I am on this site mostly to check out the BDSM lifestyle. I am totally inexperienced with all of this but I do know what I would like in the bedroom!

It is a bit intimidating to be truthful. I am a small town girl who has lived in the safety of my little box. Everything outside of it is scary to me but I am very open-minded and what I really want to do is lose my inhibitions and step outside my box!

As of right now, I am NOT looking for a relationship, sex partner or any physical contact with anyone on this site. Basically, I just want to learn more and I really enjoy reading the profiles and have learned a lot from them already! I don't mind sending or recieving messages, making new friends or taking any advice that someone may want to throw my way. Be nice though...I have not had any bad experiences yet but I won't respond to anyone who is just mean or nasty!

Although I am not looking for anyone, I will still tell you what I am looking for/would love in a relationship, just so you get an idea of who I am!

I like to submit in the bedroom, I like dirty talk or to be called "light" names, I am not into humiliation whatsoever!! I love to struggle and be naughty...I FIGHT BACK...so I love a strong man who can keep me pinned down! I am not really into all the props either, some handcuffs and ropes or knife-play is really all I would get into. I like strangulation, hair pulling and slapping (NOT HITTING). I like regular sex...no fisting, anal, or anything weird like that! Toys don't turn me on either. When I am with a man who I am completely into, I ONLY need him to pleasure me...no need for anything else!! Toys are only meant for when I'm alone and don't have a man to pleasure me! I love sex...but I don't believe that it would be any good without emotion involved! When I have sex, I completely put all of myself into it which is what makes it so great for the man! Believe me, if I didn't, I would be a dead lay!

I am also a natural care-giver! I really go out of my way to make my man happy...except I don't give away my money or buy things for him unless it's a special occassion!! I shouldn't have to. When I'm in any relationship, my money is my money and his money is his money! I have never merged finances! I do believe in paying for my share though! I also would never ask a man for money...EVER! But if I live with someone, I expect them to pay their own bills and half the living expenses! Oh...and I'm not the maid, although I like a tidy house, I expect a man to share household chores and I expect him to NOT want to live like a pig!!!

I will be honest here and say that I am a little insecure about my body. That is one of the reasons that I would love to just lose my inhibitions in the bedroom and stop worrying so much about how I look! I do work out, both cardio and weights, 4 days/week for an hour and a half. I am working on my insecurities but it is slow-going.

I do have 4 kids and they always come first in my life...ALWAYS!!!

I am not looking to do this 24/7...I am in complete control of my life outside the bedroom! I do what I want, when I want and with whom I want! No one ever tells me what to do! If I found someone who I wanted a relationship with and trusted, I would compromise with him on things but I could never totally submit in my real life! I think one of the reasons I am drawn to this whole lifestyle IS because I am always in control and with that control comes so many responsibilities...I just want to give it up once in awhile and release...what better way then in the bedroom where we can both release and de-stress!

I love BAD boys! I love tattoos but not so much full-body ones. I love dark hair, I love long hair on men, I love muscles, I love men who are different, funny, intelligent is a must, confident but not conceited! You can be a cowboy, you can be grunge, you can be red collar...I have not been attracted to too many pretty boys though but some are ok. I like the scruffy look, the rough, hard-working guys! Give me a guy who works on a roof, works under a hood or anything physical, a guy that gets his hands dirty, a guy who when he gets off of work, he looks totally exhausted and needs a good bath! I will take care of you! No worries! Oh yeah...for some reason, I LOVE LOVE LOVE younger guys...usually they are anywhere 24-34. But I am not limiting myself to those ages if I am attracted to someone older. It just rarely happens that I am! BUT, going after those younger men is probably the reason I have so many problems in my relationships because they are just not ready for commitment! If you want to know what type of older guy I would love...think Sam Elliot...now he is a HOT older man!!!

I am always complimented on my skin and how young I look. I have pretty long straight light brown hair. I am a jeans and t-shirt kind of girl but when I go out, I love to get a little dressier with jeans, high heals, and a dressy shirt. I don't wear make-up too often or do my hair either unless I go out, am looking for a job or just feel like it! I guess the reason for this is because, living in a small town where you see everyone all the time, how would I make myself look more dressy when I went out if they saw me like that everyday? I really don't care about jewelry that much, don't wear fancy diamonds or pearls, in fact, I always lose my jewelry anyway so cheap is always best!

I LOVE TO DANCE! I love going to our small bar downtown and just letting loose on the dance floor! Of course, I have to get a few beers down first (Bud Lite is my choice of alcohol). Also, when I get a little down me, I am a very loveable girl. Well, I am anyway but I will tell you, I LOOOOOVE most everyone when I'm drunk! I will even karaoke...especially if I won't remember it in the morning..haha...cuz I pretty much suck at singing!

Speaking of music, I can't and won't live without it! I love all types of music...rap, rock, metal, classical, country, pop...but don't ever take away 80's and classic rock music because I would just die! If I had to name one of my all-time favorite bands...I would have to say Foreigner or Fleetwood Mac! But I love all of them really!

I am very easy to get along with! You can't go wrong with me unless you intentionally hurt someone I love! I am very forgiving though and I will always give you the benefit of the doubt if you can prove it to me! I put up with a lot of bullshit though...probably not my best quality. There isn't many things that piss me off but DON'T piss me off! That would be the wrong thing to do! But I don't play games either...I DO NOT amuse people by playing their mind games! I am not a mean person, even if I don't like someone, I am still civil towards them! I try not to judge a person if they have done wrong...I try to see the reasoning behind it! That being said, I will not tolerate lying, stealing, cheating or anyone that mistreats a child in any way, shape or form! Being honest is always the best thing to do...even if you don't get what you want by doing it! I always respect an honest man, even if he tells me something I don't want to hear...even if it is rejection!

I am a night owl! I stay up late every night! Like, right this instant, it is 2am and here I am writing this damn profile when I should be in bed! I love night but at the same time I loathe it because I am always alone at night. But it is when I have the most energy, I am the most creative and I am the most horniest! It is mysterious and beautiful at night! If only I could share the night with someone I loved...

Ok...I guess that is all I am going to say for now. I guess if I haven't explained enough, just ask me!

OH YEAH...I ONLY LOVE MEN. I am not bi-curious and I only like one-on-one! Well, I have fantasized of having 2 men...but don't really know if I could ever go through with it! I am just a simple girl...sorry if that doesn't turn you on!

And a few more things...I don't do drugs, never have, don't smoke, drink occasionally and I have never been married.