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| Cut out the games, let's skip to reality. The best situations are built on reality.
I know what I'm doing most 90% of the time, whether you are aware of it or not is the game.
I've lived distyles, pursued different avenues, but there is always something missing to life. Life isn't about putting up with the bull crap and having five minutes to do the things that make you happy when your wife is asleep.
We all choose the course of our own lives. I have chosen to skip everything that most people think makes life "perfect." I will never marry. I will never have children. And I will not stay in a situation that only brings me frustration and sadness. Can you say the same?
I've found my happiness. Now I'm seeking to find someone who has found their happiness, that is similar to mine. So we can be happy with each other. So we feed off of each other. Not work against each other.
My happiness is being a child.
Hold on for just one second, I have given this an enormous amount of thought (something most people don't do anyway with their lives), please just humor me.
I have no shame in being who I am and pursuing who I want to be. Even if that means taking some dark roads to get there.
I am intelligent, what I have chosen to be is not a reflection of my intelligence or competency. I have lived every year of my life to the best that I am able at that time.
But my happiness is being a child. I've turned to the D/s lifestyle because it's much like a parent/child relationship. The Master knows what's best for his or her slave. Never steering them in the direction to hurt themselves, but only to benefit. Even if it is just training the slave to mop the floor correctly. Everyday, the Master builds his slave just a little bit more. And if it is a good slave, she will remain docile, and cling to his teachings because she should know that all he wants is to teach her how to make him proud.
I am an age player. I am looking for a "Daddy" or a "mommy" or both. Both must be dominant, controlling, but tender enough to deal with the "child" aspects of my personality. It's very delicate, but not breakable. It takes a lot to break me.
Be tender, loving, understanding.
But be rough and disciplinary.
No s.e.x.
I have no desire for s.e.x.
You can go find it elsewhere if you must. I am indifferent about the subject, but straightforward in the fact that I refuse to engage.
Other than that, everything is open. I really don't think you've considered all of the possibilities if you are getting pissed off just about not having s.e.x.
There are ENDLESS possibilities with the opportunity I am sacrificing to you. If you really knew, surely you wouldn't be so bent out of shape at not being able to stick it in me. You could do that to literally anyone. But what I am giving, most will not give to you because of their own selfish values of their life. I give it all. But that, s.e.x., that is so unimportant... I can tell if you can see the big picture if you can accept that I will not engage in that. Period. If you can't accept that, then we weren't meant for each other anyway. I understand everyone has needs. You can fulfill your s.e.x.ual needs with another person. I do not mind, nor am I jealous of the partner you choose. That is such a primal feeling, jealousy. Just be honest from the beginning as I am being honest to you.
Diapers, baby play, bottles, pacifiers, snuggling, toys ect :) everything that makes childhood wonderful. But discipline is not expected to be gentle. Discipline and punishment is just that, and I agree 100% with any type that you feel is necessary just as long as it doesn't have the potential to get you into trouble (breaking bones, deep cutting, mutilation, ect.)
There really are no limitations beyond the obvious. I admire a Master who can create horrific punishments without damaging his slave.
I do not drink or smoke or do drugs. I will not expose these things to myself, if you do any of these things, I am truly sorry, you could have made a wonderful Master. I will not let down my own basic standards. And I really don't think that's asking too much, for you to save your own life by not engaging in those things.
There is one thing I CANNOT and will NOT stand for; drama. Go elsewhere with this.
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