting online - we do not have 3G signal available to us and we do not have super cheap, super fast cable broadband. Obviously having lived with this all my life I found it rather a shock when someone evidently did not realise this. How small minded some people are.

So, long story short; apparently I'm actually a guy called Dave who is masquerading as a lesbian. I found this quite the revelation considering I've never owned a cock and balls, I've always had female genitalia and I have fancied women for as long as I can remember.

This is the last message I received from previously mentioned CMe member;

'lack of wifi doesn't stop u emailing dave. what l find insulting is men pretending to be lesbuan girls dave, your blocked now btw'

My mistake. I meant 'broadband' not 'wifi'. I see them as synonymous. And yes actually, lack of broadband does prevent me from emailing due to previously mentioned lack of 3G signal. The reason we don't have the internet on a lot is because we have a limited usage monthly package (because broadband costs more in rural places), therefore the parentals keep the internet turned off.

If I am a man pretending to be a lesbian girl then I have been thoroughly misguided by my parents, friends, acquaintances for the entirety of my life and as such feel highly miffed! Though, having just checked for phantom tackle dangling between my legs, the reflection in the mirror still leads me to believe that I am female... with female bits.

Blocked? Fine, that's up to you, but I would suggest you don't instantly cut people off purely because they have infrequent access to the internet. Also, please learn that not everywhere has the level of joined up infrastructure as you're used to!

Anyway, rant over. I'll be uploading a verification pic soon (sometime soon, not immediately; remember the internet issue??) and if you really REALLY want to call me 'Dave', I'm sure I could live with it.

MB